I’ll Kill Myself

"Demon, we need to talk."

[What is it, boy?] The demon replied indifferently. [Anything in your mind after your first time with a woman?]

I frowned. Taking a deep breath, I suppressed my surging anger and spoke as calmly as I could.

"… What did you do? Why did we lose our reason back then?"

[Nothing much. I stimulated your minds slightly to increase your lust. Just a small trick.]

A small trick? I felt my anger rising again. That small trick almost made us make an unrepairable mistake!

Moreover, it was against my will!

[You are exaggerating.] The demon's voice was calm. [I just helped you to take the first step, boy. It's something that you needed to do eventually to survive. Moreover, nobody was hurt, right?]

No, it was not something that I needed to do.

"Even if I need to have sex with different women to survive, it doesn't mean that I need to use such vile means to go through it. God, it's almost like drugging them!"

[And what is the problem with that?] The voice of the demon was indifferent.

I was momentarily speechless. But then, my anger became even higher.

"That is not something a good person would do!"

The demon fell silent, but then, he smirked.

[… Right, I forgot that you are a normal human.]

"What do you mean?"

The demon chuckled as his blood-red eyes seemed to occupy my entire consciousness.

[I'm an Immortal, boy. And even though I hate to admit it, you are sort of my student. Why do you need to care about the thoughts of others? You are destined to rise over every person on this planet. They are nothing more than ants who will briefly appear in your life. So what if you play with them for a bit? Ants don't have the right or the option to resist.]

I was so dumbfounded that I was unable to reply immediately.

But then, I understood something.

This demon inside me doesn't care about the life and death of anyone else but himself and me, his host.

No, perhaps, he doesn't care about my life and death either. He just pretends to care because he needs me to survive.

Understanding it, I closed my eyes and exhaled.

"I understand, demon, but there is a problem."

[Oh? And what is it?]

"This is my body," I said firmly. "I won't tolerate you using it as you please. And I won't tolerate you manipulating me as a toy. I will only warn you once, demon. If something like this happens again, then I won't stay quiet."

[Oh? And what are you going to do, boy? Do you plan to kill me? Do I need to remind you that you can't touch me?] The demon asked in a mocking tone.

I chuckled softly and nodded. "Indeed, I can't. But what about myself?"

Staring straight to the eyes in my mind, I spoke in a determined tone of voice.

"Demon, I won't let you use me to harm others. If something like this happens again, then I will kill myself. I want to see if you can survive with your host dead."

The demon fell silent.

He had told me that our lives are connected. If he dies, I die, and if I die, he dies.

I don't know how true these words are, but at the very least, it's a fact that the demon seems worried about my survival.

Thus, the only thing I can think of that can hurt him is killing myself.

This time, nothing serious happened. With a bit of luck, nobody will learn about what happened between Mrs. Kim and me.

But, what if the demon's arbitrary actions end harming my loved ones? What if he harms my little sister, Leah, or my mother, Helen?

I won't allow it.

Perhaps realizing that I was being serious, the demon fell silent for a few seconds.

But then, he started to laugh.

[Hahahahahaha. Hahahahahaha! How long has it been since the last time a mortal dared to threaten me, an Immortal?]

The demon laughed heartily, as though he just heard a funny joke that even himself could not believe.

But then, he stared at me fixedly and grinned.

[Okay, I agree. But remember something, boy. I am Immortal, and my kind doesn't care about the thoughts or will of puny mortals. Why should we care about the thoughts of puny microbes?

[You are my host, so I will listen to you as long as it doesn't harm my interests too much. But if one day I think that using these 'vile' means will be beneficial for me, I will use them again, even if you don't like it.]

I frowned with a dark expression.

As I thought, this demon doesn't care about my opinion.

However, this result is good. At the very least, it can restraint the demon's actions slightly.

And if one day, I find that the demon's actions brought harm to my loved ones, I won't hesitate to destroy him.

Even if it means killing myself.

[… Okay, did you finish venting?] The demon asked at that moment. [Get ready then, we will start the most important part of your training.]

I took a deep breath to calm myself and nodded.

Although I hate the demon's means, it's a fact that what he has taught me until now has been effective.

Even if I find [Confidence] and the [Soul Supplementation Art] perverted and useless, [Lightning Seed] and [Lightning Body Refinement Technique] are definitively amazing techniques. I can understand that even though I just learned them.

"What am I going to learn next?" I asked.

[This time, I'm going to teach you how to use [Lightning Seed] and how to fight.]

I raised an eyebrow and nodded. That is neat. Right now, I only know how to release the lightning of Lightning Seed through my body; nothing else.

"What do I need to do?" I asked.

The demon's blood-red eyes looked at me with a mysterious expression.

[Sleep.]