diary #2

and I did...

before I could close my eyes to sleep, clouds gathered in my room out of nowhere. Am I already dreaming? WITH MY EYES WIDE OPEN?

Am I seeing these things clearly?

I press the hard wood of my bed, but it wobbles and melts as it meets my hand.

"F..."

I'm not really a person who swears a lot but this occasion calls for some.

"Fffff....."

I wave my hand in front of me to wave the clouds away.

" Fuuuuu.... "

I sit up from where I laid down and walks downstairs to my mom's room.

" Fuuuuuucccccc.... "

No one's home. No one's answering.

"FUUUUUUCCCCCCCC.... "

I feel dizzy and drained and calm.

"Fu----"

I collapsed and woke up at the same time.

I'm back in my room. Hard wood pressing my skin, beads of sweat on my forehead and nape, and 207 bpm heart rate from the surreal but felt-real dream earlier.

My phone's still on my hand. I opened Ig to distract myself. Oh great, Jenna went to America again. Wow, Hailey's pregnant? Gigi Hadid's real pretty in her Versace Dress. Is that Komi?

My life is just great. So great. I went to my profile and saw that my last uploaded photo was like 3 months ago. And nobody has liked it yet.

Well, what can I expect from a girl with average face and fewer than 20 IG followers?

I wish I could teleport to another Universe.