Nothing happened at ALL?

After an intimate moment with my twin, I'm so happy that I don't want this day to end. I had two reasons one, I don't want Jack to feel any regret or anything about what happened between us a few minutes ago. Two, I'm afraid I can't keep myself or hide anything like before. I smell like Jack the flavor of mint and honey cologne which is my favorite. I'm entirely filled with his smell, which is calming me down. I want to write it in my diary. I pulled the bedside drawer to take my diary and I took the pen from the same drawer, I can't help smiling as I started to thinking and write it down what happened.

After I wrote it down, I put back in the drawer. I'm staring at the picture that I put on the side table, it was taken on our 18th birthday. Senior year and fun with friends and the same day we had applied for the college. The family dinner at Grandpa's home is the best memory. It was with the background of the plants and flowers we planted as it is a tradition for our family to plant plants on every birthday. We were so happy they let me choose which plant and how it should look.

I turned to lie on my back, now I'm staring at the ceiling and solar system light I insisted on putting in the ceiling. I played with the switch to start rotating and as it rotates my memory went back to Jack, his soft red lips on mine, how good it feels. How turned on I was, how hard he was, how he held me while he was kissing. How much the hug feels. I want to know whether he feels the same or not but I dare not to go to his room and find out. I hope he feels at least 1 fourth of what I feel. With all this happy moment I eventually fell asleep.

I woke to up the alarm on the side table show times 6:00 AM. I quickly brushed and washed my face and started ready for my daily jogging with Jack, as I tie my shoe knot I called out for him, no reply from him, I called again still no reply. He had never left me for jogging unless he is staying out of the city for work or drunk and stayed at home. I opened his bedroom door hesitatingly to see the messy bed. I went to make his bed folding the blanket and arranging the pillows and folding the corner of the bedcover. After I satisfied I checked my digital watch it's already 6:23. I realize he went without me surprised me as it hadn't done before.

When I came back to the apartment all sweety, I removed my hoodie and drank the water from the fridge. I can hear the water running in the shower in the hallway bathroom, which means Jack is in the shower. I want to ask why he left me for jogging but I didn't, at least for now. I went to the bathroom in my room and took a shower. I dried my hair with a towel and I choose the dark blue full-sleeve t-shirt matched it with light blue jean thanks for not having any formal dress code in my office. After I put a face cream to protect from sunshine and pollution I went to the kitchen knowing Jack would be cooking.

He was cooking and already had the lunchboxes to pack for both of us. I leaned on the breakfast bar as I sat on the stool.

"Good morning, sunshine" he greeted while handing me the orange juice.

I nodded as I drink the orange juice. He made a sandwich for breakfast and for lunch he is cooking something I'm not interested to know. I wanted to ask him why did he left me for jogging but before I can ask he said "My car needed wasn't started yesterday so I was fixing it in the morning I thought I could finish earlier if I start earlier and I can come with jogging with you, but it took more time and you have already left"."That's fine, I thought something else". "I just wanted it to fix it so I can drive you to the office" he offered me the sandwich with extra cheese and sauce."Hmm... Thanks" I mumbled while eating."Thanks for making my bed"."It became my daily routine at least you should know how to keep it clean or at least try to fold the blankets than leaving it all messy". I complained. He laughed, "I will do it" he lied I know he won't do that.

We laughed and finish out breakfast. He acts as nothing has ever happened yesterday night. I can't say it is what I wanted rather than him keeping distance or shut me off or I want him to remember. For now, we are good. If we talk about it maybe it could get awkward so I refuse to talk about it unless he starts it.

He dropped me at the office and waved bye and he is going out of the city today, he can't pick me up from the office to home. So he left his car in my office parking and convinced me he is good to take a cab to his office.

"Drive safe, don't drink, and get wasted. I won't be here to babysit you" he half teased half concerned.

I nodded and waved him bye as I slipped to the office.

Merlin my acquaintance who goes in the same department as I was rolling her eyes because I still stay with my brother and I'm not independent bla bla. I stay with my brother for two reasons. One, I can stay with him, I feel safe with him rather than staying alone in the apartment and missing him. Two, we already have a mortgage we have to pay for our house in my hometown, so I will consider all the cost-cutting. I told the second reason to her still she says I have to make my life on my own not to depend on him. I can't blame her for a short period of working here she is the only one I have well acquainted.

There is not much work today as I have already completed my building designs and plan and sent to the leads. I have to correct or do the changes if they asked. I love my job, I have always wanted to be an Architect and now I'm. I have good pay too. As I sit in my cabin and arranged the documents and Advanced 3d architecture book that I took from the office library. After I have arranged everything I started opening emails to see nothing new here, I have resolved some of the queries and made some changes as they asked. After I ate lunch with my teammates I resumed my work and read the book while I can in between.

I couldn't notice the time as it already 4 PM, and I can leave, I asked Merlin to come to my apartment as Jack is not due home for two days. She said she has to go somewhere she will finish that and come to my apartment at 8 PM with red wine and asking me to choose a good film and order a pizza. We waved each other and I started the car and drove to the grocery shop to buy the groceries and I was searching for a movie on Netflix's my phone beeped with a message. It's from Jack.

"I boarded London flight, don't forget to eat, have fun"

"I'll and you too".