Chapter-20

'J..Jessica? You are alive?'

I frowned my eyes. He knows my mom.

'You are misunderstanding. She is my Mother. You know her?'

'You are Jessica's daughter. You look exactly like her.'

He said being astonished. His eyes wide open like a window. The unknown sparkle in them was noticed by me. Curiosity was eating me inside. But I tried to stay calm.

'Really? Thank you.'

'Come inside. What's your name?'

'I am June.'

'June? Oh, yes June. I remember. The sixth month of the year.'

He said like a forgetful kid making me chuckled. He is so happy to see me.

'Is Noah home?'

'Noah! You know him.'

'I am actually here for him. Is he home?'

'No, he didn't came back from the theater. Are you two friends?'

'No.'

This is what slipped from my tongue. I cursed myself in my mind and bite my lips being frustrated. What will I answer him next? What are we? I haven't confessed yet.

'Are you two something?'

He said with a unreadable smile. I couldn't answer him. Should I say yes? What if he doesn't like me? I stayed silent. But silence is also a form of action. Soon his smile turned into a huge grin. He coughed and tried to speak normally.

'That's Noah's room. He will be home soon. Wait for him there. I will be back in a while.'

He said and left the living room. I went towards his room. I entered the room with a loudly beating heart. The room smells like him. I take a large breath inhaling his scent. I stand in front the big mirror in his room and smiled. He must practice his speech in front of it. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. Love is blooming from my eyes. I smiled looking at myself. I really don't remember the last time I was this happy.

I started exploring his room. It reflects the fact that how simple he is. Suddenly my eyes darted to a diary placed on his table. A beautiful purple diary. It's written 'DREAM' on it. I often see him caring it into the theater. I casually opened the diary thinking that he might write his dialogues here. I opened it and find poems. Mostly love poems. And at the top of the first page it's written,

'I don't know how am I writing this when I never experienced it.'

I chuckled reading it. It also made me wonder that he never experienced love. That means I am his first love.

"Meet me at midnight in the forest of my dreams,

We'll make a fire and count the stars that shimmer above the trees."

"The sky is moving on towards infinity

like my love for you is growing inside me,

But when I look at you I forget about the sky."

"If I had to choose between loving you and breathing, I would use my last breath to say I love you."

"The shortest word I know is 'I'

the sweetest word I know is 'Love'

and the one I will never forget is 'You' "

"Your eyes shine like a million suns

You shine more brightly than anyone."

"A million stars up in the sky,

one shines brighter I can't deny,

A love so precious, a love so true,

Love that comes from me to you."

"Shed your insecurities and reveal yourself to me,

So I can see each imperfection, cherish every flaw,

get to know you from the inside out

for my love is RAW."

"Seeing your beautiful heart is like staring into the sun,

I will gladly go blind, for I cannot look away."

"Nothing in the world is single,

All things with a low divine

In one spirit meet and mingle,

Why not I with thine?"

"The sunset melts into the waves,

The colors fade into the sea,

and it makes me wonder,

If you'd ever drown in love with me."

"I have two eyes to admire you,

Two hands to hold you in my arms,

Two legs to walk on the path of our lives,

But I have only one heart

Cause I know the other one belongs to you."

"I fear to show you the real me

That I will be

too real for you

too hard for you

too much of everything for you

But never enough."

"You brought me sunshine

when I only saw rain

You brought me laughter

when I only felt pain."

I was in a verge of crying. It's so beautiful. I hate crying for silly things but those poems literally shows how beautiful love is. We might not be perfect as a human but for someone we are more than perfection. It doesn't matter how many flaws we have. They will never let our flaws turn into our insecurities. But then my eyes landed on something familiar and I frowned.

"When the sun shines on the sea, I think of you.

When the dim moonlight is on the spring, I think of you."

""Look outside the window.

If the branches swing gently in the wind then the one you love is loving you, too.

Look at the snow,

If the snow is white and pure as love then the one you love is loving you, too."

"Open your ears,

If you hear your heartbeat then the one you love is loving you, too.

Close your eyes,

If there's a smile on your lips then the one you love is loving you ,too."

I became puzzled. How is it possible?