Chapter 37

W: There are some sensitive words.

When I woke up the next day.I already felt the pain in all my body. Nararamdaman ko na ang pagsisisi ko nang maalala ang nangyari at gumalaw nang makitang wala akong katabi. Hindi ako pwedeng managinip dahil nararamdaman at naalala ko ang mga pinagsisisihan ko sa ginawa kong karupokan kagabi.

My guilt slowly eating me as I hold my head because of hurting. Nilingon ko ang side table at nakakita nang gamot at tubig iyon kaya naman dahan dahan kong nilapitan iyon para makainom.

Nang mawala ng kaonti ang sakit na nararamdaman ay kinuha ko ang nakatupi na damit bago dumeretso sa cr at nagbihis. I'm starting to panic as I rushed outside in the room but even saw the man who watched the television in living room.

I was caught of guard when I heard his voice. "Where are you going?"

Huminga ako ng malalim at humarap nang normal sa kanya, pilit na itinatago ang totoong emosyon ko. "I'm going home-"

"I can drive you to your home." Akmang tatayo na sya mula sa pwesto nang pigilan ko sya.

"I can handle myself, I don't need you to drive me." I said it coldly. I almost surprised when I saw his emotion in his eyes after 7 years.

It was all pain ang guilt. My heart starting to hurt as I avoid his eyes before he catches mine. "Please, Krishiana. Let me do this."

Kumunot ang noo ko, tila naninibago sa reaksyon nya. Bakit sya ganito sakin? Dahil ba bumabalik na sa kanya ang ginawa nyang pag iwan sa akin?

Pilit kong pina tapang ang sarili ko at tinignan sya sa mga mata nya. "Stop it, I can handle myself." Taas noo akong tumalikod sa kanya at binuksan at hindi kalayuan na pinto. Pero bago pa man ako lumabas ay humarap ulit ako sa kanya. "By the way, thanks for the one night stand."

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko sinabi sa kanya yon habang nakatingin ang malungkot na mata nya sakin. While I was walking away, I accidentally touch my ring in my finger and almost thought of my fiancé.

My heart was starting to beat so fast as my tears started to fall. So stupid! Stupid move that I couldn't remember that I'm engaged to Azure.

Nanginginig ang kamay ko nang tawagan ang numero nya na ka agad nyang sinagot.

[Hey, where are you?]

Hindi ako nakasagot ng magsiunahan ang luha ko hanggang sa hindi ko kinayang pigilan pa ulit. I heard the panic in his voice and all I can hear that he'll be coming to help me.

I don't know what to do anymore. My thoughts are running in negative ways as I saw the car welcome to me and almost catch me when I felt the hand pulling me away and hugged me tightly as I crying hard. Almost catch my breathe for my stupudity move.

"What the ** are you thinking?! Are you out of your mind to kill yourself Krishiana?!" Thunder voice welcome me and hugged me tight.

Tinignan ko sya at naramdaman ko ang panginginig ng katawan nya sa nerbyos nang yakapin nya ako nang mahigpit.

Pinilit kong kumawala sa yakap nya at nang matagumpayan iyon ay ilang beses kong sinampal ang mukha nya hanggang sa mapagod ako. "** you! You are the evil person I've ever met. I almost regret for loving you! You ** bastard!"

"Krishiana stop! You're hurting me!" He tried to calm me down but he fails. No one will ever control me.

"You are so ** shit! This is your fault that's why I'm suffering until now! Anong karapatan mong mag reklamo matapos nang ginawa mo sakin?! After 7 ** years! I hate that I'm still the old self who can't even move forward because of you! I hate you!" I shouted and started to punch him but still pissed when he dodge my attack. I kick his little ass as he shouted pain.

"You deserve all my punch so better not to shout. You know that I'm satisfied for all those years, I finally have vengeance to kick your ass off." I said in front of him when I still kicking and punch him.

I dry my tears when I'm starting to feel sleepy and tired. "That's not yet done, don't ever show me your face again or else I'll kill you myself for leaving me without clueless. Yes, I'm stupid yesterday night. But here I am again, never stop bothering you until I'll satisfied to punchcyou enough to stop my pain. Don't ever forget that." I threatened as I throw the stone and even saw his bleeding shouldeer.

I heard the car beeping and we both turn around just to see Azure who's running and hugged me tightly. "Are you okay? Does he hurt you?" May pag aalala sa mga mata nya at tinignan ang kabuuan ko kung nasaktan ako.

Napatigil ang pag aalala nya nang hawakan nya ang pulsuhan ko at nakita ang sariwang sugat. I heard him hardly sighed as he starts to warning me but I still didn't listen to him. Just blankly stare the evil man who's ready to kill his stares at Azure.

"I'll just fire you if your mentally unstable. Krish, just please cooperate with me this. Help yourself please. Stop torturing yourself anymore."

Wala akong naisagot at tumingin na lang sa kung saan. Pinakiusapan na muna nya ang taong nasa harap ko. It triggers me when I even saw his face. I really can't forgive him. Maybe, and this time I wanted to help myself first before talking to him and waited for the closure.

He bid a good bye to his old friend and straight from the hospital after taking a bath and talk to the therapist.

I was busy talking when I suddenly remember our past which makes me burst into tears as I talked in the middle of the session. I really can't help which is to confessed that I already know him before my friends literally know him because of our childhood, still can remember how much I like him from the beginning and until now.

"I'm sorry, I still can't." Nahihirapang sambit ko, halos hindi na makatingin sa kausap kong doctor.

"We're still in the process. And I understand what you're feeling right now, just don't let the negative emotion eat you, try to learn how to love yourself at first." May iba pa syang sinabi na hindi ko na halos maintindihan sa dami ng pumapasok sa isip ko.

This isn't my first time to talk a psychotherapist but O really still can't handle my situation or my past to overcome to it. But it helps me to his words and some advices that I actually can do without feeling so pressure and still thankful because of it.

"How's your session?" Salubong sa akin ni Azure pagkalabas ko ng room. Hindi ako umimik nang yakapin nya agad ako, kita ang pag aalala sa mukha nya. "Are you okay? Your eyes are a bit red."

"I'm fine." It almost a whispered

He take a deep breath as he hugged me tightly. "I'll sure you'll be fine after this. You can do this alright? We just need to be here once a month until you'll be finally heal."

After that, he drove home and talk a little bit. He gave me a fee more days to rest and take my medicine. I was getting better and a little bit getting enough sleep at a time.

Another day came when he warned me about the enemy's he tracks. They on the way to the Philippines which is to planing to destroy my best friend wedding day. Napansin ko na lang na nasa hide out ako habang pinag me meetingan namin kung ano ang pwede maging galaw namin kapag nakita na namin sila Vion, dala ang mga tauhan nya.

"We need to be hurry before they land at the airport. I need some snipers and some silencer. We just need to warn him so he'll be alert that nobody mess the organizations." His voice was so strict and cold at the same time.

"How about some guards? Sa dami nila, hindi imposible na patulan nila kung sino ang mananakot sa kanila." Tanong no Val na sinag ayunan naman ni Leo.

"Don't worry, we don't need to show ourselves to them. It's just a warning sign. Kailangan lang natin sila takutin at ma bigyan nang pagkaka taon para matauhan sila sa ginagawa nila. Some innocent people are already involved because of what happened yrs ago. He's blinding by rage, no one can tame him even if his closest friend nor guards haven't a choice to make him stop." Mahabang paliwanag nya.

Tinaas ni Freya ang kamay nya. "Question, I lnow that Axel Melendes fault why that family is wanting a revenge but how come that Xyria Melendes is involve?"

"Because of what his brother did, they wanted to take a revenge which is to kidnapped their only little sister and kill it on their own hands. They're planning something that actually they really like, which is to suffer him because of the accidentally killed their own family." I answered.

Lahat sila nagulat at may pagtatakang napatingin sakin, except for Azure who was with me for 7 years.

"I thought you're just breaking down and eventually quit to this job." Naguguluhang sambit ni Val sa akin.

Tumingin ako sa kanya at umiling. "I won't waste for 7 years staying in florida without doing nothing except for crying. Kaya nga nag request na din ako kay Azure na pabalikin ako, even that day my life is in danger because I know the fully background of that dirty family. They wanted me dead so I can keep my mouth shut. Those family has many dirtly little secret, mostly to their parents."

"What happened about them?"

"Zantrina Elmanda Gutierrez, their mother's name and Zontro Tron Gutierrez. This couples had some bad habbits on their young ages. Having an illegal casino and some bar who full of monsters people. They own cigarettes products and company and many drugs to all in Asia. But someone stopped and blocked them to release their products before it became viral. This someone was unknown until Axel Gutierrez was hired to became a butler to Zontro Gutierrez, which is it his mission at the organization he works and planning to kill those couple and to stopped them or it only make it worse."

"Then the gun fired but accidentally kill their daughter? Which is it's Zontro's fault because he immediately caught the gun of Axel's hand and never noticed his daughter was only coming into their direction. That's why they wanted a revenge from him." Freya's theory and I nodded as an answer.

"Pero bakit hindi pa din tumitigil si Vion, ang syang panganay sa Gutierrez at bakit sya na lang ang nabubuhay?" Nagtatakang tanong ni Leo.

"Simple, they haunted them and ambush the mother who's planning to have an evil revenge because of his only daughter too. Zantrina told Vion to get revenge before died, followed by his brother, Lan who got shot after caught taking drugs." Azure told them and explain every detail before going back to the plan.

Maybe, I'll live my life and focus on my work. I'll do what I can do and to protect my very special people in this world.

And to stop this madness.

To be continued...