My sister walks out of her funeral.
“You idiot, are you going to kill me?”
She smiles…and walks towards me.
She grabs my hand with her small hands. They are too warm to be just an illusion or a dream I have always created to trick myself.
I am always aware of her death.
My sister is no longer in this world…but…but…
“Are you going to kill me to become Gilbert Bedivere…in that world and leave me behind?” She looks up at me before placing my hand on her neck. “That’s right. You’ve already died in your previous life just like me… Brother, it’s time for you to begin your new life…”
“...”
“Although I don’t want you to become a fudanshi, it is inevitable when you’re in a BL game. Anyway, you have to be a top because I don’t allow you to be a bottom. I won't let my brother lose his dignity… But if it's Nigel, you can be a bottom, I'm okay with that…”
“...”