Chapter 54 - If I am too attentive, you can hug me, kiss me, and I can see you again

"I remember it was the same National College Entrance Exam in June and I did fairly okay that time. But I couldn't go to a foreign college, so I ended up in a college in Hai Cheng."

Meng Ting's registered residence was set back to Hai Cheng, so he had an advantage over the foreign candidates. He still didn't do well in language subjects like English, but with his extraordinary results in Science subjects, Meng Ting was able to get into the best college in Hai Cheng.

"I was so happy that time, I thought I'd never be the same again." Meng Ting could fend for himself, and he worked hard to change his fate too, but the reality was unexpectedly harsh. Although Meng Ting didn't go into details, a few words were enough to make Yan Sui's heart ache.

However, Meng Ting still couldn't look straight at Yan Sui's eyes, his gaze fell on his own hand and there's sign of trance in his eyes.

"My teacher said that I was very talented and he wanted to take me abroad with him. We even booked the flight tickets. I have no idea how the Meng's family knew about this and grandma approached me."

The dream and future within his reach shattered like a mirror in an instant, and all sorts of rumors and discussions filled his ears. He suffered the horror of rumors again and as a result. he lost the chance of going overseas and couldn't even stay in school. After a muddled month, Meng Ting was sent to Meng's perfumery research base before he could even receive his diploma.

And then it was days and nights of experiments until he passed away.

"I thought I was dead, but when I woke up, I was back in my high school dorm room and my roommate said that I fell out of the bed with a concussion. After that, I had been suffering from nightmares and couldn't take the test seriously. I didn't want to do well in my test."

"I was taken back to the Meng's family after that and married you."

Meng Ting slowly released his breath after he finished, he already confessed to Yan Sui about everything he knew.

Yan Sui didn't stay silent for too long, he already had all sorts of speculations in his mind regarding Su Si Yu's confession. But he never expected these coming out from Meng Ting, what Meng Ting said was actually much more convincing than all of his speculations.

If Su Si Yu's actions alone weren't enough to change the original trajectory, it was also because Meng Ting voluntarily abandoned the path of his previous life, creating an effect that led to their current marriage.

Yan Sui reached out his hand and Meng Ting looked up at him, there was apprehension in his eyes but also determination. He was waiting for Yan Sui's judgmental eyes, but the more Meng Ting reacted that way, the more distressed and hurt Yan Sui became.

Yan Sui's hand caressed Meng Ting's forehead, his hair, his eyelashes and finally his lips.

His tone was a little harsh, "What are you thinking? How can I abandon you?"

But he couldn't bear to be harsh with Meng Ting in the end and his voice went slightly deeper, he wanted to hug Meng Ting tightly in his arms but was afraid of hurting him. Not only Meng Ting was feeling overwhelmed, Yan Sui was too.

Meng Ting reached out and wrapped his arms around Yan Sui's neck.

"I know, but I just can't help but worry, it must be.... It must be that I love you so much."

Yan Sui wanted to laugh a little, but couldn't laugh at such a serious moment. Their encounter was a coincidence, so coincidence that their relationship would never happen if they missed out on a small opportunity.

"I'm sorry Yan Sui. I can't help you with anything by saying this, I really don't know about your situation in my previous life."

He was in the dark of what Su Si Yu knew. He lived in his own world and lived in such a mess, and even now, he feared the same thing would happen again, the fear of losing him.

"Meng Ting, thank you." Yan Sui gently kissed the side of Meng Ting's face and then whispered against his cheek, "Thank you for choosing me."

He was grateful for Su Si Yu's choice too. Meng Ting's uneasiness was obviously affecting him. Now that he understood the causes and consequences, his uneasiness was settling down.

Whether it was a chance given by God or a pure coincidence, Meng Ting was now in his arms and he was not planning to let go someone who he was going to spend his entire life with.

"What happened in the college, describe it to me carefully, and the research base too."

Yan Sui sorted out his emotions quickly, Meng Ting finally opened up and he didn't want to miss this opportunity. They had to clarify everything that needed to be clarified, from the scars to the rotten part of the memory. It was better to fix them by cutting them open.

"When grandma asked me for money and I didn't give it to her, she made a racket in public and said that I was ungrateful, that I was ruthless, that I had murderous tendencies at a young age…" Meng Ting let go of Yan Sui and sat up, his tone was a little flat because he didn't seem to care anymore. The only differences between last time and now was that he cared about it last time.

"Someone was curious about it and she just…. Tell them everything." Meng Ting was almost molested at the age of fourteen and Yan Sui was aware of that. Meng Ting didn't really want to continue and he sighed, "I….. I did intend to kill him, but I've never killed anyone before. My strength was not enough and I stabbed at the wrong angle, she's not wrong about me actually."

If Meng Ting had travelled back to an earlier time, there might not be a chance for that man to survive, and Meng Ting could really be sent to jail.

Meng Ting's views were not crooked at all, it was the Meng's family intending to ruin Meng Ting because of his good nature and the high chance of him rising against the odds. This must have made them panicked and would do by any means to stop him.

The Meng's family stopped Meng Ting from going overseas because they were afraid that Meng Ting would suddenly make a fortune and be noticed by whoever was there. That's why they imprisoned him in the research base so that they could control him and used Meng Ting for their uses.

Otherwise, even as a perfume researcher, Meng Ting wouldn't have been hidden so secretly. Even now when he was married into the Yan's family, there were still people over there panicking.

Although Su Si Yu was not talented in any ways, he was a good communicator and had a lot of connections in his circle. It was impossible for him to not know about Meng Ting being Meng's illegitimate son.

Besides, he and Meng Qi had something going on for a short period of time. That's why the Meng's family wasn't something invincible to him.

"Days in the research base were actually okay, it's just very tiring. As soon as one formula came out, another project would start up again. We're in the lab everyday and everyday was a busy life for us."

This kind of oppression almost drained the love Meng Ting had as a perfumer, and he was the type of person who used to focus on things. That's why he didn't need anyone to check up on his progress during a project, but it was draining his strength and energy at the same time.

"Originally, I wanted to quit this forever. But I soon realized that I was just venting my anger on it in Rosebud Manor. I still love it actually." Meng Ting said while looking at Yan Sui, a smile spread from the corner of his mouth, he was thinking of the times they spent in Rosebud Manor.

"I'm telling you this because I want to ask for your opinion on whether it's better for me to go to college like we planned or start experimenting on perfumes right now?" Meng Ting then added, "I can't experiment on perfumes if I'm studying in school. I can't accomplish two things at the same time."

Meng Ting changed the topic from his past to his future so fast that Yan Sui was still feeling distressed about it. Fortunately, Meng Ting was vivid and lively again.

Not being able to balance two things at the same time would be regrettable for others, but it was a good thing for Meng Ting.

Between two choices, he would choose the one that he valued the most. That's why he had to let go of his hatred and be a brand new person.

Yan Sui leaned in to kiss him passionately without saying anything.

Meng Ting was a little confused about what Yan Sui was thinking, but he still responded to his kiss. He slowly closed his eyes and his cheek was blushing. Yan Sui's kisses were so soft and gentle that it made his heart beat crazily against his chest.

Yan Sui closed his eyes too while he tightened his hug on Meng Ting, circling him in his arms, as if he could kiss him like that all night without stopping.

After a while, Yan Sui released him and the two were still immersed in the sexual desire they had for each other. The room soon fell into silence, in fact, there was no need for them to say anything as Yan Sui's feelings were expressed in his kiss.

Meng Ting leaned against him for a long time before opening his eyes to meet Yan Sui's gaze, and he couldn't help but smile.

"Yan Sui, what should I do? I can't leave you anymore?"

When one was so deep in love with someone, leaving his other half had no difference from cutting off a part of his body. That kind of pain would follow you for a lifetime and being alive became worse than death.

Meng Ting had sorrow in his words. On the other hand, Yan Sui caressed the side of his face with a look of satisfaction, "Don't be afraid, I can't leave you too."

He couldn't live without Meng Ting either, so no matter what he had to do, he wouldn't let something like Meng Ting leaving him happened,

He kissed Meng Ting's forehead again then adjusted his position so that Meng Ting could lean on him more comfortably, "I remember I said before that you can do whatever you want. If you like to experiment on perfumes right now, I'll support you too."

"If you don't want to go to school, then don't go. We'll only go during midterm and final exams, We'll adjust whenever you want as long as you score enough for Hai Cheng's college. As for the lab…."

"I understand." Meng Ting grabbed Yan Sui's hand and kissed it, then he immediately turned around and said seriously, "I already figured out all the equipment the lab needs."

Meng Ting took his tablet and opened a document that had a fairly complete list of equipment.

Yan Sui looked at Meng Ting's serious look and couldn't help but kiss him.

"You come up with the idea and I'll do it."

Having a full set of equipment for the laboratory was not enough, Meng Ting needed assistants, the laboratory needed a suitable address, a variety of imported raw materials, starting up a company and perfume brand and they couldn't do it without a professional manager.

Of course, Yan Sui didn't have much time to handle the whole process from start to finish, but finding a reliable helper for Meng Ting could still be done.

Meng Ting narrowed his eyes and suddenly, he wrapped his legs around him and pushed Yan Sui down on the bed while continuously kissing him, "Yan Sui, you're the best."

Meng Ting called Yan Sui the best not only because Yan Sui helped him with the laboratory, but also because he was willing to trust him and tolerate his terrible past and previous life.

Enjoying the soft and warm feeling of Meng Ting, Yan Sui took him in his arms and closed his eyes. He couldn't stay sad as long as Meng Ting was there with him, he was his biggest blessing after all.

Meng Ting pressed his lips against Yan Sui as he closed his eyes, the smile on his face was fainting but inside, he was happier than anyone in the world.

"Yan Sui, I'm really happy." The corner of his mouth curved upward again, feeling relaxed at the fact that he confessed everything to Yan Sui. Meng Ting leaned forward and whispered in his ears, "Even if Su Si Yu didn't tell you about this, I'll still tell you in the future."

It's just that he wouldn't confess about it that early, he'll pick a better and more suitable time.

"You don't have to feel sorry for me, I don't want you to be sad."

"Okay." Yan Sui responded softly. Just like Meng Ting, he could care less about those things in the past but if the Meng's family tried to do something now, he definitely would never forgive them.

Meng Ting was convinced that Yan Sui wouldn't get sad for him anymore, then he leaned backwards, "I'll go write down the formula I once researched on my own and you can sell it first"

It's a good thing that he told Yan Sui the truth, he could make money for Yan Sui now.

However, before his feet could hit the ground, he was pulled back by Yan Sui with his arms wrapped tightly around his waist. Yan Sui's deep and seductive voice entered Meng Ting's ear, "Write it down tomorrow, there's no need to rush."

Meng Ting turned back in confusion and he leaned back into his arms, "What do you want to ask, I'll tell you everything."

Meng Ting rubbed against Yan Sui's chek, the corner of his eyes and eyebrows were stretched, showing a very distinct sign of happiness.

Yan Sui reached out and pinched his nose. Seeing his worried and frowning face, Yan Sui smiled and bit his lips. "Nothing, but you have to feed me first before you can do anything else."

Meng Ting touched Yan Sui's stomach, "Are you hungry again?"

Yan Sui continued holding the man in his arms before whispering, "Touch further down."

Meng Ting's hand slowly slid down and then he paused halfway when he realized what Yan Sui meant, his cheek soon turned into crimson red, "One more time?"

Now that it was confirmed he was getting a laboratory for himself, Meng Ting still had a lot of things to do. There's actually a technique in choosing the raw materials for his perfume, he couldn't let Yan Sui suffer losses after all. Although his perfume might not be the best, at least it's unique.

Yan Sui held Meng Ting's finger in his mouth and gently grinded his teeth on it, he could already imagine the days he would be left out and ignored by Meng Ting in the future.

He took off his jacket and kissed him passionately, Meng Ting couldn't think of anything else but to accept Yan Sui's enthusiasm. Although the laboratory was quite important, it was still not as important as his Yan Sui.

After doing it one more time, Meng Ting suddenly came to his senses and then hooked Yan Sui's neck in the bathroom, "Let's do it again."

Meng Ting was greedy for pleasure, and Yan Sui wanted to refuse him at first but couldn't say anything when Meng Ting kept kissing him.

The sound of the surging water intertwined with their ragged panting and emotional whispers, they were in fact each other's aphrodisiac. Love whenever they wanted to, did whenever they wanted it.

As soon as Meng Ting returned to bed, he closed his eyes and fell asleep, forgetting about the formula and all.

However, Yan Sui continued to rub his legs with medicine for a while before he draped himself in a bathrobe.

He didn't exit the bedroom either, he took his phone out and went to the small balcony attached to the bedroom.

"Ming Ya, it's me." Yan Sui said as he sat on a rattan chair on the balcony, "What are your plans for this semester?"

"Ah, Uncle Nine." Yan Ming Ya was a bit surprised at his call, usually he only dared to contact Zhen Han because he was afraid to bother Yan Sui.

"School is almost done, more like practices on my part. I've been... looking for projects lately." he answered although surprised.

Yan Sui was aware of the so-called "project", this was one of the tests that Yan Zheng Bo had set for him and Yan Shu Ya. Both of them had to give a result to him after working independently before the age of twenty.

"Found anything yet?" Yan Sui asked again.

"I have a few projects being assessed, but I'm not very satisfied about it." Yan Ming Ya said seriously. Although he didn't treat Yan Shu Ya as his opponents, a lion would still hunt a rabbit with its full strength. His serious attitude was definitely one of the qualities of being the Yan's heir.

"Well, in that case, come over to Hai Cheng. I have a project over here, see if you like it or not."

The meaning of Yan Sui's words was very obvious, he asked Yan Ming Ya to come to Hai Cheng not because he wanted Ming Ya to pick, but because he picked Ming Ya.

"This..." Yan Ming Ya wasn't doubting what Yan Sui said. It's just that Yan Zheng Bo requested them to work independently without the connection of the family, which naturally included the help of the main family from Hai Cheng as well as other side families.

"It belongs to your little aunt and has nothing to do with the Yan's family."

Yan Ming Ya, who was way over at F country raised his eyebrows as he noticed that Yan Sui's tone was softer when he said the word "little aunt". Although he hadn't met them after such a long time, it was obvious that their relationship became closer and stronger.

Influenced by such emotions, Yan Ming Ya didn't hesitate any longer, "Okay, I'll make arrangements to go there as soon as possible."

"No worries, take your time. Call me when you book the flight ticket and I'll have someone to pick you up." Yan Sui said.

Yan Ming Ya softly replied and Yan Sui made another call after hanging up.

"Make a thorough investigation of Li Yi Fei from the Meng's family."

Yan Sui was at the small balcony for nearly half an hour before he returned back to the room. He took off his bathrobe and lay under the blankets while holding Meng Ting tightly in his arms.

The next day around five o'clock, Yan Sui woke up while the person in his arms was still sleeping soundly. He reached out to touch Meng Ting's forehead to check his temperature, and examined his sleeping face to check for any symptoms of uneasiness and discomfort.

After a while, Yan Sui smiled and went back to sleep, not forgetting to embrace Meng Ting in his arms again.

Meng Ting's biological clock was disrupted a while ago, yesterday was a tiring night for him too, which made him unable to wake up.

But that's fine, exercise was important but resting well was even more important.

The two slept till seven o'clock before coming down from upstairs, Nanny Wang and Uncle Xiao were surprised but eventually came to their senses, only Meng Ting stared at the time on his phone for a long time before accepting the fact that he overslept.

"Let's eat breakfast first and then take a walk in the evening."

Yan Sui said while pulling Meng Ting with him to the dining table, both Rhubarb and Furball came closer at their feet.

"They've all been fed." Nanny Wang said as she brought the breakfast up to the table.

Both Rhubarb and Furball were very affectionate to Meng Ting, they just love to come over when they're bored.

Meng Ting sat down with them rubbing against his legs.

After the two of them finished their breakfast, Yan Sui and Meng Ting went to the study and Meng Ting quickly wrote down several perfume formulas. He glanced at them, seemingly thinking about something.

"What's wrong? Is there something you can't remember?" Yan Sui was in the dark about perfumes, but just by looking at all the scientific names and doses on the paper, he knew it wasn't simple. In fact, talent and hardwork were indispensable for any industry to reach its limits.

Meng Ting shook his head, "No, I remember it… But I feel like… There's things that can be improved."

There's no lab for him to test on right now, that's why a lot of his ideas were stuck in his head, and he's not sure how the improvements would work out.

Yan Sui smiled at Meng Ting's words, the way he looked at these formulas wasn't the same with the way he looked at those test papers from school. The former was something he truly liked and enjoyed while the latter was something that he forced himself to take it seriously because he wanted to change his own destiny.

Yan Sui didn't stay in the study for long because he had to go to the company. Meng Ting didn't follow him as he was still occupying Yan Sui's study with writing, calculating and researching formulas. However, Yan Sui put Rhubarb and Furball in there to accompany him.

There's water and snacks on the table, and he could get food whenever he was hungry.

Meng Ting spent his whole weekends in the study, and he took Rhubarb for a small walk downstairs if he's tired, then he continued his research. On Sunday night, Meng Ting finally sorted out all the perfume combinations he once researched before. During the sorting process, he had a few more ideas but just like what Yan Sui said, there's no need to rush. Because the lab wasn't done yet, he had to jot down all the ideas he had and test them later.

Meng Ting used the wooden box that Nanny Wang found for him to store his formulas, then he placed them on the nightstand.

When Yan Sui came out from the bathroom, Meng Ting turned around and waved at him.

Meng Ting threw himself into his arms as Yan Sui came closer, then he pointed at the wooden box, "I got it all done."

Yan Sui immediately kissed Meng Ting's cheek, "Our Ting Ting is so amazing."

Yan Sui's tone was like praising a child, and Meng Ting hesitated for a moment before he was kissed again.

"You are amazing." Yan Sui sat on the bed with Meng Ting, but he soon turned serious, "But there's something I need to tell you as well."

"What?" Meng Ting asked, turning serious as well. He didn't seem to realize that Yan Sui was upset these two days.

"I'll naturally support you if you like to do this, but you can't ignore me and treat me as an invincible person because of it."

Every day when he went to his company with great reluctance, the most Meng Ting did was waving goodbye from the window in the study. The reluctance when he went to school back then was completely gone. In addition, he also had a feeling that if this continued, he would not only eat the vinegar of the two pets occasionally, but also eat the vinegar on the perfumes too.

( eat vinegar : getting jealous. I use "eat vinegar" because its more funny)

"Wait, no. I do see you." Meng Ting widened his eyes. He had a good look at Yan Sui and saw he was being serious. He took a while to reflect on what he did in these two days and then hugged Yan Sui tightly, "You misunderstood."

"I know what's more important to me, and it's you. You."

Meng Ting emphasized, "The reason I want to try researching perfumes again in the first place is because of you. Yan Sui, I do see you."

Yan Sui was actually just trying to get a little jealous to find some sense of existence for himself, but Meng Ting took it seriously. At the same time, he couldn't deny the fact that Meng Ting's serious confession made him really happy and distressed.

"If I'm too focused, just hug and kiss me and I'll be able to see you again."

Meng Ting gave this suggestion to Yan Sui because he also knew that when he was too focused, he would completely forget about his surroundings.

"I definitely won't get angry if it's you."

Meng Ting continued to softly whisper in Yan Sui's ear, his soft and serious words warmed Yan Sui's heart.

"Okay, I got it." Yan Sui hugged Meng Ting back and he leaned against the pillows while Meng Ting lay against his chest.

"I'll ask Wang Feng to go to your school to take a leave for you tomorrow, and then ask all your teachers for advice."

"Okay." Meng Ting nodded, he didn't know what it's like for others, but for him, if he remembered some knowledge, he would remember it forever. So no matter how many times he memorized it, he still couldn't remember the things that he didn't want to remember.

But he should still try to listen to the advice of his teachers too. After all, he and Yan Sui were originally planning for him to go to the university, perhaps even tried to complete it. Now it didn't really matter anymore cause as long as he's sure what he wanted, they could change their plans anytime they wanted.

He had never been pampered and loved like this before, but when he came to Yan Sui's side, he got everything he wanted.

After thinking about it, Meng Ting couldn't think of anything particularly nice to say, and he said slightly hesitantly, "In the future, I'll give you all the money I earn."

Yan Sui vaguely felt that Meng Ting's words came out a bit abruptly, just like the one he once gave him, "You must eat well."

"Mm." Yan Sui responded and asked again, "What type of words is this?"

Meng Ting's cheeks reddened and he said, "It's romantic words, can't you tell it?"

Yan Sui could no longer refrain his smile and he hugged Meng Ting, his chest shaking slightly as he chuckled in a deep and cheerful tone.

He kissed Meng Ting on his forehead and couldn't help but ruffle his hair. After this, he still couldn't contain the smile on his face.

"Aren't romantic words deliberately meant words that make people happy?" Meng Ting laughed and muttered his doubts, he was still confused on why Yan Sui laughed.

"You're right." Yan Sui responded and he flipped Meng Ting then pressed him underneath him, "As long as Ting Ting is the one who says it, I love to hear it whether it's an honest word or romantic word."

Meng Ting blushed and he nodded, then he poked Yan Sui's cheek, "Actually, come to think of it. We should be the same age. No, I'm probably older than you, my birthday is in January."

Yan Sui's eyebrows quirked, "Ting Ting is not satisfied with the way I called you?"

Meng Ting shook his head and he poked Yan Sui's other cheek, "It's just….. It's just….. I can't seem to call you Sui Sui."

Yan Sui felt weird too at first when he heard Meng Ting called him "Sui Sui". He lowered his head and kissed Meng Ting's lips, "Then say it, I like to hear it." Especially when Meng Ting was enamoured of Yan Sui, those light mumbled of his name was incomparably pleasing to his ears, and he really did love them.

Meng Ting nodded lightly, forgetting to pursue whether who was older between him and Yan Sui.

He had left someone out in the cold for two days, and this night was his night for compensation.