#121

One.

It is my job to regain what was lost.

2.

Siwoo opened his eyes.

"what."

He must have fallen asleep after tossing and turning in bed, but when he came to, he found himself standing in a dark space like Ain.

There was a maze of stairs that ignored the laws of physics.

There was a colorful door at the end of each staircase.

This is a phenomenon called lucid dreaming or lucid dreaming.

This was the conclusion Siwoo came to after realizing that this was a dream.

It's strange that even though it's clearly my first time here, it feels familiar, as if I've been there before.

Siwoo walked around looking around curiously.

Then, I discovered something strange.

About 80% of the doors were open, but about 20% of them were wrapped with black ribbons.

"What is this?"

Si-woo picks a door wrapped in a ribbon and tries to turn the handle.

At that moment, all the ribbons begin to unravel at once.

One after another, familiar sensations cover Siwoo's body.

I felt like all the memories I had when I took the potion Amelia gave me came back in an instant.

At the same time, I felt dizziness and nausea that were dozens of times stronger than that, and at the same time, all the locked doors opened with a clunky sound.

The images and sounds start flowing without any time to panic.

Manager, can't you work a little neater? It's not like you're dissatisfied, right? I wish they would stop doing useless work like drain ditching. Five years would be enough time to renew your mindset. For the next week, please clean my research building after finishing your afternoon work. That's what a witch is. If you act like you did at Trinity Academy on your next assignment, you might die. Even making threats is bullshit. Is this what you like? Takasho This guy is really crazy.

Siwoo's left eye, which was crouched on the stairs and holding his head, glows.

Many things are reunited, like putting together scattered puzzle pieces in a brilliant cluster of lights.

Caretaker Do you miss your hometown? Yes, yes, of course I miss it. Wouldn't it be much better to be a slave to the Doctor than to be a slave in this damn city? How on earth can you sleep in such a shabby place? When I raised a hamster, I think I gave it a better home than this. Live like a witch and like a noble. That was the will that Master left to me. He always said that as a habit. I still don't know what it means to live like a noble.

Refuse to recover through the help of others and move forward only with your own strength.

Even though Amelia is a bitch, she didn't do anything wrong to get caught and killed. Besides, she believed the outcast's promise and told her to go out? Honestly, I can't do that. Manager, are there any health problems? Like an infectious disease or a skin disease. If so, please tell me in advance. It's so sad to have to listen to that sound while showering all day long. By the way, I got a suit tailored to him and he achieved some success in the world. No, but I have to live in the same house and dorm as Amelia? What kind of bullshit is this?

I refused. yes? Because I thought you could be a useful assistant. Are you rejecting me for just that reason? I've been putting up with it for 5 years just to escape this fucking place. Shin Si-woo, you belong to me. I cannot tolerate the act of going out of my control. Therefore, appropriate action will be taken against unauthorized escape plans. Corresponding measures? Who is the person who caught it at will? The person who harassed the person who was captured like that out of spite was you, Amelia. Really, I tried to endure it all and get over it, but I couldn't. You are a real bitch. What on earth do you want from me? I told you to say it! What do you want from me, why are you torturing me like this? I'm sorry for hurting your fragile pride 5 years ago, but if you're going to harass me by doing this damn thing, wouldn't it be better if I just killed you? Answer me!

.....

Unfortunately, there is no advance appointment. And the relationship... let's call it friend. Where's Amelia's friend? You bitch. As expected, she is a very vicious bitch. If this continues, I think I'm going to die. The twins were also captured without warning and became slaves. Still, studying magic has helped me in this way. Bloom, bloom, bloom, bloom, bloom. No matter how hard you struggle, there seems to be a wall you can't overcome. Yes, yes, it's pretty. Cry more cutely. How the fuck is it possible to dig into a person's eyes without anesthetizing them? Come on, wait. good night.

A feeling as if the brain was submerged in cider instead of cerebral fluid.

A thought that rises like a death in my congested mind.

Shin Si-woo, the one who offered himself as a sacrifice, crossing the boundary of the fountain, Sadalmelik has set, Will Si-woo cover me?, I want to drink cola, If it is a happy dream, I don't have to wake up forever, Gehenna's moon always shines golden, Creation The beauty of , the wondrous value of pi, 3.14159265355820...5248973025...what was next? Ah.... 1526720393159734450 How many digits did I memorize? I finally reach it, the first 999999, Feynman point, two men whispering, half-opening my eyes, recalling my memories, singing a song of sorrow that I was not free, a world of 0. May the golden dawn arise again within you, and burn this body forever.

....

I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Thank you. Thank you so much for coming back. Amelia, did I do something wrong? While Siu was lying down, the slave certificate was destroyed. Shall we sleep together? It's okay if you don't feel sorry. weird. I will spread a mat in the garden. Let's drink tea together. I also bring cake. Is there a song you want to hear? There is a place I want to go with Siwoo. Would you like to bring your luggage? It's really pretty. Siwoo has good dexterity with his hands. weird. Siu! Don't go too deep. That's a lot of fish. I'm having this for dinner today. This is how you step on it with your foot to create foam. Easy, right? Siwoo takes off his shoes and comes in. Please tell me if it's too cold. Looking at the stars is nice, but you shouldn't catch a cold. The apples are too crumbly. I think I'm screwed. Thank you, Siwoo. weird. Even if you get your memories back later. I. Can you forgive me? weird. I also hope for what Siwoo wants. But I don't deserve it. I don't deserve this. weird.

sorry.

weird.

3.

It was dawn without dawn, even the industrious birds were fast asleep.

Siwoo took off the blanket and sat down on the bed.

"....."

Siwoo's face, who was sitting with a blank expression, distorts.

Even though I covered my face with my hands, my complicated mind was disorganized, like an erupting volcano.

"Fuck....."

I gritted my teeth and swore without realizing it.

Everything I believed in felt like a lie.

I couldn't bear it without doing something like this.

I wanted to hit something with my clenched fist.

"What the fuck....."

All the memories that came back were all messily tied together.

I felt like I was the main character in Truman's show.

Amelia, who knew everything, was a spectator, and Siu was Truman.

Without knowing anything, I was completely deceived.

Two different memories flowed through Siwoo's two hearts.

Siwoo was captured by Gehenna at the age of 23, treated as a slave, and bullied at every turn by Amelia.

Siwoo has spent various happy days in the cabin with Amelia since the age of 11.

The one month he experienced in the process of rebuilding his memory and body was by no means a short period of time.

To Siwoo, one day was equivalent to half a year.

It was a time of such high density that when I woke up one day, I couldn't remember what I ate yesterday.

"Ugh...."

I felt nauseous.

What I knew and what I was feeling were all tangled together, giving me a terrible headache.

Siwoo covered his face with both hands.

Before I knew it, tears were flowing down both cheeks.

4.

Amelia, who had been immersed in agony and sadness all night, finally got out of bed.

Seeing the position of the sun completely different from usual, I realized that I overslept today.

I felt dizzy.

Sadness, pain, regret.

You can put it down for a while when you fall asleep.

However, it doesn't completely disappear.

When I became a little distracted, my size grew like a dark shadow.

Still, this moment of peace was very precious to Amelia.

"....ah."

A thought suddenly passes through my head.

It's a big deal.

Siwoo must be waiting.

Recently, Siwoo often woke up first and prepared meals, so I thought he might have finished breakfast first.

Amelia quickly changed her clothes and walked briskly down the stairs to the first floor of the cabin.

"uh?"

There is no Siwoo.

Contrary to expectations, nothing was prepared.

Looking at the furniture and blankets that had been neatly cleaned yesterday still in place, it seemed as if they had never been brought down.

"Siwoo?"

Did Siwoo think too much about what happened yesterday and oversleep?

Even when I peeked through the window toward the garden, I couldn't see anything, and even when I looked around the not-so-large house, I couldn't see a shadow.

"Siwoo?"

Amelia goes up the stairs again and stands in front of Siwoo's door.

I don't hear an answer.

Are you still sleeping?

-smart

I knocked and called his name once more.

"Siwoo, can I come in?"

A rustling sound could be heard from inside.

The door slowly opens in front of Amelia, who was waiting quietly in front of the door.

Actually, I'm embarrassed to see his face after experiencing something like yesterday.

But for that reason, I didn't want to waste the little time I had with him.

Today, we were planning to go to the barley field hill together and finish drawing the picture that we couldn't complete.

Just like before, I brought a large canvas and easel.

"....."

And when Si-woo, wearing an eye patch, came to the front of the room, Amelia was surprised.

"Siwoo, why is your face like this?"

His face looked so sallow that it could be said that he had become gaunt.

Amelia reached out her hand and gently stroked Siwoo's cheek.

"are you okay? "Do you have a cold or something?"

"..."

While the ominous silence stretched on.

Amelia's thoughts became complicated.

Has he really regained his memories now?

As he looked at Siwoo with anxious eyes, the corners of his mouth slightly turned up.

It was a smile that looked very difficult.

"are you okay. Did you sleep well, Amelia?"

"I like it. Is it really better than that? "I don't think I have a fever…"

Amelia raises her heel and touches Siwoo's forehead.

Siwoo slightly twisted his body and shook off her hand.

"ah....."

"It's really okay. "I guess it's because I have a bit of a headache."

It may be that he still feels awkward and reacts this way.

Amelia, reflecting on her lack of consideration, wraps her arms around me and asks.

"Would you like to go painting together today? "I will prepare the lunch box."

After hesitating for a moment, Siwoo nodded.

"Yes, then I will prepare."

Amelia felt a clear sense of strangeness in Siwoo's back as he was about to close the door and enter.

She stopped Si-woo.

"Siwoo."

The distance from him wasn't what it used to be.

I feel like it's a little too far to just chalk it up to what happened last night.

"yes."

But Amelia did not have the courage to ask the truth.

Amelia shook her head slightly.

"it's nothing. I'll wait."

"yes."

The door creaked and closed in front of Amelia, who was standing there.