My Shaking Feel

Hello! I am Kevin. I am a University teacher of Nona. I accepted that I am just a normal man who friendly and kindly in other people eyes. But who knows about my deep feeling which I had never shown?

I remember that is the day I met Nona in front of The Royal Palace along the riverside. While I was running under the sunset to release my stress, I saw Nona who cry silently and looked to the river with broken eyes. I just pass her silently...

I don't know whether it is the miracle or not that we met each other again at my house the next day.

"Hello, I am Lisa's friend. My name Nona." She was greeting me by brightly smiling while yesterday she was crying so much. I just wonder what kind of this girl was?

"Brother Kevin! Why don't you greeting Nona back?" Lisa asked me when I stood silently and didn't greet her friend back.

"Yes, Hello. I am Kevin" I just said what Lisa want and go through both of them to my room. I didn't know why she comes to my house.

"Brother!"

"What? What do you want?" I feel terrible when Lisa call me again.

"I just wanna ask you to help us in writing an English essay. Why you talk the fire to your lovely sister like that?" Lisa said sadly but I know that was just her acting in front of her friend.

"Okay, let's talk after I change my clothes."

After I changed my clothes I went back to my sister and Nona. By the way, I went back I heard Nona cry again. I stop automatically and listen to her discussion.

"Don't cry it anymore Nona. You need to try on your studying and stop thinking about Rith anymore. You need to try your best to get past."

"Hmm...but I just sad."

"I know, but your future is father than this. Don't regret with a boy like that"

~ She was crying about love? Hmm...nowadays youth is really amazing!~ I just thought love is really useless for these ages. So I show up myself and make Nona stop crying immediately.

And then I did agree to be an English teacher of both sisters. By day today, I found out that Nona is really a good girl. She looks so bright in her colours. I talked and chat with her every day and never thinking that I start liking this girl.

After passing grade 12, I have never met her again. I wonder whether she forget me or not. We stop talking and chat as normal. Time passes by, I thought she forgot me. I feel so sad and keep it in mind that I just a brother to her only.

But in 2016, I met her again. I could tell that she didn't know who I am. She forgot me while I couldn't forget her bright smile even a bit. She calls me a teacher and asked me when she met a problem with studying. I could tell that she was a good student. I didn't know why I always keep my eyes on her like that.

Today she posts on Instagram about her Ex. I know Nona was really loyal to her love. I just try to comfort her feeling by doing chat with her again. I know it is not right to be close to Nona. But...I didn't want to see her sad and broken heart anymore. I know that she had never thought of me as a man. I am just a teacher to her.

"Nona, I know that I don't suppose to say this word but I just want to ask you one before I go to Australia."

"What? What do you want to say, teacher?"

"I wish you don't mind with it."

"How could I mind with you, teacher?"

"I think how would it is good if you don't keep me as a teacher..."

"..." She didn't reply to me. But I will not stop it until I said it to her.

"Could I be Your Lover?" I just sent it to her and wait her answer again. But there still no answer. She also offline and keep apart from me since that day.