Her messed up feeling was hard to understand even for her own self. Something was making her feel anxious, weird and suffocated- inside her heart which was far away to be seen and could only be felt.
What was that feeling? Regret, remorse or something else? Her hand was tightly clenched on the desk while the other hand was tugging tight on her trousers, head and eyes down, lips pursed tightly and body was in tremor while trying to control herself from crying any more.
For always she have felt regretful for having such a bad faith of her own which brought disaster to her family and they died but now after finding out that everything that happened was not because of her bad faith, she become confused whether to feel happy or sad.
A bright future with shining faith and everything become engulfed in darkness due to some ugly monsters, who pretended to be pure but found out to be corrupt.