Train Of Thoughts

Lying in bed I could only contemplate the pain that never stopped tormenting my heart.

It was a devastating feeling... I was left by the one I loved most.

My thoughts were in great sadness, I didn't see the purpose of life.

Everything seemed meaningless, I was defeated, had no breath to continue this painful arena.

I wanted to cry so much but the tears just wouldn't come out.

My anguish and suffering took the best of me, my world had fallen apart.

Eloísa, my unborn daughter, played happily inside me.

I felt bitter as I remembered that I had to answer this question one day 'Mommy, where is my Daddy?'

I would never have the strength let alone courage I going to tell her that her father didn't want anything to do with her or me... No child deserves to go through this.

The feeling of rejection was indestructible as much as I tried to feign tranquility, there was this storm inside me and no one could help me through.

I shut my eyes tight in hope to calm my nerves but fail miserably as my heart speeds up.

Gosh! How will I overcome this? At this pace I can't even breath in peace...'Lord help me.'