Chapter 12

She felt something heavy in her stomach as if someone is hugging her too tight, she almost can't breathe comfortably. So, she decided to open her eyes even if she wanted to sleep more.

'Why is it so dark?' she thought when the first thing she saw was a room full of darkness. Then she stiffens when she felt a body next to her. She initially wanted to scream but she relaxes when she recognized a familiar scent, the manly and intoxicated smell of Colton. She wonders why it calms her when it should scare her to death to wake up with someone beside her. She couldn't even remember the last time she woke up with someone, it was probably with her parents.

She gently faces him, it's too dark to see his face but she has already memorized each part of his beautiful feature. She knows how bluish his eyes are even if they aren't open and she couldn't stare at them. She touches his thick eyebrow then she moves her finger down to his perfectly pointed nose. Then she trembles when she felt his lips. They're full and soft. They're just lips but they always make her weak. It's funny how she was already comfortable with him in just a few weeks of meeting him and a few days of being with him.

'Maybe it's not a horrible idea to be married to you.' She thought. It might not be a good idea as well but these past few days, she has been on a roller coaster of emotions. It's as if for the first time, she starts to feel how is it to live. He brought chaos into her life but he also brought her something to look forward to. Before she met him, she thought her life is pretty normal but if she will look back it isn't. Her life before was dull. If life is a color, hers was just black and white, plain and boring, it's as if she was born to live and just wait till she dies. But when she's with him, she feels alive. She has more worries than her stories. She even gets mad now, she also hurt him physically, she can feel things she has never felt before, and

she is more of a human now. Maybe there is a reason why she met him. But does she want to marry him and be with him? 'Yes?' she thought. 'Or maybe?' she thought again, she's not sure yet. She still has to think about it. She was just caressing his cheek when he suddenly grabs her hand.

"You frighten me." She whispered. She couldn't see him but she was pretty sure that he was looking at her. And then she felt him grab her other hand while he was moving to position himself above her. She bets her face is all red now. Their position is very intimate. He's now on top of her with her both hands placed above her head. They are too close that she could almost feel his breath on her face.

"What are you doing?" he said. She felt her heart beating fast.

"Nothing." She whispered. Then she felt his lips on her neck. "Hmmm." She moans. It's there again, the delicious feeling her body produces every time he's near. He's licking her neck again and he's leaving it wet and she can feel her lower region being wet as well. "Oh my gosh." She whispers. His lips are now moving from her neck up to her jaw then he stops when he reaches her lips.

"Waking up beside you is surreal. I like it, I like waking up with you." He said then he kisses her nose. "And I think I like you," he said again then he kisses her lips. This time the kiss was so slow and gentle, unlike their previous kisses which were fiery and ardent. This time it's as if he's taking his time to make her feel special and she doesn't want him to stop. "I want you to be with me." He said when he stops kissing her and she just looks at him. Then she felt his lips on her forehead and then on her eyes. "Please say yes." He said and then right at that moment she stops thinking about everything but her feelings. What she wants to do, not minding all her beliefs and doctrines.

'I want to be with him.' She doesn't know where it came from but her body gave her an answer so she doesn't have to think too much about it now. 'Sometimes, it's better to act impulsively than cautiously. I might gain from it or lose something because of it but that's a consequence I have to face later. Now, I just have to follow my heart.' she thought then she looks at him.

"Yes." She said. Hoping she'll never regret her decision and if she will, she'll just have to endure it. After a while she notices, that he became silent and that he hasn't reacted yet. 'Didn't he hear me?' she thought when she still hasn't received any response from him. She was already worried when she felt him freeing her hands, she was disappointed with his reaction but then she felt his arms around her, hugging her tight. His head is in her neck and he's now breathing her in.

"Thank you." He whispered near her ear and she couldn't stop herself from smiling. She doesn't understand why she feels happy. It might be an impulsive decision but at least she's sure that they both are happy with it. He remains silent and just keeps on hugging her.

She wanted that moment to last but she was feeling really hungry now. So, she started to move and free herself from him but he was not letting her go. "What are you doing?" he asked while hugging her tighter now making sure she can't escape from him.

"I'm famished. I think it's time to get up and have something to eat." She said with a very soft tone. She's embarrassed to interrupt their moment just because her stomach is now asking for food. She heard him laugh a bit then moved after. He gets his phone to make some lights then he walks to put the lights on. "Ahm… I have to go to the bathroom." She's looking around to find one so she can relieve herself but she's not sure if there is one inside his room. He walks to her then he took her hand and they walk to the other side of the room then she noticed a door, she was thinking it was the bathroom she was looking for. He opens it and pushes her light inside. She was relieved, washed her face, and fixed her hair because it looks a mess now that she had just woken up. When she went out, she saw Colton who also have freshen up. 'He's a good-looking man.' She whispered to herself before she starts to find her belongings. But she stops when she saw Colton holding her bag. She smiles. 'That's thoughtful.' She thought again walking closer to him to get her bag from his grasp. "Let me have my bag." She said while smiling at him. But he shakes his head. Instead of giving it to her, he took her hand and led her outside of the room.

"I'll hold it for you." He just simply said so she just nodded.

"Where are we going?" she asked once they are inside the elevator.

"You said you're famished, so we'll go somewhere to eat." He said while his head was bent over so he could look straight into her eyes, he was too tall for her. Maybe over 6 feet and she was just around 5 feet 2 inches. "Do you have someplace you'd like to go right now?" she doesn't want to go to a restaurant crowded with people. She just wants a quiet and peaceful place where she could eat comfortably.

"I was thinking of homemade food." She murmurs. "Can I just cook instead?" she said with uncertainty. She is not sure how he eats his food. Maybe he has a chef on board. But she loves to prepare her food ever since she learned how to cook.

"Okay, then you'll cook." She looks at him. He looks different, something has changed in the way he looks right now. He also feels different, she doesn't feel intimidated and scared of him. Everything feels light and worry-free. Her thoughts were abruptly cut off when the elevator opens. He pulls her outside still holding her hand. "Let's go home sweetheart." He said and her heart is beaming with joy with his words. Maybe she found her home now or maybe it's just temporary. Whatever is it, she decided that she will enjoy every moment so that when the time comes that she has to face the consequences she will not regret everything.