The Moment That Led To Flashback

Knock knock knock! Someone was knocking at Maya's door,what a bad timing for anyone in that state. Who's there?  Maya asked  as she freaked out and got off the bed trying to get dressed, praying it wasn't her mom or if they heard her moaning out loud. 

I could see my life flashing back on my face, suddenly the thoughts of everything i and my mom had been through kept running through my head as i got more confused. 

 Isn't it funny that i am writing and thinking about my mom and about the way she makes me feel irresponsible and then she came right in front of me doing the same shit, disrespecting me in the presence of her younger sister that never discuss her kids issues with her yet my mom never miss any chance to let me down infront of anyone. 

 Could it be that me thinking and writing about all she does to me and how useless and disappointed she is with me makes  her come physically doing the same thing. She's like my actress and me her author,gave the script she's acting and am  her director,also a good producer that she produced and i'll be reproducing for her.

  Mum got divorced from my dad when I was 6years old, with my elder sister who was 10years old and the only kids she had. This happened when she lost her mother, it was barely three months after her mother's death, "My grandma".  He sent her divorced papers and told her he will come looking for her when his ready and that his two daughters would be under his roof, meanwhile she was working before they both got married but he made her quit her job, and promised to keep paying her every month because non of his wives work,they are all full time House wives.

Which she accepted thinking she's going to spend her forever with him and that nothing was going to separate them from each other. Little does she know that love was never enough and that there will come a day when all this love,the promises of forever,the dreams,the most joyful moment of them together will last only but for a while. 

 Where am i going to start from,how am i going to survive this,will i ever get to be there for my kids or have access to them? If i eventually find a roof over myself how will i survive being a single mother who's an undergraduate? Will i ever get a job? What will my children go through knowing am not going to come back to their fathers house? 

 I am not even dead but yet he's sharing my children amongst his other wives. How am i going to tell them i have no idea why their father took this decision?

 All this thoughts were going through my mother's head and it was one of the most tragic state she had ever experienced,and wish never to experience such nor wishes so to anyone.

My dad gave me to his first wife and gave my elder sister " Harriet" to his third wife, both our stepmothers. I was still very young and i happened to be the eighteenth child in total number of nineteen children. I'm the second to the last born of my family. Ten boys and nine girls. I happen to be among the class of the few kids that bed-wet (urinate while they are asleep). 

 So due to that my step mom had me sleep on the floor with a blanket so that I'll be able to wash it whenever i pee on it,and i'll have to do that in the morning before anything even when it was raining, mind you,we have house helps to do laundry for the house, but just because our mom isn't married to my dad i have to do it myself.

I'm not allowed to eat until all my siblings eat, that is,my elder brother and sister then two of her grandchildren. Sometimes I don't get the meal at all,i'll have to go and beg from my other step mom, if am unlucky on all angles i'll have to eat the leftovers. As for my elder sister she was a bit lucky cause our stepmom that was her mom at that time gives her food, the only challenge she had was doing the hard work and lack of special treatment she gave to her own children or siblings from her side.

I got so frustrated I couldn't hide my pain i can't even pretend that everything was okay anymore. I went to my dad and asked him to let my mom come back,and  that why did he send her away in the first place? he looked at me and side okay. Months passed by and my mom is not back.

 I stopped talking to my dad or even going to greet him. 

My mom got a place,her sister let her stay in her house. Luckily for me and my sister it's a trackable distance from our father's house.  I had the opportunity of visiting her almost every day but wasn't allowed to sleep at her place. One day I was far asleep it was twelve at midnight, my step mother woke me up with a slap and started flogging me,i couldn't deal with the pain, all i wanted was to be with my mom, i kept crying until she called her son "Jude" my elder brother who was her last Born to come and take me to my mother's House

At odd hour,my father was in the same house and it was with his car my elder brother drove me to my mother's house. We arrived at my mom's place, she heard my voice shouting mom it's me,open the door i am back. 

My mum wasn't sure if it's really me or someone was trying to mess with her emotions and steal what she had. She said come through the window let me see your face if truly it's you? 

Me and my brother walked to the window and she saw us. And then she ran towards the door, as she opens with tears rolling down her face, shocked and surprised, she hugged me so tight and and asked me why are you here at this hour, where is your elder sister.