27. I am part of it

Two days after the incident in Kai's room, Miriam came to visit me. She had no news for me but she said that she had missed me and she wanted to see how I was doing. After what had happened in Kai's room, I had been in a bad mood.

I was snapping at everyone and I kept cursing him out. I hated that he had such control over how I felt

and it was frustrating beyond measure.

" You do not seem fine," she said when I zoned out for the third time.

I shook my head and waved my hand off. It was to show her that I did not want to talk about it. I needed something else to think about.

" Why did werewolves betray vampires? " I asked the question that was on my mind. Since that incident, things had been quiet but I had heard murmuring that vampires were gearing up to attack wolves.

The population of vampires in the castle had doubled. Instead of the usual guard outside my door, there were two. There were also guards going around the castle to see if everything was going okay.

I was not even allowed to go outside. Staying inside was frustrating and it gave me more time to think about how much Kai had hurt me.

" I don't know, " she replied but I could tell she was holding out on me.

" Is there something you are not telling me? " I asked.

She shook her head and then her face lit up.

" There is a rumor going around that Katana fled. She is not in the castle and she was seen arguing with Kai. Isn't that good news? " She asked.

I did not see how that was good news. Even with Katana gone, Kai would still treat me like shit. Her leaving had changed nothing. Nonetheless, I forced a tight smile on my face.

I removed the phone that Miriam had given me from my drawer and held it to her. Amidst all that was happening, I had forgotten to confront her about getting my hopes up when there were none at all.

" Why did you give me a phone when you knew that there was no service in the castle? " I asked when she raised an eyebrow at me for giving her back her useless phone.

" There are so many things you can do with your phone nowadays. You can play games, record voice messages, take pictures, and write a diary. "

" Why would I want to do those things? I want to talk to my family and tell them that I am safe. I don't want to record voice messages that I am never going to send. " I said, getting angry by the second.

Miriam looked at me with pity but pity was the last thing I needed. All I needed at the moment was for her to help me escape.

" I thought-"

" You thought wrong! I do not want to be here! You say you want to help me but I do not see you doing that. If you want to help me, get me out of here. "

Miriam shook her head and tried to take my hand but I wouldn't let her. I had no mood for fake affection.

" If I could, don't you think I would have already helped you by now? I feel that your anger is misplaced. "

" I want to go home! " I yelled and broke down.

Miriam held onto me as my shoulders shook when I cried. She was right. My anger was misplaced but I had a right to be angry. Everything was overwhelming at that point.

I didn't know whether I was crying because of my sister or because I was a prisoner. Maybe I was crying because of Kai but I felt hurt. I couldn't explain that feeling at all.

Miriam did not scold me or get angry at my outburst. She stayed with me and held me when I cried. I felt guilty for shouting at her. She didn't deserve how ungrateful I was at all.

She was the friend I never had. To be honest, I didn't have any friends. I was the subject of a lot of bullying when I was in high school and middle school so I usually kept to myself.

I had a thing for keeping quiet in the worst of situations which angered my bullies even more and it encouraged them to bully me even more.

Kids can be very mean. I was bullied for having tattered clothes and shoes. An orphanage my sister and I had been in lacked water so sometimes I failed to shower. That added to the reasons for my bullying.

I was given nicknames that were hurtful and cruel.

Looking back, my life had never been easy. Life was never easy but mine was harder than most. I pulled away and wiped my tears. I needed to stop feeling sorry for myself.

" Can't you carry me with you as you leave this place? "I asked, trying my luck one more time.

" Did you not feel the strength of the barrier? No one can come in or leave this place. This escape is yours just as it is mine. " She said.

I looked at her to see if she was lying but she wasn't. Not that I could tell anyway. For all I knew, she was a really good liar. I had a feeling that she was holding out on me. She couldn't even look me in the eye.

" Is there something I should know? " I asked and I knew then that I had caught her.

" I don't think-"

" Just tell me, please," I begged.

" I figured out that the werewolves were after you. I heard Kai saying that he had secured you the night the werewolves attacked. Looking back, it makes sense because he went through a lot of trouble to protect you. Do you think he would protect another slave like that? "

" What are you saying, Miriam? "

She uttered the words I dreaded hearing.

" Whatever the awakening is, it has a lot to do with you."