Code Geass FF chapter 6

A few months have passed since my first performance.

Many high class people liked my music, specially the young ones.

Some even invited me to perfom in some events they organized like parties and such. I have gotten huge earnings from those.

I gained enough money to buy a house but I didn't because I started sleeping with Elizbien a month ago.

We both don't want to make things formal, so don't expect a proper relationship. We are more like best friends with benefits.

I say 'best' friends because we can really be considered as such.

Elizbien is a widow apparently. She got the house and a few other properties from her former husband. He was a soldier she said. She didn't elaborate how he died though or she just didn't know herself.

I got really good at playing my trumpet now. My physique is also really good now, although it still can't keep up with my mind, it's okay, cause I don't think a human body will ever be able to do so.

I got better in most of the things I got know but there were things that I didn't get to do some practice on like gun shooting which was apparently already illegal to use in the city.

If I want to practice with my gun, I have to go out of the city or go to the shooting range of the police station which I don't want to go to.

I also can't pratice my archery because of the same reason. It's okay though, because I got to learning how to use a sword, your generic knight's sword specifically. I payed a retired knight to teach me how and also to get me a sword legally. I got good fast that the knight even offered to referre me to become a squire under an official knight but I declined.

I don't want to be near any politics right now. Being near political figures risked me, being found by the geass order if it is already up and running now or by the royalty.

I also found the library and there are only a few new things that I could learn which where some really advance professional knowledge that was available to the public. My knowledge pool of only until highschool is still better than most right now.

I am in a funeral right now. Boss Hans' father died a few days ago and he is going to be buried today.

Observing this situation made me realize many things. People die. That is how reality normally is. The code holders are an anomaly.

I will eventually have to be left behind by most people that I will get to know. Like Eliz, to which whom, I am quite attached right now. Will I still be able to get children? If I do, will I go insane if they left me behind too? Nah, I am a scumbag and deadbeat. I think, I will be okay for the most part about children.

I already died once, so, my outlook in life is that, everything is fine as long as you lived a mostly happy and content life. That's why I can let go. I already let go of my previous life too anyway, why would I get troubled about letting go of people now.

There are also more technical problems that will definitely occur with deaths. Such as, me, not dying and aging. I might need to leave people behind before they even get really old, before they notice that I am not getting older like they do.

I will also need a new identity after leaving, to not get found out. I also need it to start a new life.

I need to plan this things out I guess.

- a few months later -

I got Eliz pregnant.

Yeah, I know, it was quite a dumb move. But she wants to have children and I know I will have to leave her behind a few years later. That's why, I agreed.

I don't know if a code holder can get someone pregnant or can get pregnant but I did it anyway.

I got quite attached to Eliz that's why I want her to have someone as a support when I go. Our child can be her support. There is still a few years. I will prepare everything I can prepare on my own.

- a few years later -

Our child is already a teenager. It is almost time for me to go. My next identity shall be a law student. I shall find a more secure way to get a new identity. I will leave london soon.

I will tell Eliz that I need to go to some foreign place to further my carreer. I got a photograph of us for when I miss her.

I shall write a letter every week. I already talked with her about my plans to go to somewhere far a few years ago. I just didn't do so because our kid is still not old enough that's what I said to her and maybe that's what she thinks too.

I wanted to tell her about geass, about my immortality and I wanted to try and give her geass too. But I didn't. I thought it will only mess with her peaceful life. I think it really will, because it already does to my life right now but I'm good cause this is what I wanted anyway.

I already accepted that my life pursuit is knowledge. I want to learn everything and exprience everything.

I know she might investigate where I am if I said where I am going when I insist on not going back later, but it's okay. It's already part of the plan.

I will die from her life before she does from mine. I will really miss her and our kid. But this is what I should do.

I will die from an accident that will make it impossible to get my body then...

I will be gone.

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