That place is like hell…people locked up, chained, people shivering, screaming in pain, begging for their lives to be saved.
A life we used to do how we want, now I have,we have to beg for it. How can a being drag another being and even drain their blood out when they aren't progressing… Taking out their organs to sell when they become a failure… That place makes you jealous of animals… Even animal's are living peacefully.
*BANG BANG BANG*
Even the butchers won't cut a meat like that, seeing blood spilled each time, pretending to be mad, working to be sure I don't be a failure, the ambition to go for it, the emotionless to be what they want as long as I survive, that's the desire to live, that desire to live grows deeper, I was greedy for life. I saw People, someone's daughter,father, sister, aunty, mother, going mad, losing themselves… I couldn't pity them, I couldn't help them, because the greed to live made me a monster.*LAUGHS*
A monster, No! I'm not a monster is just a desire, and anyone could have had it. Yes, Jim it's just a desire.. you, you didn't kill anyone, just trying to survive alone.
… Hell! Hell! Hell!
I could hear someone call my name, not my number but my name, the voice of my savior…
"Jim woke up. Jim! Shouts Evy which I heard scream far away.
I woke up with sweat all over me, I looked around thankfully with no smell of chemicals or medicine,no sound to make you go crazy, on a clean bed with clean sheets… Then was it a nightmare? The fear of going back there seems to strain me down even though I looked tough and fearless. Is this the feeling people say it's strange? I have always lived emotionless, after school, just clubbing, and after clubbing I stay home to rest or just fuck a certain bitch to relief stress… mmm! I can't even remember nor picture how sweet it is to be moving in and out and her screaming, moaning, that's rough!.
" Are you okay? I mean you just went off yesterday while talking to me and now shaking up in bed, was it a nightmare?" Evy asked.
I pulled my hair backwards and took my shirt off, SIGHS! "I had a really sexy dream, I guess this type I was shaking instead of the bitch. LAUGHS.
She stood up" well hurry and take a quick shower, I might have to get back to Mike. You know since this issue he's been foolishly suspecting anyone around him, such a cutie"
"Then will you shower… with me.." I jokingly asked.
"Jim.. Do you have any trauma? Maybe there's something that's to change but not yet, do you wish to know?"Evy asked.
I couldn't understand her, she seems to know much but not all, does she…No, is she the boss they talked about.
She doesn't look like that but Evy knows something, how she saved Mike…
I got out of bed and went straight to her"Evy, Do you know what we don't know?.
"We will talk about it. Why don't we move to the city where I live? Then you can hide in my hotel." She said,
"Your hotel" I asked.
"Yes, I own this hotel but I have made the security much tighter and looks simple but they can't access any just like here. I have used the years before your disappearance to mark the very spots and get everything settled. I am planning… I will tell you when we get to the city. Now just get ready and put on my dress!" Evy exclaimed and giggled.
I was surprised"How can I dress up as a lady,For Christ sake I am a nice man"
"Then die as a man," she replied.
"Select the dress then, I am going for a quick shower"I said.
She continued"Don't forget, I got some porridge on the table, take that and take your medicine so we can get to the city early… you are sleeping handsome, it's 8:30 am."
I left to take my shower, after I took the Porridge and got ready for the trip back to the city… I wasn't really happy, I was scared, traumatized, I just had to pretend to save my butt, I was uncomfortable due to the ladies outfit. We sat in the car, Evy pulled two sunglasses and said it's a girls trip so I should wear it.
"Do you really have to give me this outfit, a hat and even sunglasses!" I said looking pissed.
She burst out of laughter and said"Jim, so you have a death wish, who doesn't love their life… you're currently missing thus their focus will be on the guys with the same body stature like yours. So dressing like this it's good. It fits you, yeah this feminine style, Now can I spark the car".
I didn't have anything to say, I smiled and burst out of laughter as she drove, played girls music, gosh it was interesting. I was then like if this moment, this didn't happen then how would I have gotten to dress like a lady, this thought kept making me laugh, for that few minutes of laughing—i felt relieved no injection, no cruelties, just me with her and nature. I wonder if this is what I have been missing or something else.
After a long three hours drive to the next town before the city,we saw a Filling station and we had to get down and get something to cool ourselves, to refresh, you could say"girls short outing". I got down from the car, threw my wig in the air, wearing a fitting red sleeveless crop top, with my summer hat and sunglasses on and with a short jeans skirt…
I became a model. *LAUGHS*I slowly walked by Evy's side. The muscles showing clearly on my legs with muscled arms, gosh! It was unbelievable.. I really enjoyed the girls scene.
We sat at the rest shop at the filling station… I closed my eyes to feel the environment, as I opened them, I saw Evy, just her and this thought came to mind"SHE'S MY SAVIOR". But she's my suspect.
"But this is the question I want to know the answer, Who are they?" I thought.