Chapter 08

Soobin was trying hard to run in the middle of the night on the dark street. He was trembling out of fear as well as dejected. He never could imagine the guy whom he respected so much would lust after his body. He couldn't understand why the teacher was acting like that. Was he drunk? Or was it the effect of any medicine? Soobin couldn't get any answer. But as long as he could remember, the man didn't seem to be drunk nor affected by any drugs.

Since when did his teacher have thoughts like that towards him? Soobin wondered. And thinking back about the situation he discovered right after he woke up, he felt very disgusted. His dick was all wet by that guy's saliva. And he was feeling very uncomfortable all over his body. He wanted to go back home as soon as he could and get a shower. Would the strain be washed off which the guy left on his body? Soobin couldn't understand what he should do. Moreover, he made the guy bleed before leaving the house. He won't die, would he? Soobin was very scared. And the thought of being accused of a murderer was haunting him too. Who should he go to now? Who would help him? He was so helpless. He couldn't stop his tears from bursting out of his eyes anymore.

After he came back home, he saw how many scars(hickeys) there were left on his body. He quickly went to his washroom and turned on the shower. He stood under it without taking off his clothes. He started rubbing his arms, belly and chest so harder that it seemed like he wanted to skin himself. He started crying heavily. He lost all of his strength suddenly. He sat down on the floor and tucked his head between his thighs. Water was falling on his back, making him drenched in water fully.

The next morning, when he went to the school, he noticed, everyone was looking at him weirdly. As if they were judging him from head to toe. He felt like all of them wanted to chew him alive. Some people were pointing at him, saying, "he is the one on the forum." Soobin couldn't understand what was going on. Suddenly a thought started haunting him again. "Did the teacher die?" Soobin was very scared but he couldn't ask anyone about this anything. He went to the class and saw those bullies were talking with each other as if they were having a round table meeting. But seeing Soobin, the leader type boy stopped their conversation and looked at him.

"Hey! I heard that you slept with Mr. X yesterday! Did you enjoy…." He winked and gestured at Soobin with his hand to ask if he had good sex with his teacher. Hearing him, everyone around the boy started laughing loudly. And other students who were there to watch the show started laughing in silence. Soobin panicked for a while. How did they know? What was happening? Does everyone know about it? Then, what happened to Mr. X? Is he alright now? Did he spread the rumor? Soobin had a hard time breathing. Soobin quickly took out his phone and checked the school forum. He saw a post about him and Mr. X in it. There was a post where a picture of Soobin and his homeroom teacher was attached. In that photo, Soobin was sleeping and had his shirt unbuttoned. His teacher was in a bare body lying beside him, smiling and posing with a V sign in front of his camera. Anyone with a little sharp eyes could easily find the hickey marks on Soobin's body with no time. It was clear that the selfie had been taken by Mr. X.

Suddenly Soobin's chest was feeling stuffy. As if someone pressed on his chest harder and he couldn't be able to breathe normally anymore. He was trembling and all of a sudden, he dropped his phone from his hand. He felt as if the world was spinning around him. He couldn't stand there anymore and fell on the ground.

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Soobin was reminiscing about his past. He recalled those dark memories which he wanted to bury deep inside and never wanna remember. He started feeling weird in his stomach. Suddenly he had a hard time breathing. He sat down as soon as he could but it didn't help. He felt as if everything he ate earlier wanted to come out from his stomach. He was panting heavily but his stomach didn't let him rest. He ran to the washroom and bent down in front of the toilet.

He puked everything he ate earlier though he didn't have a problem with his digestion. He just couldn't help but every time he remembered those memories, his body acted like that. As if thinking about how that guy touched him, making him want to throw up.

After finishing throwing up, he got up though he was breathing heavily. He washed his face with cold water again and again. But it didn't help him calm down. It was getting harder to breathe for him as if he'd lost his breath at any time. So, he rushed to his room and tried to open his desk's drawer beside his bed. He was trembling so much that he couldn't open the drawer quickly. He needed the inhaler inside the drawer to calm down. But he was shaking so much that he could hardly get it. At last he could inhale it and took a deep breath. He leaned his head on the bed and sat there like a dead body.

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Yeonjun just arrived in his town after he finished delivering his goods for the day. He needed to go far so it was already dawn when he got back. His whole body was aching because he needed to weeding his strawberry garden. Though his workers did the most part of the work, he still needed to do a lot because he couldn't just sit around. Moreover, the loading and unloading of the truck was tiring too.

"Aigoo! My shoulder hurts!" He pressed his one shoulder with his hand and stopped driving. He wanted to go home as soon as he could and get a nice warm shower to relieve his pain. But when he noticed he was near the field where he met Soobin some days ago, his heart started aching. Since the day Yeonjun met Soobin, he couldn't just stop thinking about him. He wanted to meet him again. But he couldn't find him. So, he visited late Mrs. Han's house everyday, hoping he could meet him. But alas! All he could find was the darkness and loneliness inside the house which wanted to embrace him whenever he went into the house.

Yeonjun finally came near his home and parked his truck in his garage. He locked the door well. Though he was tired, he took a walk just like an old man taking a stroll. While walking he came in front of the house and stopped. It could be seen clearly that nobody was inside the house. Still, Yeonjun went to the door and checked if it was truly locked from outside. And when he found the door had a huge lock, he sighed and walked away.