Into Your World

From my peripheral vision I saw something move, and there, I saw him! My target! Alas-singko na ng hapon at hindi na masyadong masakit sa balat ang sikat ng araw, naka-tayo ako ngayon sa may tuk-tok ng isang lumang cathedral, waiting for him.

Alam niya yatang ngayon ang last day niya, kasi kanina pa siya lingon ng lingon and he look edgy, nice! This would be easy, one strike and he'll be dead. That werewolf will be dead. Yes, read it right mga tol, Isa siyang lobo, isang taong lobo and in my case I belong to the group that hates werewolves so much. I'm a vampire. A blood sucking demon.

"Dug-dug, dug-dug, dug-dug…" nagpanting ang tenga ko, I managed to make a smirk, and I licked my lips after that, masyado nga talaga siyang kinakabahan, abot hanggang dito ang tibok ng puso niya, na surely later titigil na. Nagpatalon-talon ako sa bawat tuk-tok ng cathedral, mayroon itong apat na top, masyadong matanda na ang cathedral na'to and as far as I can remember, Spanish period siya ng simulang itayo, I was eight years old then at kung bibilangin, almost ilang siglo narin ang nakalipas, mas matanda lang ako ng konti sa simbahang to. Sumampa ako malapit sa isang cruxifix, I saw him run, nakita niya yata ako, imba!

This will be very exciting. I jumped at a sixty feet high cathedral tower to catch up with him. No way out dude, I can sense you no matter where you go. I heard his breathing, yeah, nakikipag-habulan pa yata pati pag-hinga niya eh, don't worry I'll make this easy, I shifted, then teleport, one good step and boom! Gotcha!

"Bitiwan mo'ko!" he managed to blurt. I grinned then I pulled him, at imbes na siya ang magulat it was I who felt the feeling instead. His eyes, it's… it's full of grief na pakiramdam ko natutunaw ako. Since the day I started to kill wolves I never saw expressions on their eyes but anger and disgust, and sometimes fear. But him, through his eyes I can see a soul chained in torment. Napakalungkot.

"Patayin mo na ako." Bulalas niya, yeah, I'll kill him, I can kill him! Pero, bakit parang hindi ko magawa? Why am I so affected by his lonely eyes? Ang gay naman masyado.

Fuck! Why? How come na? This can't be. Blood is gushing right out of his eyes! As in dugo, umiiyak siya ng dugo, which is a mechanism that only us vampires can make, and seriously his not a vampire, I know, naamoy ko siya, no scent of being a vampire.

"Sino ka?" tanong ko. "Panong?" "Bakit?" syet, naguguluhan na tuloy ako. He smiles, "The mind forgets but the heart will always remember, Blackthorne," he added.

"The f*ck are you saying? And how did you know… I mean, kilala mo'ko?" I asked confused.

"Hunter, kailanman hindi kita makakalimutan," asal niya. Leche na, panong? Pinagloloko yata ako nito eh.

"Sino ka?" sigaw ko. I don't want things clouding my mind, nawawala ako sa focus. F*ck!

"Yv… just cut me already!" he screamed! Now, more blood in his eyes and its flowing like rivers. I can't bear it no more. I hugged him, and I my vision became cloudy. Blurry as it wasn't supposed to be.

"Anong ginagawa mo sa'kin?" tanong ko.

"Hunter, as I've said, nakakalimot ang utak pero ang puso hindi," asal niya, pakiramdam ko mas lalo yatang lumakas ang ihip ng hangin and I noticed na hindi lang ako nakayakap sa kanya, maging siya, hawak ako, and for the first time in my whole existence in this pandemonium, for the first time… I felt safe. Kahit ang hangin hindi ako kayang utusan. It can't move me. It can't make me stay away from this warmth.

"Tingggg… Tingggg… Tingggg… Tingggg…" the sound of the bells, it ricochets from the cathedral's tower cells and it sounded like death.

Ala-sais, naririg ko na ang orchestra ng mga kuliglig tila napakalungkot ng musikang tinu-tugtog nila ngayon. Malapit ng tuluyang magdilim, ang kulay dugong langit ay unti-unting nang nagiging ala-lila. Nadirinig ko ang bawat pag-hinga niya, yakap-yakap ko parin siya, bakit ko ginagawa 'to? Ang katawan ko'y kusang gumagalaw, I can't stop it.

"Na-alala mo pa, 'twas a very cold night, we were out there in the outskirts, hunting for some stars and you gave me a jar of fireflies," he uttered. Paanong? Sino ba talaga siya?"

"Gray, Ako si Gray, nakalimutan mo na bang talaga Hunter?" he answered, and it's as if he can hear what I'm thinking.

"Yes I can hear your mind," he answered, how?

"Three years after you became a vampire, I tried to find him. Hinanap ko si Ulric, the one who turned you into this, Hinanap ko siya para makita ka, but all he said is, I can no longer see you. But, only if… only if I am… if I am a vampire myself.

Pero paano magiging bampira ang isang lobo? Pero, when I remembered you, when the thought of green fields and daffodils plus dragonflies that we chase every sunset, under a ginger-scarlet sky, I couldn't help but to miss you, and long for you... Hunter… I had let Ulric made me into a vampire just to find you. Just to be with you," he uttered. Bakit? Bakit hindi ko siya ma-alala? Is he playing with me or something?

"What are you doing to me?" I said.

"I'm doing nothing but love you Hunter," he replied.

"Gray?" the word that my mouth let out.

"Yes… Gray, Gray Deerdawn," he said, Deerdawn… and blood came flowing into my eyes.

"Gugu?" I asked, t'was the tag name that I used to call a friend I lost centuries ago. He smiled.

"Yes Hunnie…" this is I, can you recall now?

Umiyak lang ako, umiyak at di bumibitaw sa yakap niya. Now I know kung ano 'yung kulang, sa bawat gabing bilugan ang buwan o kaya'y sa bawat umagang mahapdi ang sinag ng araw ay siya itong na-iisip kung kulang. In a whole century of living imperfect and unequal siya pala ang hinahanap ko, siya pala 'yung nawawala.