Love
Why is love so absolute
Yet so shattered
Like a pebble dropped into an eerie, still lake
For the sake of us all
For the sake of summer, winter, spring, and fall
Why must love be born so broken
Depths of Oneself
Found Poem With Words by Anne Frank
(Assignment from english class)
"On top of the world or in the depths of despair
I can perfectly well remember that there was a time when a deep blue sky,
the song of the birds,
moonlight and flowers could never have kept me spellbound.
I didn't want to be treated as a girl-like-all-others, but as Anne-of-her-own merits.
And I don't think I shall easily bow down before the blows that inevitably come to everyone
Finally I twist my heart round again
So that the bad is on the outside and the good is on the inside
And keep on trying to find a way of becoming what I would so like to be
And what I could be
If
There weren't any other people living in the world
I must not bury my head in the blankets, but the reverse
I must keep my head high and be brave"
You
What a sight to behold what a sight to behold
To have and to hold
Until death do us part
But before we can bear the rings to wear
We are ripped apart by the mother who never truly let me love
Who never truly accepted me
So here I sit in my tomb
In my dirt stained suit
From the wedding between me and you
Together we live and together we die
And I know somewhere out there, just as I
You lie there and look at the sky
And look at the clouds
And you look at the world
Shrouded in darkness
Surrounded by hurt
All because of her not understanding
She thinks she can decide what I feel
But she cannot and I will to what I must
And follow my heart
And find you again until death do us part
Then till death do I part will I live and love with you
And at death will I suffer at the loss of my love
At the loss of you
Goodbye to the Blood Red Rain
On a hill
In peaceful glee
I laid still
Feeling the breeze
When a giant storm cloud
Began to float overhead
But the rain
Was blood red
Suddenly the peace was gone
I was terrified
Petrified
Where was the hill
No longer still
I run but the mud turned to quicksand
The scene was horrifyingly bleak
I felt weak
As I sunk slowly
Into a pit of emotion
Goodbye to the hill
Goodbye to the glee
Goodbye to the peace
And goodbye to the blood red rain
A Sea of Me
My mind swirls blankly
A full canvas, waiting to be painted again
It is the start of the end
A new dusk
And a finished dawn
All at once
Because with is a shade of rainbow
And rainbows are made of light
A calming storm
A gentle shine
A road that's torn
And shines at night
On they go
Down the yellow brick road
Onward
Onward they trek
And once again I check
Check the ever flowing time
Time which once was mine is now a wreck
At sea
A sea of me
Me oh my
My feelings see the sea
But the floor is now the ceiling
And I created everything
My mind is a place of me
Tears in the Abyss
Into the abyss I fall
Away from it all
Silently dying as I disappear
From here
I slowly fade from this world
Quiet yet finally heard
A beautiful fear
Scared and completely alive
I try to sit still as I fall
Away from it all
Into the abyss
And tears drip
My emotions rip
My mind to shreds
And while carrying it back
I lost a piece or two along the way
Just a few shreds
Of my soul
A few parts of a whole
When I put it back together
It is now weathered
Beaten and broken
Cold and soaked in the tears that drip
The Boy in the Tree
Once there was a boy
Who lived in Detroit
And he hadn't smiled in years
He went through the days
Sobbing but saying
"Don't worry about me."
One day they found him hanging from tree
In his own backyard
No one knew his life was that hard
Until they mourned his loss
On went the time
And slowly there grew moss
On his headstone
And one day the stone was shown
To a little girl from Texas
And she was next in
The long line of people who used that tree
That old oak tree
Eventually they cut it down
Hoping it would save the town
From another person using it
It tipped
Until it fell
And under the roots
Thy found the body
Of the first to use the tree
Long ago
Slowly the spot became covered in snow
And many years later the spot became a lake
Where a boy named Jake
Drowned himself
Pile of Soot
A single drop
Slides down my face
As I chase
My old self
That's slowly dissipating into smoke
I try to run
But I'm too slow
And I miss her by a mile
It takes a while
But I finally get to the soot covered spot
That stinks with the stench of rot
I sob
And cry
And fly into an infectious rage
I tear at the floor
And swear at myself
"FUCK!" I yell
Oh well
Not everything works out
But still my fingernails bleed as I dig and shout
Wishing she would come back
Turn around
Hear me yell out
And save me
Yet she speared me
With her pointy forked tongue of lies
What lies beneath her surface
I ponder
As I dig into the soot
And crawl on foot
To where she once was
Trying to go back
My hands are stained black
From digging in the soot
Inch by inch
Foot by foot
I dig deep
My nails rip off
My hands bleed
I want her back
I need
Her to return
To save me from burning up too
Where are you, me
We are the same but different
I'm scared
And you feel nothing
Are you being honest or bluffing
You must feel something
Oh dear
I've dug down to the bone
I cried alone
In the cold and the dark
Hoping for a smoldering spark of her to come back
And embrace me
Bride of Death
Sweet music
Of a dreamer
Who stargazes
Under the moon
She walks the world with a smile
But death hoped to meet her soon
She went along a path
For an early morning jog
When suddenly out of the fog
Death appeared
And he said
"Oh my dear girl
With your hair stained red
I am Death
And I wish to have said
I have fallen in love with you
I'll make a deal
In exchange for your hand in marriage
I'll bring back anyone you love
If you agree to walk down the aisle
And kiss my cloaked lips
With your room-brightening smile
You shall rule hell and heaven with me
And be
My beautiful bride
Stand beside me
And be my bride
Oh beautiful girl
With your red stained curls
And beautiful smile
Be my bride
You may think on it for a while."
Then Death disappeared
And from that day on she feared him
But she wished to bring back
The love of her life
So one day
She stood with a with a knife
She drove it through her chest
And said "I wish to see Death."
And he came in and said
"I see you've accepted my offer
Who do you wish to send back into the world."
She began to cry and said
"Years ago my husband died.
I wish to bring him back."
And so Death did
And she became Death's bride
With her room-brightening smile
While her husband suffered on earth
And though her gesture was worth her life
Her husband soon died
To go back
To be with her
But now they no longer look at the moon
Because they are still separated
Even after death
Because she was married to Death
And it stayed that way until she took her final breath
My Dear
Roses
And daisies
And sunflowers
Minutes
And seconds
And days
And hours
Tick by
On the clock
Tick tock
Tick tock
On we go down the yellow brick road
No
You go
Leaving my heart polluted as you went to Oz
A deathly doom
An eerie gloom
It fills the room
With despair
A horrible scent in the air
My mind is the lair of the beast
A heart, it and I share
And too a mind
It of destruction and me of care
And it makes my heart beat
For you
For you
All that I do
Is for you
My love
My sweet, tired love
Please don't leave
I need you to stay
Stay so I may say
That I love you once more
And give you one last hug before I walk out the door
With a tear
A tear streaming down my face
And a silent, choked back sob
In my throat
I shall never wear a veil of lace with you
So good night
And goodbye
And please don't leave
For I love you my dear
And I think you love me
So just stay
And live on with your life
Even if I don't live on with mine
You deserve life
And happiness
And tears of joy
And some one who can give you the love you deserve
Not a toy for you to play with and get bored of
Someone you love and someone you trust
Someone to give to
Something like us
Before everything happened
Something unstained, something brand new
Our souls that lay tattered in a closet
With mothballs and mold
Someone with whom you would like to grow old
Someone to care for
Someone to show your heart to
Someone who can be what you need
Not me though I love you so
And I try to be that person
But it's not enough
I can't change simply with love
I'll always be me
So complicated and unlovable
But you my dear can be so much more than me
You can be anything you desire
Except dead
Because I refuse to go to the funeral
Of the one who lit this fire inside me
So goodbye my dear
My love
My heart
Goodnight
To the moon
To you
And to the stars
Guilt
A vision of them
The mind-made manifestation of my own guilt
Swirling through my head
It encases me
Drowning me in regret and shame
On the corner of Crinella and Ely
I sit on the sidewalk
Thinking about my choices in life
What led up to this
What did I do wrong
Everything
A vision of them
A mind-made manifestation of my own guilt
Marathon
I used to be you
So smart
So free
So creative
So kind
What changed
My heart
My soul
My mind
Somewhere down the line
Things broke
And the pieces fell apart
I dropped a few along the way
On the path between finish and start
The marathon of life
That I keep having to run on
Myself
Her
Gone
She's gone
Never to be seen again
Phone Call
I so longed to hear their voice
To feel their embrace
And to see their soft, hazel eyes
Now once one more I may hear them
First the phone rings
Then you
Then you
I missed you so
The wind in my hair and the phone is my hand
Myself on the swing and my shoes in the sand
Your voice is smooth and broken and sweet
And your laugh is music and joy to me
Circus
I love
I go
I die
I blow in the wind and I freeze in the snow
And when life begins then so does the show
The show
The show
With clowns and with glitter
And a ringmaster
For people to watch and enjoy
And laugh at and gawk
And eat popcorn while watching me suffer and falter and block out my friends
And family too
And miss my old self
And miss you
Blood in the Water
Blood and bones and bullet holes
In the room on the wall in the sea
Swirling waves and chum-drawn sharks
Circling, swarming
Drawn in to the death of a friend
Of a lover
The death of another is inevitable in the water
You drown
In the water you die
In the water you suffer
And in the water you cry
And you cry
And you go belly up
Until you are found
And fresh out of luck
Loneliness
Lonely hearts and broken souls
Broken parts and broken wholes
Half of you and half the other
Smothered by the cascading loneliness
Yet but one, come one more
I beg of thee
Leave me not alone for I am sick when I look not on you
Do not leave me to meld myself into what I believe I should be when it is not right
Do not leave me alone
For I am not to be alone at night
Is when the times get bad
Night has had its moments of truth
For me
Living Death on a Raindrop
Raindrops on the window
And rust along the sill
Watching all the passing cars along the highway
Teardrops on the face
Watching through the window
Crying at the passing cars
And staring at the shining stars
Stars in the sky with moon and the clouds
Clouds making the raindrops that roll down the car window
Sweet life
A most tragic comedy of love, loneliness, and death
Her Dress
A dress
Tattered and stained and torn
Overworn
Worn by a mess of a person named Tess
Tess was a girl with bright purple hair
And the dress was her favorite
Floral and perfect
And she wore it every Tuesday
She wore it to school and she wore it to work
And the first time it got a stain was from ketchup at the diner she worked at
And the first rip came getting caught on a door handle
But still Tess wore her dress
And she looked like a mess
But oh how she loved that dress
From her mother
Who died in a crash
And Tess awoke next to in the car and saw the gash
On her throat from a piece of windshield
And on that day she was wearing the dress
And now there's a stain of her blood on the dress
Just an inch away from the ketchup
And she cried and she wept
In her stained, torn blue dress
In the dirt in front of her mother's grave
And the grass grew around
And she watched the flowers sprout
And she wore that dress
Every day
And she grew to be insane
She grew just as the flowers did
Bigger and brighter
A lover and a fighter
And her dress grew evermore stained and tattered
And her eyes became glossy and shattered
With every piece of her that broke off when she died inside
Horror Story
I love you
Those words
They fall from her mouth
Into a hung up phone call
No one was listening but still she says
I love you
Into the phone
Lies and lies
And tears and tart berry pies
In the window and sighs in the wind
As she lies in the beach
And prays for her sins
And prays for a new day to begin
As she cries in the ocean and cries in the salt
Because according to her
Everything is her fault
Though she didn't deserve it
Not one person's life can truly be perfect
So what did she expect with all the other good things in her life
There was no walking about with out the pain of the knife
Stabbing you in the back at least once
Because no one is perfect
Everyone has something
That makes their life bad
And makes them sad enough
To cry to the ocean
And sigh to the wind
And lie in the flowers
Dying to begin again
To restart
To prepare her fragile heart
For the horrors
Attached to her name
Cherry
A cherry lollipop
Fallen to the ground
Now sticky with dirt and ants
Cherry lipgloss
Coating the lips that spill lies
Truly Love
Is love an untouched lake
Or the rain that falls and disturbs it
That shatters the perfect mirror of glistening water
What is love
What is it truly
I think and I wonder
I watch and I ponder
But nothing comes out of it
Instead here I stand
A lonely, scarred man
And I ponder:
Why must the fastest stars burn so bright
And why must moths love flying into the light