Chapter four

" I did some research, I found a reasonable explanation why his stuck with you after his death"

" What is it ? " - Matteo and I said in unison

" An unexpected or accidental death. One that was supposed to be meant for someone else. Did he tell how he died? " She questioned

" No, I only learned his name this morning" I sighed

" A suicide? " She paused, sympathetically looking at me

" Where he purposely took his own life causing a change in what was destined to happen"

Okay. So he killed himself? Why would he do that ?

How could anyone be brave enough to take their own life. It's something that has always bothered me. I lost my older sister when I was seven, we were close when I was little but once she entered highschool she had distanced herself from me. One day after school, I witnessed my sister being carried out of our home by the paramedics and rushed into an ambulance. She never even left a note. It scares me to think that someone I care about could be going through depression or dealing with pain all by themselves. Enough emotional trauma to succumb to death. My heart breaks knowing that many people could get help or just talk to someone that cares about them yet they choose not to.

But regardless of how Matteo had died, it would still not answer, why I am able to hear him ? I'm terribly confused. How could the cause of someone's death explain why his roaming around in between realms. If he had a choice,he would never have chosen to be stuck with me. I bet he would never even pick me as his lab partner.

" What was destined to happen? " I ask confused

" I don't know that yet. At least, I don't know enough to explain and answer the millions of questions that will burst out of your mouth" - she replied

" how did you find out about this? Please tell me that you're not getting into anything dangerous because if that's case, Astrid I don't need to know. You being alive is more important to me" - I admit

Astrid attention shifts behind me and her nose slightly began to bleed.

" Astrid, your nose " I yelled in terror and grabbed a tissue and shoved on her face

" I'm okay, relax" still looking behind me a bit afraid. I turn around and saw no one

" Can we hang out at your place today? " - she cheerfully asked

Maybe that's just what she needs, a girls night with her best friend. We haven't done that in forever, popcorn, romance movie's, hair and makeup and just a good laugh. It'll get my mind off Matteo too. Well, he'll be there, watching us, giving his cheeky side comments as he always does.

" Some one is " astrid stopped

" I did some research, that's how I came to this conclusion" she continued in response to my earlier question.

I've gotten use to Astrid acting strangely, she often stares at nothing mid conversation , leaves parties early but doesn't go home and she always seems on edge. It was always hard to get her attention because she seemed to be concentrating on something else or in deep thought .

We got to my shared apartment and Sabrina wasn't there. She left it in a mess but at least it was way cleaner and less creepy then being at Astrid's home.

" Can you see other spirits" I whispered to Matteo

" No, just me, myself and... Oh and you "- he complained

I sighed and continue to try and have a fun day with Astrid.

I spend a lot of the time completing one of my assignments because Astrid had fell asleep on my couch while watching The Originals.

" I'm up! What did I miss "- she shouts and jumps out of the couch in one swift movement

How does she do that? I need at least 10 minutes to complain and whine about the fact that I need to get out of bed.

" What are you looking at ? I was just having a nap. Come on, get your ass up and let's bake a cake "- she said and grabs my arms pulling me to the kitchen

I pulled out all the ingredients we needed to bake a rainbow cake from the cupboard. This was Astrid's favourite when we were younger, she used to separate the different colours and eat them individually.

" Oh look , you little bitches. How cute, a rainbow cake" Sabrina pouted fluttering her eyelashes as she struts through the kitchen

" hope you're both out by nine or in your bedroom because I'm having a guy over " she paused

" And things are going down tonight, not just in my bedroom" she grinned

" this couch, that carpet, that chair, that counter. His a student teacher, the new science guy. So please stay away "

" Well this is a shared apartment. what If I decide to stay in lounge " - Astrid argued

Flipping her hair backwards, rolling her eyes with a smirk she replies " listen hunny, I don't mind an audience" . She stares Astrid down from head to toe and bites her lip and looks her dead in the eye

" As long as my audience is an interactive bunch"

The second she leaves the room, Astrid and I burst out into genuine laughter. Pure bliss brightens her face and I could never have felt so much happiness to see my best friend smile.

" I have to get home, thanks for getting my mind off everything. I really needed this"

" I thought you're staying over? Please don't leave me alone when she's bringing a student teacher over" - I whine

" You have fun, God knows how much you love them student teachers"- she winks and reaches for the door handle

One time okay, it was one time and Astrid will never let it go. Yes, I had a major crush on one of our science teachers in highschool. He was a student teacher,he had just finished school two years before that and he had a unique style of teaching. It didn't mean anything,it was only a crush and of course I never told him anything. Astrid just likes bringing it up every now and then.

" Besides, you have your ghost companion to keep you company"- she smiled, followed by a sweet hug

" See you at the cafè tomorrow" - I say and shut the door