"The Sin Is That You Are Born Too Good"

Flora's Diary; Part 4:

"What is my sin, you ask me.

My sin is that I too good to every old and new person I meet. My sin is that I love to help simeone who would never help me. That sin may be good, but sometimes it hurts to have too much faith in people you thought you should always trust no matter what.

Sometimes it hurts when you have too much love ,but you have no one to it to. When you want to give a hug to someone, but that someone doesn't exist.

It hurts- It hurts when I can't be MYSELF, when i have ti go into my little shelf that no one wants to see. I can't be myself with them, and when I am not myself the whole world stops around me. I can't call these people friends because , that's not how having a friend works. I have to hide my real self from someone who will go anyway.

It hurts- It hurts me, when I have to fake smile to people i thought I could cry and tell my selcrets to.

Asking myself questions as:

"What will they think of me?" or

"Will I be weak if I cry in front of them?", it breaks me in half.

It ... hurts... It hurts when they are lying to me, telling lies is stabbing someone in the back.

But people like that are not worth our time, even thought we love them a lot, they will hurt you more when the time passes.

It NEVER SHOULD HURT YOU, to show the way you are to someone , to cry in front of then ,laugh happily and also cry while laughing with them.

You should never ask any questions about yourself as:

" I am weird will they even like me?",

you are you, you should never change about someone, if you want to change - change because YOU wanted to change not because someone wants you to change...

We should be happy that some of us are doing things we like and love... Never should no one cry because of fake people or friends, we should learn to let go of something, even if it means too much for us.

Even if we are too good, we can became a devil himself if someone do something bad to a person we think of him/ her as a friend and that is a fact. Learn to let go even if you don't want to!"

She began writing the diary with hopes that the old things that happened will never again haunt her in her dreams. The hope wa not lost, everytime she writes she let's go of one worry. She becomes happier, even more happy than she was before. Other people saw it on her too and she saw it herself.

Flora looked at life from a different perspercitive. How beautiful it is to have something to write your worries and old memories to? Or just have the people who listen to you? It is beautiful, the most awesome feeling for everyone. As for for Flora her days are more lovely than ever, as if she was a different person. Each day her powers grow, and she can never be sure of what will the new thing be. She learns about herself each day, and takes moment a day.