Chapter 20 - I didn't get permission, but ...

"Not." My mother didn't even have to think about the answer very much and soon refused my request, it was such an instant response that I even started to feel bad and was also speechless for a moment.

"Please, let me do this, you know I'm strong enough to kill miserable goblins, you don't have to worry about me or anything."

"I already said that this will not happen, did you not understand that?" My mom was staring at me and had even stopped eating to do this, I felt like I was being threatened by her.

"You're not going to change your mind no matter what I say, are you?" I asked again, looking into his eyes, I didn't want to show that I was bothered by his look.

"Listen, I'm going to explain why I'm denying this, and I want you to understand well. You saw what happened a little while ago, didn't you? You know I don't want to bury anyone else, especially my son. "

She was saying it all serenely, without looking sad or angry, but those words made me feel a little bad, but even so, she replied: "You know I won't die, I can-"

"How can you make sure you won't die? Tell me?"

Again I was thinking about what to say, but this time I had nothing to say. Even though she knows I killed some bad guys, it's not a guarantee that I'll survive a battle with monsters.

"I have no way of doing that ..." Even though I was frustrated, I couldn't do something I couldn't do.

"As much as you fight bandits, monsters are different, they are more aggressive and they also walk in larger groups, it is totally different than you think." No, I know what you're talking about, and I can't agree.

Monsters more aggressive than humans? I've met worse people in my life, you can be sure of that, but I can't say that to her.

"I understand." I went back to eating my food and was silent while listening to a great sermon on her, about how I would die if I left the house to fight monsters, but I decided to ignore all that.

Throughout our conversation, Lari and Lisandra watched without saying anything, and now it was no different, they were looking at me and my mother while she continued to speak.

"That's why you can't leave, I don't want to lose anyone else, do you understand?" My mother had a tearful voice, and when I looked at her, her eyes were starting to fill with tears.

Seeing this, I started to feel a little guilty, so I decided to calm her down: "Okay, don't worry, I won't do any of that, okay? I'm not going to die and I'm going to stay by your side."

After that our dinner turned into something I would not like, something totally morbid, with my mother crying, me trying to calm her and the other two in silence while watching everything.

Is this all because I asked for a hunting permit? This was way beyond what I thought it would.

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I went to my room after arguing a little more with my mom, and she didn't permit me to leave, she was really afraid that I would die if I went after monsters, and I understand that fear.

"But since she didn't allow it, I'm going to have to go without her knowing, right?" I threw myself on the bed and started to think if I should really do it because I feel like I should obey it.

But if I don't go hunting, I will stay on the same level and I will not evolve, which would leave me very frustrated.

'Sorry, mom, but I have to do this.' I decided to leave without her knowing, and I would do it at night, it would not be a very difficult thing to do since everyone at home sleeps very early, I just need to wait until nightfall.

What I had to do was wait for the night to come, I never felt so anxious in my life, but I had to control myself so that my mother suspected that I was planning something.

And controlling all that anxiety, the night came.

After dinner was served, I ate quickly and didn't talk much to my mother and Lisandra, the only one who talked to me during dinner was Lari, and it was about dinner, my mother seemed uncomfortable about it.

But even though I noticed my mother's discomfort that I didn't have a conversation during the same dinner that usually happened, I said nothing and went to my room as soon as I finished dinner.

I threw myself on the bed and remained to lie down until everyone went to sleep.

I received a visit from Lari to see how I was doing, and also to turn off the lights, then I remained quiet in bed until I heard the door closing, when that happened I got up at once.

If I remained lying down, I would certainly fall asleep.

'Okay, how long will this take?' I started walking around my room hoping that the whole house would be silent and that everyone would be asleep, and it took longer than I expected.

But when I realized that everything was silent, I went to the door and opened it carefully without making a noise, just stuck my head out and started looking at the rooms. Everyone had their lights out and everything was silent.

I could only hear the noise of the trees swaying because of the wind. I don't think you'll have any problems getting out now.