Chapter-11

I got out from my house to go to school. My eyes suddenly laid on a tall slender figure standing outside with flowers on his hand. I immediately recognized it's none other than Zach. What's he doing at this time? He is supposed be in school.

'Zach?'

'Hi.'

'What are you doing here?'

'I was waiting for you. Please take this flowers.'

He said and handed the flowers on my hand. I took the flowers in confusion.

'I like you, Jessica.'

He said and leaned his face closer to mine. I got shocked. He was wearing a cap which hit my forehead and he got nervous. He instantly moved his face up and kissed my forehead.Everything happened so quickly. I widened my eyes, still processing what happened.

'Please write to me Jessica.'

He said and started walking away. Suddenly he fainted. He got up immediately and showed me a thumbs up indicating he is okay. I looked at the flowers he gave me.I never felt the same way with him the way I feel with Adam. For some reason, I feel like he is doing all this because of his father, not cause he likes me.

It was 12'o clock in the night. Still, there was no trace of sleep in my eyes. I was feeling a rush of impatience throughout my body that was increasing gradually. I was sitting by the window with the firefly jar on my hand. I was trying to let everything out to calm myself down. But nothing was working. I love Adam more than my life. But I don't feel like I can go against my parents.

Suddenly, my body started to shiver, as I saw a figure standing down the stairs of our house. I didn't know but my mind suggested me it was Adam or maybe I just wanted it to be him.

The figure turned on the stair light of our house. It was him. His eyes were on my window. He can't see me as I was sitting there turning off the lights. He was continuously clicking the light on and off impatiently. His strong emotions were visible in his eyes. As he was craving for me and wanted me right there in front of him.

Suddenly I started feeling so empty. I never thought love would be this painful. I am already engaged though I don't have any feeling for him. And here I am in love love with my fiance's best friend. I have to go against my parents if I want to be with Adam. I want a place where I can cry loudly without answering anyone why I am crying. I tried to hold my tears looking at him but failed. Drops of pain started streaming down my eyes. I hugged the jar tightly and cried silently. I wish I could explain him my situation. I wish someone would understand me.

The next day, it was raining very heavily. I came back from school with Nahin. In front of the bus station I waved her goodbye. I was coming back when I saw Adam standing at the opposite side of the road without an umbrella. He was fully wet because of the rain. I acted like I didn't see him and ignored him. It would be the best for us.

I started walking home. I felt like someone is following me and I know it's none other than Adam. He wants to talk to me. He suddenly came under my umbrella making me flinch. Seeing him so close to me I again started feeling the love and affection towards him. I want to hug him so tight and forget all my struglings. I want to tell him how much I love him. But I control my emotions. I gave him the umbrella and said,

'Take this and go home. Stay out of the rain.'

'I want to talk to you. I didn't came here for umbrella.'

He said in a serious tone. I didn't let him finish his word and walked away. He looked at me with pain in his eyes. He didn't move. It was like he was glued on that place. I started walk fast so that he can't catch me. My body feels so numb, I felt like I can't walk anymore. I sat down on the road and cried. The rain making my tears invisible.

Then I saw Adam running towards my house. I got up and followed him. I saw him clicking the street light on and off. I suddenly felt so angry watching his silly act. I hold his shoulder and make him face me.

'Dummy! Do you want to get electrocuted? You are crazy.'

I said and started walking upstairs. He hold my right hand tight and dragged me down.

'Jessica, please. I don't want to split up like this. Let's just talk for a moment.'

'Nothing can change. There's no use in talking. Let go of me!'

I said and tried to free my hand,but his grip was strong like he don't want to let go of me. I wish he could hold me like this forever. He dragged at a corner of the street. But I jerked off my hand and ran away.

I didn't went to home. I stood behind the wall crying. I peeked and saw Adam standing at the same spot like a statue. It's raining but I can say that he is crying. His red puffy eyes making it so obvious. I am continuously feeling I am doing something wrong. I am hurting him, his feelings. Most of all, I am hurting myself. I couldn't control my emotions anymore which I was holding for past minutes. I went to him running and hugged him tight. He got shocked at first but then hugged me back. His one hand on my waist and the other one caressing my hair. I feel so safe in his arm. It make me forget my all of my problems I am having in my life. I wish I could stay like this forever. But would that be possible?'