Thinking Out Loud

ATHENA

Napahiga ako sa kama namin ni Cyril. I feel so exhausted. Kung ano ano kasing tinanong nila kanina pagkadating namin ni Cyril dito. They asked if I'm fine, kung may nangyari bang masama sa akin and so on and so for. Buti na lang pinaalis na sila ni Cyril. He said that I need to rest at wala namang umanggal sa kanila.

Ako nga ang umangal pero ang sabi niya, "You need to rest, love! We stayin up late later so please get some energy!" yan! Inulit ulit niya sakin yan. Kaya wala na kung nagawa. Hiniga ko na lang.

Nakapikit ako ng maramdaman kung lumubog ang gilid ng kama. I know it's him. Kaming dalawa lang naman ang nandito.

I was waiting for him to lay down pero hindi niya ginawa. He leans on the headboard and I felt his hands on my hair. Hinahaplos niya ang buhok ko at dahil nakatalikod ako sa kaniya, hindi ko makita ang expression niya.

He's slowly caressing it when I suddenly heard him hummed.

Mahina ang boses niya at kalmado. Hindi ko man siya nakikita pero alam kung nakapikit siya. And I like how he stayed caressing my hair. Para akong bata na pinapatulog niya.

"When you're legs don't work like they used to before ~"

Napadilat ako ng marinig ko siyang kumanta. Tumigil na rin siya sa maghaplos sa buhok ko.

"And I can't sweep you off of your feet ~"

Dahan dahan akong humarap sa kaniya.

"Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love? ~"

His eyes are closed and a smile is on his lips.

"Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks? ~"

He slowly opened his eyes. And he looks at me, directly in my eyes.

"Darling, I will be loving you till we're seventy ~"

He gets up in the bed and stands beside it.

"And baby, my heart could still fall as hard at twenty three ~"

Nilahad niya ang kamay niya sakin para patayuin ako sa kama.

"And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways ~"

Nakangiti kong inabot ang kaniyang kamay.

"Maybe just the touch of the hand ~"

We stand in front of each other.

"Well, me, I fall in love with you every single day ~"

He wrapped his arms around my waist and I put my hands in his neck.

"And I just wanna tell you I am ~"

Dahan dahan siyang gumalaw. He swayed and I followed.

"So honey, now ~"

We stared at each other's eyes.

"Take me into your loving arms ~"

Pumikit ako at mas sumandal sa kaniya. Bumaba ang kamay ko sa beywang niya at doon ako yumakap.

"Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars ~"

I felt his lips on the top of my head as we swayed slowly.

"Place you head on my beating heart ~"

I place my head on his chest and I can clearly hear the loud beating of his heart.

"I'm thinking out loud ~"

Hindi ko maiwasang mapangiti. This moment feels so special. I feel so loved. By him.

"And maybe we found love at where we are ~"

We're still dancing slowly but he just starts humming. Ganon lang ang posisyon namin habang dahan dahan kaming sumasayaw.

This is one of the very special moments in my life. I'll cherish this until I die. Thanks to him, nasubukan kung maranasan 'to.

"I though I'll rest?" I whispered. He laugh. Wala kaming music pero nakakasayaw parin kami. We're still in rhythm and we can still followed each other's step. We're still connected.

"Mahal ko..." halos tumalon palabas ang puso ko ng marinig ko ang tinawag niya sakin. "Y-Yes?"

"I love you." only three words from him but it can make my heart beats rapidly.

I separated from him and look up so I can see his eyes. Hinawakan ko ang magkabila niyang pisngi then I smile, sweetly. "Mas mahal kita." sagot ko sa sinabi niya.

"Nah, I love you more." muling bawi niya. Napatawa naman ako ng mahina. "I love you most."

"I'll just stop loving you if the Earth is gone out of water."

"I'll just stop loving you if the Earth is gone out of land." I answered.

He frown kaya mas napatawa ako. "I love you to the farthest star and back and to the farthest star again and back." I rolled my eyes pero hindi nawala ang ngiti sa labi ko.

I didn't answer. Mukha naman kasing wala siyang plano na magpatalo eh. Pero nanatiling nakasimangot ang labi niya.

Hindi ko alam na may ganito palang ugali si Cyril.

"Oh? Why are you frowning?" tanong ko. Mas sumimangot siya. Hahaha. He looks so cute. Muli akong yumakap sa beywang niya at mas hinila pa siya palapit. "Bakit nga?" natatawang tanong ko ulit.

From frowning, he pout. Nakanguso siya sa'kin and I found him so sexy. "I need some loving." bulong niya at mas lumapit sa akin.

Napakunot ako. "What do you mean?"

"I mean...this." sabi niya at bigla na lang akong sinunggaban. Napamulagat ako. I didn't expect this to happen kaya nagulat ako.

But seconds just passed ng ipikit ko ang mata ko. Dahan dahan ng gumapang ang kamay ko sa leeg niya at mas humigpit ang kapit niya sa beywang ko.

He's kissing me softly. It looks like his enjoying the moment. Mabagal ang galaw ng mga labi niya but that didn't last long. Because his kisses becomes aggresive and rough yet passionate..

Tumugon naman ako sa kaniya. I responded at him with full ferocity. I tilt my head to the left and he's in the right. Mas lumalim ang halik niya. Mas mabagsik. Mas agresibo.

Until he put his tongue inside. I, again, responded. Hindi ko na alam ang ginagawa ko at pakiramdaman ko tinakasan na ko ng katinuan.

THIRD PERSON

Parehas silang nakapikit. Naglalaban ang kanilang mga dila, naghahalo ang kanilang hininga at para na silang uhaw sa isa't isa.

Unti unti silang napalapit sa kama at humiga ng hindi napuputol ang pinagsasaluhan nilang halik. Kinubabawan siya ni Cyril. His lips traveled down to her neck, kissing, sucking, nipping and licking her skin.

"Ohhh..." hindi niya maiwasang mapaungol. Nakaunat ang kamay niya at mahigpit ang kapit nito sa bed sheet.

Bumalik ang labi nito sa labi niya, papunta sa tainga niya at hinalik-halikan iyon. "Moan, love. Show me how much you like my kisses."

"Ohh... Cyril..." nanatiling nakapikit ang kanilang mga mata. Hindi niya alam kung saan ibabaling ang ulo dahil sa sobrang sarap na nararamdaman. She's not even sure if she's still sane.

"Ahhh... More, please."

Para siyang sinasapian. Hindi alam ni Athena kung bakit niya nasasabi ang nga salitang iyon. Wala na ang inhibisyon niya sa kanyang katawan. Napalitan iyon ng kakaibang emosyon.

Desire. He desired Cyril.

"Athena..." Cyril's moaned. Humahaplos ang kamay niya sa beywang ni Athena and his eyes are close shut. Wala na siya sa katinuan. Kinain na ng ibang emosyon ang kanina niya pang pinipigilan.

Kanina pa lang gusto niya ng halikan si Athena. He's doing anything to control himself but he still didn't win. Nilapat niya parin ang labi niya dito. And now he's enjoying every moment.

Gumilid ang kamay ni Cyril. Lumapat yun sa tiyan ni Athena. Malambot ang beywang at tiyan nito. He's slowly caressing it as he nipped her ears.

"Romero..."

Doon siya parang binuhusan ng malamig na tubig. Hinihingal siyang napadilat at tumigil sa ginagawa.

He stared at Athena who's eyes are still close and also breathing heavily. Pawis na pawis ito at parang pagod na pagod. Nakabagsak ang kamay nito at nakakapit ng mahigpit sa may bed sheet.

'Fuck! What the heck did I just do?!'

Gustong sapakin ni Cyril ang sarili ng maalala ang kagaguhang kaniyang ginawa. He need to control himself. Tuwing tungkol kay Athena na lang kasi, nawawalan siya ng control sa sarili.

Nanatili siyang nakakubabaw dito pero hindi siya nagsalita. Nakapikit parin si Athena and he's thankful because of that. Hindi niya kasi kayang makita ang magiging reaksiyon nito pag nakita siya.

'Damn it! What if she's angry? What if she thinks na baka katawan lang ang habol ko sa kaniya.'

Napapikit ng mariin si Cyril sa mga naiisip. This is his fault. Siya ang nag initiate ng halik. Siya ang nagpahiga kay Athena.

Siguro kung hindi pa ito natauhan,  probably, she will be naked by now. Fuck!

"Why did you-"

"I'm so sorry, mahal. Hindi ko sinasadya. Hindi ko lang talaga napigilan ang sarili ko. Fuck! I'm really really sorry. I should have control myself. I shouldn't have let my libido gets the best of me." paninisi nito sa sarili. But Athena just stared at him. Hinihingal parin ito pero mas maayos na ang kalagayan nito.

"Please talk to me, mahal ko. I'm really really sorry. Trust me, I respect you so much. Its just that-" she stopped him using her index finger.

"It's okay." Athena whispered. She raised her hand and touch his right cheek. "And please, don't say sorry." she added. She caress his cheek. "I love you and you love me. There's nothing wrong of showing how much we love each other." Athena's was smiling when saying this.

Cyril rest his cheek on her hand. He closed his eyes and a smile formed on his lips. "Yeah, you're right." nakangiti nitong sagot. Athena smiled and pulled him for a smack.

He lay down beside her and rest his left cheek on his hand. Nakalumbaba siya sa kama habang nakatingin kay Athena. Hindi mawala ang ngiti sa labi niya.

Athena faced him. "I'll rest for a while." mahinang bulong nito. Cyril nodded and kiss her forehead. "Sleep well. I love you."

Hinintay ni Cyril ang sagot nito pero wala siyang narinig kaya nilingon niya ito. She's soundly sleeping.

'Mukhang napagod siya. She falls asleep immediately.' Cyril thought.

Nanatili siyang nakatingin dito. He stared at her gorgeous face. Hindi parin siya makapaniwala sa mga nangyari. He just confessed! He fucking took the risk!

Now, what?

Ano ng mangyayari? Paano pag nalaman ng Diablo ang relasyon nila? He's very sure, they will use her against him. Now, all he have to do is to protect Athena.

He caress her hair and whispered. "I'll protect you. No matter what it takes, I will protect you."