Chapter Two

I wake up to my door being slammed shut "Where on Earth were you last night? I went to go get a drink, I came back and you're gone" Ember yells,

I sit up and my eyes still feel like I was crying

maybe because I cried myself to sleep,

"Have you been crying?" she sits next to me. "I-I found my mate" I stare at the floor, "Oh my god you did? This is amazing who is it?...wait why are you crying?" more tears run down my face,

"It's Ryan Matthews and he...rejected me after sleeping with me," I say

I'm so glad he wasn't my first, my best friend Caleb was my first, we both said we would rather lose our virginity to each other than someone that could possibly tear us apart,

after we slept together I started getting feeling for him but that was cut short when the two of us were in a car accident that killed him and put me in a coma for three months,

I can't believe that was two years ago and I haven't had sex since that night until last night, the part that really broke my heart is that I didn't get to go to his funeral.

"I'm going to kill him" she starts to get up from my bed but I grab onto her arm before she gets to the door, I didn't even have to say anything she knew what I meant when I held her back then she sits back down,

"We can sit here and watch movies all day and call him things like "Man whore" and hope that he gets an S.T.D from one of the girls he screws" I laugh,

she always knows how to make me feel better, "I just want to be alone for a little while okay?" I look up from staring at my hands, "Of course just call me when you're ready to hope that he gets herpes" I laugh while she walks out of my room.

I get dressed and walk out of my dorm I get to the parking lot, and I see Ryan kissing some girl on top of a car, he breaks the kiss then looks at me making me run to my car and quickly drive out of the parking lot.

After some time I get to my favorite place in the world it's this clearing in a wooded area over by my house.

Well it's actually my mom's house but most of my things are there and it's about an hour and two-hour drive from the college,

Caleb and I would always go just to get away from the world if one couldn't find the other that would be the first place we check and we would always be right.

I haven't been here in months because I knew that I would break down but today I don't give a damn about crying right now,

I park my car where I know it won't be seen and walk to our place to see that not a damn thing has changed but I'm glad it didn't.

"Hey Caleb I messed up last night and I really wish you were here with me I miss you so damn much I'm sorry I couldn't go to your funeral"

I don't know if he can hear me from heaven or something but it makes me feel a little better,

the wind blows turning the warm tears running down my face ice cold "I love you Caleb" the wind blows again and I feel something like a hand on my shoulder but when I look behind me no one is there.

I stand up then brush myself off from sitting on the ground and walk back to my car to drive another two hours before, after an hour and a half I get into town.

I want to do something crazy, something that I've wanted to do for a while but never had the guts to do it before but not get a tattoo I already have one,

I find a hair salon I have always wanted to get my hair dyed,

"Hello...how can I help you?" the woman at the front desk asks "Yeah I want to get my hair dyed but I don't have an appointment" I put my hands in my jacket pockets. "That's alright I can fit you in I'm not seeing anyone for a few hours...follow me" she walks to one of the stalls and I sit in the chair,

"So want color were you thinking about?" she asks me "I don't know actually" I play with my fingers.

"Well you can look at this and I'll be back in a minute" she hands me a book with fake hair colored with different dyes, "Have you decided yet?" she comes back "Yeah um can we do this" I show it to her "Yes we can" she smiles.

I walk out of the salon with my new light blue ends, it looks amazing

I feel like I'm having a mid-life crisis when I'm only eighteen, I'm not complaining other than Ryan being a dick and breaking my heart.

I then drive back wasn't bad I got to listen to my favorite songs, I get out of my car once I'm in the dorm parking lot I look around

I don't see him anywhere -good,

I pull my phone out of my pocket

I didn't realize I had my phone off.

I have a lot of texts from Ember

she's going to kill me

"Hazel why didn't you answer your phone and what did you do to your hair?" she yells from a few feet away, "I'm sorry I didn't realize I turned off my phone I was driving back from the forest and saw a hair salon so this happened" I say pointing to my head

"Why were you in a forest?" she asks me "Caleb" it took her a second to realize what I was talking about

She's been there a few times when she was having a panic attack and Caleb took her there to calm down,

Caleb was very protective of her I don't know why and every time I asked he said "I know a lot of things about her that you don't but don't ask her about it she'll tell you when she's ready" she never did tell me what happened after he died she became even more of an introvert than she already was she hasn't been the same, I mean neither have I but she misses him just as much as I do if not more.

All three of us were best friends...actually, there are four of us her name is Rina but now it's just us girls,

"Come on and let's go back to your dorm to talk about that jerk who deserves an S.T.D"

God, I love her

we walk back to my room she can't get over how my hair looks good and that I should have called her when I decided to do this,

I close the door behind me and I start to feel dizzy "So do you want to watch 'Netflix' or something" she put her jacket on the chair of my desk.

I nodded my head "Are you alright?" she looks at me worriedly "Yeah I'm f- AH!" I feel a sharp pain in my neck and I feel my stomach clench as if I were to throw up, my knees hit the ground before my vision fades into black.

*Ember's P.O.V*

"HAZEL?!" She falls on the floor, I run over and hold her head then call 9-1-1, I told them what happened then after about ten minutes they arrived,

they started checking everything as I explained the past events to one of them after what seemed like hours they put her on the stretcher, everyone came out of their rooms and I started walking behind them

I'm keeping my promise.