A Feeling of UNWORTHY

Days passed by in a flash...

Seasons changed , birds migrated , everything changed and so do Xara's family changed. By blessing of heaven , Nishour, Xarathenum 's father got a hike in monthly income . Looking at the old house and mini rooms , exhausted is Sphaliena.. Thought for a renovation of the shelter emerged in mind of Sphaliena.. Nishour works in a Transportation Agency as a Transporter , with an average monthly income of $300. He is hard loving person , with great love towards his family . He doesn't like to show it easily.. It's hard to feel his attributes of character.

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In the blazing sun , Xara's family is having a lunch in the balcony which is enveloped with tall trees touching the sky casting its shadow of the massive leaves hiding the sun ... Sweat dripping over from the forehead , falling drop by drop off of Sphaliena , gathering her courage and thought process into a proper orientation; finally she spoke. Sphaliena said , " Nishour , since there's an increment in your salary ; Xara is also getting matured in her age and being the rooms too tiny . I thought of renovating and expand the rooms because Xara would be also having her personal things and with the second baby Miershu it's too difficult to manage .. What do you say ? " , waiting with hope of peaceful reply.. Nishour took deep breath and left a heavy sigh , he said , " I feel it would be better if we shift to another house , which is according to your idea.." Sphaliena was taken aback with the answer of her husband, she never expected it. Xara also agreed for it.

In a span of a month , Nishour's family have settled themselves in their new home. It was massive , with fresh and huge garden ornamented with beautiful , vivid flowers of Plantae kingdom , filled with fragrances of blooming flowers.. The rooms are so clean , and furniture had its position in each room . A huge library with collection of novels , scientific books , fantasy etc... It also has a huge terrace like touching the sky and catch the moon and stars at night...

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[ Children squeaking]

[ Indistinct voices]

Xara is a high school student doing 7th grade . Xara was in the corridor of her classroom , watching kids play enjoying themselves from the top floor.. " Hey , Xara . Come on , let's play. " , said Montey. Xara in a sad tone said , " No thanks . You gave have fun..." , with a fake smile. Xara is an introvert , who never open up herself easily to others, not mingle with her classmates . But a gold heart , with greatest attributes such as kindness , mercy, humble in spirit and respect to elders, honest and helpful person , who can't bear when someone is hurt.. But her presence meant nothing to her contemporaries. Though she helped her friends , in times of distress , despair - no recognition is earned to her loyalty and helping hand , though she never expected anything return or idea to be famous...

Her contemporaries took her good nature as her weakness and used her in times of their need but treated as if they never knew her , after their need is done.. It broke the heart of Xara. No one understood her. It made her feel unworthy about herself .. She wasn't able to tell her mother about it. Her suggestions in discussions took no place in activity group . She was like mere doll in the perspective of her classmates and few teachers mainly female , except Mrs. Sophie . She made Xara feel special and was good to her; she is the favorite teacher of all at that time for Xara..

Xara didn't have friends but she would be an amigo with elders and not of her age. Whatever place she might visit , at least few males become friends with her..

Xara , couldn't forget Alpha , HE was her support in all times. She would converse with him at night in mind , since their brain waves are converged , one could hear another through it..

Time passed by , Alpha became too close to Xara , following her wherever she goes , to say HE is always with her. HE would comfort with warmth in times of despair , discomfort , breakdown etc.. They had a great relationship which got stronger and firm with love , trust and loyalty.. They shared their feeling with each other , the ALPHA would always protect her.

Xara didn't have the liberty to wear comfortable clothes instead wore baggy T-shirts or covered herself with a scarf around her body . Since the vicious men at the corner roads gazed as if to devour her , looking at her huge round boobs which swung up and down while walking .. Due to her parts and their stares made Xara uncomfortable... This is also counted as reason for her to pity herself because of not having the freedom to do swiftly....

Xara's and Alpha's relationship was driven great with understanding , until the person showed up.