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TAY'S POV

She knows. She knows. Dixie knows. It's all James's fault, if he'd kept his mouth shut none of this would've happened. Laying in bed, trying to sleep my mind goes back to our conversation. "Yeah, I knew the whole time." said Dixie. I just sat there quietly hoping this was all a dream. Finally I sucked it up and said "You hate me now don't you?" quietly without looking into her puppy eyes. Honestly, they're so big and innocent looking. Not now Tay. "No! of course not, I could never hate you!" Silence. S-she doesn't mind this? Lost in my thoughts, I feel a warm tingle at my chin, tilting my head up to look into those brown eyes I fell for.

"Hey, it's ok, look at me" said the voice of an angel, aka Dixie. I looked up, on the verge of tears. My hand itched to touch those lips of hers. NOT NOW . To stop myself from doing it, I stared into her eyes trying to figure out what must be going on inside her head. During that I noticed how her eyes always stay steady, a gaze that could break ice. Her eyes flickered for a moment like she just realised what's happeneing then she looked at the ground, back at me, up to the sky and then the thing that shocked me the most is that she leaned forward and kissed my forehead. To be honest it lasted longer than needed but hey I'm not complaining.

Dixie was the first to pull away. After we got our heads straight, she said, "Now, say it." Say what? There was nothing more to say, she knows. I must've looked confused cause she explained it. "Say how you feel about me." Oh. She wanted me to say that. This must be a way to get comfortable liking girls. It took a while to my thoughts cleared up but I did it. "I love you Dixie."

What happened next also shocked me, Dixie put her hands around my neck and hugs me. I buried my face into her chest (I'm smol) and tried to enjoy this electric feeling but all the came over me is guilt and hurt. She would never feel the same and I don't know what to do, all of this is very new to me. Stop overthinking for once and enjoy it. You wanted to hug her and here you are. Isn't this what you want? I woke up with a jolt, what do I want regarding Dixie? I guess a relationship but how far?

DIXIE'S POV

It's true. Tay likes me. What about Lee? Does he know? Is he ok with it? Either way, YES. I still have my doubts but when I hear it from her, I'll be happy. I can't tell her about my feelings, it might scare her away. Tay's fragile, I have to be careful. One wrong move and she comes crashing down. I know how to be gentle, I know her limits and signs. It should be ok.

On my way to talk to her and make her feel better I notice James spamming me. Ugh what does he want? Can't I get a break?

Where are you- J

Doesn't matter- D

Fine, be like that then I just wanted to let you know we're over- J

What? Why- D

Ik how you feel about that gay friend of yours- J

That 'gay friend' has a name- D

also, yes infact I do love her- D

Knew it, goodbye liar- J

Liar?! How am I lying? I never lied about loving him. I did. James is the biggest mistake I've ever made. Calm down, you're in public. Now I really need to see Tay. She always knew how to make me forget all my problems.

It was a bit awkward and she thought I would hate her for this. No wonder she was in a bad mood. Poor girl felt guilty.

We talked about it and it went pretty good. There was this one bit though.

I kissed her forehead. It wasn't much but it's the first time I've show physical affection to her. I can't say I didn't like it, that would a big ass lie. I loved it. Her skin against mine gives me butterflies and they don't calm down and it feels like I might explode. I might have stayed there longer than needed but hey no one can blame me. We both needed it.

I love Tay. One day I'll tell her until then...

"Bye Tay, don't feel gulity, it's not your fault, you can't control your emotions."