Responsibility
I kind of wanted to run to Marg's dorm and ask her upfront if she didn't come because I might have been a bit too much last night. But I couldn't bring myself to. After all, it was embarrassing and I kind of couldn't get the thoughts of her moans and cries out of my head. Like seriously, why hadn't I paid enough attention at the time?
Well, it wasn't like we wouldn't be meeting again today, anyway. She had matches, and so did I. 'But man, how the hell am I supposed to take responsibility? She did say I won't have to, but-'
But I wasn't convinced. The reason I always wanted to avoid girls was because I was afraid of taking responsibility. But now that I'd already made this mistake, there was no going back and I had to make everything alright, whether I liked it or not. I had to take responsibility. I couldn't ruin a girl's life and just say it was for fun or whatever.