I STILL WANT HIM

Jack and I both stared at him, I can't believe he has decided to approach me instead and besides when did he get here. I continued staring at him.

"Can we talk privately,'' he smiled at me and I looked towards Jack and he nodded and left Haru and I alone.

"So, what do you wanna talk about,' I asked and avoided staring at his face.

"You've been avoiding me for weeks now. Did I do anything wrong,' he asked, still smiling at me.

How could I tell him that the reason I've been avoiding him is because I'm scared and I don't want to hurt my girlfriend. This is so pathetic.

"Give me your number,' he said and winked at me. He's so fucking hot, this morning and his perfume smells so good. I love his perfume, I felt like snuggling on his chest and don't want to ever leave that place ever. Should I give him my number, there is no problem giving him my number right.

I took my phone and handed it to him. He smiled as he typed his number into my phone and took mine as well.

"So, can we meet? I've given you enough time,' he said. What does he mean by that, enough time? What is he talking about? Could he be avoiding me on purpose? I was beginning to suspect that he had grown tired of seeing me and didn't want anything to do with me.

"Meet. How are we going to do that?' I asked. What's wrong with me, it's this right.

"How long are you going to think like that? Just accept it,' he said as he pushed against the wall.

"Haru, someone might see us even if we're not in the hallway.' I hushed. I don't want us to get caught, who knows what will happen this time.

He started licking my neck and then moved on to lick my ear, and I was getting a hard boner, getting so aroused that my crotch felt like it was about to burst.

"Haru, we might get caught, stop this," I murmured, but he ignored me and went about his business. I wrapped my arms around his neck, pulled his face away from mine, and kissed him on the lips. We both kissed deeply, and Haru pressed his crotch against mine.

Then he drew away from me, and I saw Lust in his eyes, as if he wanted to devour me.

"Can we take this somewhere else, I really want you," he groaned.

"Haru, we're at school," I said quietly.

"I know that, Johan," he said, smiling into my eyes. "Have you had sex before?" he inquired. Isn't it rude of him to ask me that kind of question?

"I'm not trying to be rude; I just wanted to know if you'd ever had sex with a guy before," he said, still smiling. He sometimes amazes me with how he knew what I was thinking.

"I know you're not attempting to be impolite. But I've only had sex with a girl, and I don't...'

"Only Charlotte," he said, surprised.

"Yes," I said.

"I see," he admitted.

"What. You don't want to have sex with a virgin.' I sounded irritated. I'm not sure why I felt that way, but it was as if I wasn't that...

"I want to do it with you, and what makes it exciting is that I'm your first," he said, knocking on my forehead with his fisted hand.

"What was that for?" It hurts.

"Just admit it, you're so excited to see me," he said as he burst out laughing.

"I'm not excited to see you, and please stop being so self-important," I murmured. That was a lie; I was ecstatic to see him. His tone is soothing and gentle. His smile and the way he looks at me are incredible, and it feels wonderful. Because he's relaxed, the way he talks to me is so good, and I feel like I could tell him everything, tell him things I couldn't tell my girlfriend, and open myself up to him. He's the most attractive man I've ever seen in my life, or is it because he's Japanese? His skin is incredibly smooth. *Get a grip on yourself, Johan,* I said within myself.

He continued to laugh and say. "Let's go to a motel and have some fun," he said, leaving my mouth gaping open.

"What!!! I nearly yelled.

"Is this your first time staying at a motel?" he chuckled. This is completely insane.

"Are you crazy? Anyone could see us and report us to our school or parents,' I explained. I don't do anything and then get caught. That will be extremely humiliating, and I don't think I'll be able to handle it.

"No one can see us if we go to a gay motel," he explained.

"What!!!!"

Why are you sounding so surprised? Oh, you've never been there before,' he exclaimed. "You're really missing out on a lot, Johan."

"Well,...we could be seen by anyone..."

"Not when we'll be wearing masks inside," he explained.

"You mean we're going to wear masks inside?" I inquired.

"Yes. But, before we go to the motel, we are going to a club first?' He cracked a grin.

"When are we going there?" I inquired. I was getting nervous because I'd never been to a club before; I'd only been to a party, not a club, and not even a gay club at that. I'm at a loss for words; this is unexpected, and I'm not sure what to do or where to begin.

"Tonight?" he said.

"Yeah, tonight," I replied. "What!!!! 'You can't be serious tonight,' I didn't realize that at first.

"I'm not kidding. I even purchased a ticket for both of us?'

"Haru, I haven't arranged or planned anything and...'

"I know, Johan, you can quickly come up with something,' he interrupted me and deeply kissed me and moaned. I quickly push him away before anyone notices us.

"Johan, I miss you and long for you.' He said with his voice filled with Lust. "So meet me at a three-star hotel, and I'll come pick you up if I don't arrive on time,'' he stated.

"Umm...Haru, what time?"

"7 p.m.?" Haru replied.

"Okay, Haru, and...'

"Don't be nervous, come see me, Haru and you won't regret it,' he winked at me and began walking away. I sighed and began walking to class absentmindedly, and before I knew it, it was class time. I had no idea when I walked into class and everyone stared at me.

"Mr Williams, why are you late?' Mr Andrew said. I looked up and realized I entered the classroom, what the hell, I wanted to avoid him and now I'm going to hear about his babbling and his boring lectures all day. This is so messed up?