Face the Music

I packed up my things into my bag and head down the stairs to the kitchen. I see Masako getting ready for what it seems is work. She had a checkered jacket on with a white T-shirt inside pairing with simple jeans. There are 2 brown bags on the kitchen counter which I'm guessing is food. I grab one and took a peek and sweet enough, it's onigiri! Woohoo!

I smiled with excitement and see my sister checking to make sure everything is in place.

"Going somewhere, Masako?" as I put my lunch into my backpack.

"Well...I'll be working. First day. I stumbled across a lady who needs assistance so I thought why not plus she pays quite fine. Enough to put the food on the table and pay rent," she gave me a wink as she slings her bag across her shoulder.

"Hmmm...I had to ask though, why do I have to go to school? I mean, kitsune are known to be wise and intelligent and blah blah. But then I still have to go to school...Hmmm," I put my fingers on my chin, looking like I'm thinking.

Masako rolled her eyes in amusement.

"Kim, you should know well why. You need to have records of you actually have an education. I'm not doing it illegally. That would just leave an extra trail of knowing where and who we are. That way, no one will suspects"

"What about you though?"

Masako chuckles and walks to my side and pats my head.

"Oh little sister, let's just say, I have lots on my sleeves. Don't worry about me, sis. I can manage my own"

She walks over to the door and grabs her keys.

"I'm heading out first yeah. I'll get the groceries after work. And Kim, remember -"

"Yes yes, Onee-chan. Distance with the Alpha and no exposure"

She gave me a faint smile what looks like she feels bad for me.

"It's for the best, Kimiya. You're not only doing it for us... it's also for them as well."

Sigh, I nod. I know it's not going to be easy but I have to do my best to not get swayed by his pretty eyes and his black messy hair that I just want my fingers to-

WTF. I shake my head to snap out of it. I haven't even got to school yet and I'm getting affected already!!! Ugh... it's going to be a long day...

I step out and lock the doors and start walking to school with my headphones on. I scroll my music playlist on my phone and picked a song, to begin with. Walking, looking around, watching people coming in and out from small shops and mini diner like it's an everyday routine for them. Weird isn't it? There are times where I wish to be normal where I can do normal things; find a date, work, dealing with the human drama. Some might think it's not a big deal, everyone can do it cause it's normal. But I say, it means something to me, alright. These powers, the huge responsibilities....the death that you hold responsible...sometimes even got me to wonder, why me and my sister only? All the questions in my head...

My train of thoughts got disconnected when I see a car halt to my pace beside me. I drop my headphone to my shoulder and see a girl pop her head out of the window from the back seat.

"HI KIM!!!!" She waves her hands and arm relentlessly with excitement.

Oh my gosh... it's HELENA again!

"You walking alone?"

I nod my head once, remembered that I'm acting mute. My inner fox is circling around with excitement. That tells me that Colson is in the car as well. I can smell that there's someone else in the vehicle but not really sure. Can't really see much from where I'm standing.

"Get in the car! We're going to school anyway!"

I quickly shake my head and wave my hand 'no'. Heck, no am I sitting in a car filled with wolves.

Helena quickly gives me her best puppy eye...as if that's going to convince me. I can see she looks back when someone called her. They're whispering so I used my heightened hearing to eavesdrop on the conversation.

"Colson, stop it...She doesn't want to follow!"

"Just keep asking her, come on! I really want to get to know her." Oh my gosh, his voice is so....how to describe it? Like, soothing melody in the ears that made me bit my lip.

"You'll just scare her, Colson. She needs to take time. She's new here if you forgot about that!"

"Baby, you're the one who is scaring her. Your scream is going to make her run for the hills"

"OH SHUT IT or you'll be sleeping downstairs for the rest of the nights!"

I'm guessing that's her boyfriend by the way he talks cause he kept his lip sealed tight fast before another word comes up. I quickly walk away before any tension decide to build when she screamed -

"WAIT!!!!"

I halt at my feet and turn around to see the car move forward a bit to where I'm standing. Helena shut her eyes and sigh really loud.

"Kim, please, let us drive you. We're going to the same school anyway!"

I gave her the "why" look.

"We wanted to get to know you! I mean..."someone" wants to get to know - OUCH!"

Seems that someone pulled her hair to keep her mouth shut. Sigh, by the time I reject countless times, we already be reaching school. So I nod my head and step into the car. Helena screech in excitement and make space for me to sit. I close the door and I can see Colson sitting in the driver's seat, a dude with brown hair cropped short in the passenger seat. I can hear his heartbeat thumping like mad. For an Alpha, he's nervous around a new girl??? Jeez...

As we move along to school, Helena starts asking a bunch of questions.

"So new girl, what brings you to the dull part of town?" She looks at me with her big eyes of wonder.

I blinked my eyes real quick. Like what the hell...I took out my phone and type out a lie. "My parent pass recently so I moved in with my older sister to start a new life." Okay, sort of a lie mix with the truth. Helena read it out loud for the guys but as she read it, her voice slowly goes soft to the end. The car went silent, you can hear the birds outside chirping. I look at Colson's side and I can see his eye shows sadness and pity.

"Oh...I'm- I'm sorry. I didn't know..." The guilt look on her face quickly makes my finger type out to let her know everything is fine.

Helena chuckles as she tries not to tear up. "I know, I'm sorry. It's just...nevermind. I'm just glad to get to know you"

She then grabs both my hands into hers.

"I know we just knew each other but.....just know that....we will be here for you, anything at all. Don't hesitate to come to us for help alright?"

I can feel the compassion surging through her. I get her intentions but I don't plan to get attached with anyone...not even my mate. I just cannot risk it.

I typed out my phone "Thank you, but I'm good so you don't have to worry about it so much."

Helena read out my text, in response with a nod. I look over Colson and see his hands are tightened around the wheel.

Is he mad about the fact I didn't accept their help?

Or the fact that I'm pushing them away?

Whichever it is, I can't be too bothered about it. All I have to focus on is myself and my sister. I stare out the car window watching the trees passed me by... It's only a few minutes in the car and I'm trying to suppress my fox to not connect with Colson's wolf. That's just going to completely expose my secret. I put on my headphones so I don't have to think about it much. I can feel eyes are on me but I can barely care about it. I know what I'm supposed to do, what I'm meant to do. I just simply can't risk it. Even it means I have to avoid Colson and deny the bond...

I thank Helena and Colson for giving me a ride.

Before I could walk away, Colson grabbed my arm to stop me, and kid you not, the tingling sensation struck me. I look at him in the eyes which is a mistake because I can't take my eyes off him now. Like time has slowed down... I can feel the space between us starts to close in and his face is getting closer to mine when suddenly Colson winced in pain. I got shocked and look at his hand, smoked! Shxt! My heatwaves acting up because of my emotions! I quickly cover my arm and ran for it. How could I be so stupid! I squeezed my way into the crowd, trying to find ways to get away from him. I can hear him calling me. I turn around and see him and Helena trying to get to me. I look around frantically and saw an alley that heads to the back of the school. I head there and make my turn to get out of their sights. I focus on my energy and teleport myself, far from school. My powers begin to surge and the next thing, I knew I'm in a forest. My whole body fell out of exhaustion to the ground. Beads of sweat formed on my forehead and neck. Crap, I must have used a lot to get away from them. I didn't want them to catch my scent on me. I catch my breath and bring myself up to my feet and quickly head on back home.

I can't believe I lost control...now I have to figure out what to do next...Masako is not going to be happy about this. FOR THE LOVE OF TAILS, WHY AM I SO STUPID?! I knock my head at a nearby tree with frustrations!