Chapter 1 Alone

I was walking on a street alone thinking about all the situation that's going on in my life. I was walking bumping into people. They were looking at me weirdly and some were looking at me with pity in their eyes. I don't like to take people sympathy. It will make me look pathetic which i don't want. It was a winter night and it was snowing. I love winter because i want to be ice-cold girl.

I don't have emotions anymore! is it? well its because I was abandoned by my parents when i was small child. My maternal grandparents took me in but my aunts and uncles were against. Still They took me in.

My aunts doesn't like me because i look like Mum. My mum betrayed her family for a con man. She fell in love with someone she shouldn't had and she choosed him over her family. At last he cheated on her but she was already pregnant with me. She left him after that she wanted abort me but after all she was a women. She didn't want to kill innocent life.and now she couldnt return to her home after all incidents.So she lived alone for her child. But after giving birth she couldn't afford to raise her daughter. so, she left her daughter in front of her parents home with letter.

She mercilessly left her 2 months daughter at gate. Thinking of this i teared up. I wanted to cry very badly. i was grown up being bullied by my aunts and uncles. Wherever I am alone. They gets their and make me do all chores even if I am sick I have to complete their work. Sometimes i felt like dying why do I have to live like this. Until when do I have to endure this bullshit. I was really tired. I don't want to go home.