Should I regeress?

'Should I kill myself?'

Tap Tap Tap Tap

I tapped the ground with my feet as I thought about the different ways to kill myself fast and painlessly.

'I will be able to start things again if I just die...'

I had died and started things over so many times already. Doing it once more wasn't something much. I will make sure that I won't hit my young master this time after regressing and find another way to get expelled.

'Damn. He really lost his memories after getting hit in the stomach...'

I didn't think much when I went to beat up my master. I was still in a daze after regressing so suddenly, and sooner than always, and also somehow irritated due to my dream earlier, and that might've led to me hitting the man too hard... but... That still didn't make sense no matter how much I think about it, him losing his memories just like that...

'Hah! Strange.'

Tap Tap Tap

I kept tapping my feet while thinking about the events of this morning.

'First of all, the doctor's diagnosis was just... too quick!'

He literally didn't do anything and just threw some random words at us and the rest. My punch triggering some freaking mana reaction? Are you kidding me?

That was just too bizarre and too fast.

'They might execute me... So there might not be a need for me to kill myself...'

I mean, they killed me after dealing that permanent damage to the young master at that regression turn, so it isn't impossible to get killed this time again.

But I can't be so sure. It was because the damage was to the man's brain this time. He had lost his memories and that was bad.

The young master of the count's family was next in the line to become the count. He wasn't the oldest child though. He had an older sister, the young lady.

As the young master was the only son of the family, he was the next heir to the county because male children were always the priority. In addition to that, this young man was quite smart and hardworking. Over the years, he earned so much reputation by his great deeds in managing the affairs of the county that no one dared to say that he was the next head only because of his gender.

But still, there were some who didn't like this man. One of those people, and the one who opposed him the most, and also the most powerful one, was his older sister who didn't want to give up the position of the next head to his little brother. She did anything and everything to get his position. If the young master's power and control over the region dropped even a little bit, she would seize the opportunity to strengthen her own power.

Even if the young man fell ill for a few days, things around him would change dramatically by the time he was up again. There were even some murder attempts, aiming to kill the young man in different ways, but none were successful up until this point in time. The young lady of course never was caught red-handed.

Anyway, the situation was bad. The young master has lost his memory, wasn't that the perfect opportunity for his sister to aim for his position?

Despite having a trashy personality towards his servants, especially me, the young master was not a bad person in general. He cared about his people's well-being and did his best to improve the living conditions of the citizens of the county. The young lady was the complete opposite of the young master.

There were a few times in some of my past lives when the woman managed to kill her brother and became the countess. It didn't even take one year for the county to get destroyed in most of the cases. Starvation, an increase in taxes, illnesses, and countless bandit attacks, all ruined the county in less than two years.

It didn't really matter to me who died and who became the count. I could regress if things went wrong... Though that would be a little bit annoying to start things again.

Though if I wanted to keep living in this life, I'd rather live in a safe place than on a destroyed land. But I had to find out what had happened to the young master before regressing again.

And if I really wanted to regress...

Tap Tap Tap

'But... How am I supposed to kill myself in this place?'

I looked around. All I saw were black walls that were surrounding me. I was in jail. They said I had to stay here and wait for the count or the young master to decide my fate.

'Please just execute me.'

Killing myself was troublesome, and not exactly pleasant. I didn't want to try doing it if possible.

"Haah!"

I sighed and laid down on the cold and more-than-uncomfortable bed of the prison. It has already been around half a day since I was thrown here. It shouldn't take too long for them to decide on what to do with me.

"Hmm~"

I'll just stare at the ceiling for now and wait.

Just when I lay down on the bed- ...no, on the floor, I could hear some strange voices coming from outside.

'What's it again?'

I tried to ignore the sounds, but the sounds of footsteps got louder and louder as time passed and there were also the murmurs of the people I was hearing from outside.

'Just one glance!'

I jumped up and peeked outside through the small window placed on the wall. What I saw outside was the soldiers of the county, and the guards, moving around hastily. Some were dragging horses and others were running to a location near the gates of the mansion. And it wasn't only the soldiers, even the maids looked busy. A lot of them were moving with the soldiers while holding flower bouquets, wearing clothes nicer than what they usually wear at work. They seemed to be in an emergency or something.

'Ah, it's about that!'

I nodded my head and plopped down on the ground again. I could guess what was happening outside. No, it was rather obvious at this point.

"Maybe they'll deal with the issues of the young master faster now that the invitation card is here..."

I just need to wait.

And I wasn't wrong. An order came to me after staring at the ceiling for about half an hour.

"You are free to go."

"Pardon?"

"I said you are free. Come out and return to your job as soon as possible."

"Yes??"

I asked again. The guard who came here to inform me of the count's order clicked his tongue with annoyance and left after glaring at me once. I was left alone in the cell once again, but this time the door of the cell wasn't locked.

"Huh?"

I tilted my head. I had difficulty understanding the situation.

'Seems like there will be things to surprise you even if you've regressed so many times...'

This world is full of wonders.

. .

I was once again back in the young master's room. It was really strange how they didn't kill me and even released me. I found out that the young master was the one who stopped the count from ripping me apart.

I heard he had told his father that I was innocent and they shouldn't kill a person because of such a small thing... Why did he do that? Is it also because of the loss of memory? What do you mean by innocent anyway? Just kill me and let me regress! Tsk!

Peeek

I glanced at young master Alaric. He was laying on his bed and was staring at the ceiling with a blank face while mumbling something under his lips.

"Why would I... This story... Who the hell?... Go... home..."

I couldn't hear all of his words and couldn't understand the ones I heard.

"Hey!"

Someone nudged my side and whispered. The servant beside me used so much force to do it that I'm sure he didn't intend to just nudge, but dig a hole in my body.

"Yes?"

"Go bring the young master's lunch."

I nodded my head.

I was a servant. My job wasn't only to wake the man up, but I was one of his three personal servants. The three would follow him everywhere and also help him in many ways other than serving him food and clothes. I'm super-cool, right?

'I didn't even get demoted...'

I still had my position as the young master's personal servant, but the glares that the others were giving me made chills run down my back. Can you just kill me instead of freaking me out like that? I'd appreciate it actually.

I lowered my head and left the room, heading to the kitchen.

"It's him, isn't he?"

"Yeah! How come they didn't kill him?"

'I can hear you, dear servants and guards!'

"I heard that the young master gave a long speech about how all of the lives in the world were important and that they have to treat people fairly even if they are in a lower position than us and then demanded that they release him!"

"Wow! Did he really go crazy?"

"I guess so."

I closed my eyes as I passed the hallway and walked down the stairs.

"Huh?"

But I had to stop moving once I noticed someone entering one specific room.

'Isn't that the young lady's servant?'

The woman was hurriedly entering the room while glancing around with a pale face. Did she start moving this fast? I'm impressed. At this rate, the crazed young master of mine might not even live past today.

'Stop making me feel more guilty!'

I had lived many lives and experienced many things, but there were only a few times that I felt this guilty. I could fix things if I just regressed, but that seemed not to be possible now. Isn't there any way to treat that young master of mine?

I was a servant but that didn't mean I hated that bastard young master! I've lived in this house since I was little and have served that young master for years. Even if I didn't like him so much at first, I found out that he was one of the best and gentlest nobles of the whole country, maybe the continent, after regressing a few times. I had a lot of respect for him in my heart.

'Should I hit him once again?'

Maybe I'll smack his head real hard this time. Either he will get better, or I'll finally get killed.

'Yeah. Let's do that as soon as get the chance.'

I nodded my head, grabbed the trail of food, and walked back to the young master's room with a determined mind.