Chapter One Hundred and Twenty Nine - Anger at the Truth?

Settling into bed after a wonderful evening, with a nagging pain, behind my neck!

How dangerous can Adana be? Would she try to do to me what her mother did to mines?

How do I get Adian involved in this, without hurting him? I know he has questions, but he hasn't asked anything. It's as if he's waiting for me to open up first.

Over the years, especially since my nightmares returned, I've only depended on myself and my inner wavering strength!

Throwing himself beside me, wrapped in a towel, droplets of water dripping unto his still damp body!

Laying in his stomach, his feet dangling off the bed, he just stared into my eyes, but his unreadable expression got me nervous.

"What?" I broke the silence, taking a deep breath, breast raising close to his face, drawing his attention from my face to my breast.

Pulling himself closer, he lays his head on my chest, "what are you so afraid of?" Adian whispers softly, as I sense him tensed up.

This is an opportunity, this is it, but Adian could become angry when I tell him what I remember.

Deciding to take this chance and if he's upset then, at I know where I stand!

Closing my eyes, I took another deep breath. "I remembered something else, the day mom died" I whispered. Since Adian didn't comment, I continued, hesitantly, silently praying that he won't be upset with me.

"My mom.. mom didn't.. she didn't just fall" I stammers, "I remember her being pushed, when she turned to look at me." I said, watching Adian lift his head in slow motion!

Raising an eyebrow, quizzically, "when?" Adian asks, his tone and expression disbelieving.

"Cold Springs!" I responded, sensing a negative change in him, already regretting, sharing this information with him.

Darn you Gerard!

Adian gets of the bed and adjusts the towel wrapped around his hip.

Running fingers through his damped hair in frustration.

"Why am I now hearing this?" He asked, his voice raised, storming towards our closet.

Sliding off the bed, I followed him slowly, watching as he pulls a pair of boxers from the draw.

Dropping his towel, pulling the boxers over his naked body, before he continues to look around for more clothes.

"Why are you angry?" I asked, surprise at his response to what I told him. It's not as if it's his mother that died.

Towering over me, Adian turned on me, "why the f*** didn't you say something earlier?" He shouts. Backing away, I ran, but Adian was faster than me, so he caught my arm and turning, l I bumped into his chest.

"Where the f**k are you running to? Are you going to run and disappear again?" he shouts and this time, I'm sure everyone's hearing him, especially Adana!

Dragging me forward, he throws me on the bed, but I sense he could have been rougher.

Sitting up, I watched him pull on a T-shirt and joggers, keeping his eyes on me.

When he's done, he comes to stand in front of me, "don't run, please!" he pleads in frustration. "I just need to clear my head!" he turns to leave but I stopped.

"Take someone with you" I whispered, following him.

Without turning around, he picks up his keys, wallet and phone, "Closed the door," he advises and walks out.

What just happened? I asked myself, tears that wasn't even there, started falling. What did I just do? Why did I just push away the only man I ever felt an attraction for? The only man I ever loved!

I walked towards the door and locked it, sliding down against it, till I'm a weeping mess, crumpled on the floor.

Lifting my aching body of the floor, I realized I slept the night away on the floor and Adian still hasn't returned.

I went directly into the bathroom, even though it's early, I could at least get some privacy to read some of the files from nanny Pierce.

Nanny Pierce! I still don't know what happen!

My shower went longer than normal, because I spent the extra time crying!

"God please give me strength, to remain!" I prayed under the water.

By the time I returned to the bedroom, I felt emotionally exhausted, which led to a inner calmness.

In zombie mode, I dressed for the day as normal, in a short black skirt and a white chiffon long sleeves button up shirt. Completing my outfit with a black jacket that will cover the sheer top.

Instead of calling for Gerard, I sent a message to Adian, Basil, Gerard and Mel's phone, informing them that I already left for the office, so no one will panic and assume that I ran!

I opted to have coffee at the office so I locked the bedroom door and left. Adian's Benz keys are missing so I just took the Audi keys that was lying on the counter.

It isn't yet six, so I'm safe from any verbal contact with anyone.

It's been awhile since I drove anywhere and I smile, hoping Adian doesn't mind me borrowing one of his babies.

Looking around the carpark, hoping that, maybe Adian returned, but I'm not so bless.

I was on full alert in the early morning traffic after not driving myself anywhere, since I moved in with Adian, it felt great to be free, once again!

Sullaknights security opened the gate as the Audi approaches and I by the smile on the guards face, I knew they thought, it was Adian.

I rolled down the window and waved as I drove slowly by. The security's expression changed from shock to surprise, then to curiosity!

First thing I did was get myself a cup of coffee, before settling down with two files I randomly pulled from the bag. Since I have no idea what's to look for, I just pulled from the side and top, anxious and afraid, not ready for what it holds!