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I day dream her and fantasize about her, but after trying masturbating to The image of our blissful love making in my head and it ended up turning into a serious teary section,.

To see how she look wen she coming

How hard I'll have to touch her and to have her beg me to make love to her, the kind that could slide my fingers in.

How heavy and intense she breathes when my fingers are on her G-spot !

Or would she rather hold me closely and so tight?

Moaning and begging me to keep fucking her that way while she squeeze the pillow so hard with her eyes closed.

Or maybe have her face down and ride on her with a dildo and Have her close her legs and my hands on her boobs while I ride slowly.

Will she prefer me going all in or would rather have in slowly while I hold her legs are slightly closed.

I could have her rest 1 leg on my shoulder and the other down while I pull out gently and keep rolling it on ur clit.

I guess she loves it when I'm all in and move it slowly with my fingers playing with her clit.

will she want to maintain that position and just keep moving my waist gently on her?

And when I reach her G-spot I'll go hard and go slow while I kiss her all over.

Just when she wants me to stay all in, I'll pull out and give her a head with my fingers in.

Will she come fast if I lick her with ice cream in my mouth or prefer ice cube down?

How wet could she get? Can she melt the ice cream in my mouth when I have dem on her pussy?

I can have them on her nipples too, I want to suck them till I fall asleep and have my fingers inside her and then stroke her clit and put them back in, do the same again and again.

I could do that all day and all night !

Just when I watch her fall asleep after taking a shower and almost at dream land? I'll find my way in-between her legs again and keep tickling her.

Have her lost in dream and reality until she open her eyes and find me right there were she wants me to be. I want to kiss her fit and kiss her Tommy and have my tongue on your navel.

Take her to the shower and have her back on the wall and her legs around my waist while i make love to her.

Or make out in the jacuzzi and have my fingers stroke her clit so fast.

I could move my waist up gently while I do that,

Or I could move down and keep pulling in and out slowly while I kiss her. And could go a bit fast and pull out roll it 360 slowly on her clit and go back in an pull out and go all in maybe even faster this time.

Or I could just be all in and do nothing but look her in the eyes and tell her how sweet she moans.

Or whisper in her ears how much I love her and ride slowly while I touch her gently

I want to see her in person, I am loosing my mind.

I decided to give up on masturbate and stay horny, and I know that her voice is ice to my soul.

It has a way of chilling me without control so I thought all I had to do was call her.

I felt like it was indeed a good thing making the decision to be away, because she gives me as much attention as I require and goes on with my vibe without getting tired all through the call, and whenever I say i love you,.

She tells me loves me too, so I felt I won the battle, felt like a champion and she makes me feel even more fulfilled anytime she decides to talk dirty to me on phone,

My entire life was revolved around her on my phone, and I didn't even mind having serious issues with my mom, as long as I spoke to Eva for as long as I wish,.

I could careless for anything in the world, I got so comfortable and confident that I had the love of my life wrapped up in my finger once again,

Forgetting that the love of my life is a confused person who is scared of commitment, and can't see herself to committed to anybody because she still had the idea that all ladies could be her ex, and once again all i crossed seven rivers and a thousand distance to fix was once tossed carelessly in the bin like it was trashed,.

I wasn't just trashed, I was abandoned, neglected, ghosted, and my emotional health and mental stability was in jeopardy, because my form of antidote just caught me out of her life without notice or warning,.

Now I am left to battle with my withdrawal symptoms alone without as much as having to hear at least that friendly chilled voice that drive all the demons and pains away.

That silent all those weird noises that almost threatened to end me before she saved me, I felt ruined all over again and I told myself I could do anything for a fix.

I needed something to chase away the feeling of emptiness that suddenly clung my throat,.

I gave myself the regular excuse of why I desperately needed to do drugs knowing that it will at least keep me in check for a while and from that day I could  no longer reach Eva on any of her lines,

I started buying and living in excessive drugs to forget.

I could not handle having a single memory of her but i could not help but count the days of her absence either.

  I already left a part of me with her before making this journey and I tried keeping up with that part by communicating with her steady, but she left the spot and threw me away the keys to  my heart and the other part,

Everything became nothing and useless I knew I can't get that me back it will always remain with her.

If she decides to come back it would be too late to retrieve me back, and after counting five good month, without an hello or hi.

I knew I lost that part of her I took in replace of me,. I knew nothing would ever be the same again if she ever considered talking to me, so I began mourning our romance,.

I mourned her sweet moan, i mourned her voice, i mourned alot of our memories thinking this would do a little work in erasing them, and wiping them out of my head, but who was I kidding, little did I know how deep the web of love caught me, little did I know how far I have gone in treating someone's heart like it's mine.

In my head I played a scene of how I make love to her like she was right there with me.