Lance.
I couldn't sleep a wink last night.
I read all the pages of the journal, tried to find something that will tell me more. Tell me something that is from him and him alone. I don't understand anything anymore. If John is not the bad guy, then who is. We have been blaming him for everything. We have been accusing him of all the crimes.
I even got mom to doubt him.
I know she loves him. I can see it in her eyes when she looks at him. She loves him so much and she was doubtful of him. Thanks to me.
What do I do now?
It's four o clock in the morning. I have been awake all night. I tried to sleep. I tried to think of a way out of this. Maybe John is not the bad guy that we all thought he was, but he is not a saint. He hasn't been the best father to Ford. I have witnessed him act like a fucking Jerk. He is not as innocent as he is claiming to be.