May Have Lost the Sense of Shame.

Sakura ended up waking in the middle of the night, turned to her left and saw Raphael sleeping while using his arms as a pillow, his face just a feet away. Even if it's dark, the moonlight passing through the curtains shines down on Raphael's face.

'I have seen this face each time I wake up, and I can't get used to it'.

While thinking that, she just noticed she has been in this world for maybe a day or so, yet so much has happened.

'Man... just what type of luck I haven', she sighs and keeps looking at Raphael's face.

'He looks so different now, he has such an innocent image with that relaxed and unkempt hair".

She turns to her side, facing him and slowly moves her hand to his face, she lightly touches it, only for him to quickly move and grab her wrist, and his eyes piercing her. She quickly gulped a yelp, his eyes focused and he quickly let her wrist go.

"Your highness?! Are you hurt, I didn't think, I apologize for-".

"Ish ok, not hurth"

noticing her words were still slurred, yet they seem to be correcting itself, just bit by bit though.

"Whth yu here? No slepth room?" Seems that when she cuts her words, it becomes easier to say them.

'Hmm, looks like I'll go with this approach till I learn not to slur my sentences.'

"I'm staying to watch over you, your highness, your last maids were fired and thrown out, so different decisions have been made to take care of you".

"Take caru?".

"Yes, your highness, so do not worry and sleep well, I'll be watching over you tonight."

"Wherth sleepth?"

I look at Raphael and notice he is just sitting in the chair beside me, I turn to look around and see no other place he can sleep in.

"Your highness, there's no need to worry, I just need a bit of rest, so that's why I do not need a place to rest."

When she heard that, she made a decision, moving the bed covers and scooting a bit to the right, then sat straight and patted the empty spot she was on a few moments ago.

"Sleepth, no chur".

"... Ah?'

"Sleepth bed".

It took Raphael a while to understand what was said but when he did, he became a bit flustered and tried to reject her by shaking his head and trying to say he cannot since he was just a butler.

Seeing him reject her. She decided to use her childish looks to convince him, even if it means to throw a bit of her pride away.

turning to look up at him, she tried to make a look like that of a kicked puppy, and added a small tilt of the head,

"hate me?".

Raphael clenched his chest and fell to his knees, he quickly recovered and held her hand on his own.

"I would never hate her highness, I will do anything you ask of me, forgive my moment of haze, as long as you ask, I would even kill!"

He looked her in the eyes with resolution and didn't look like he was joking.

'Ah... this may have added points to her being a bit of a wild character in the game.'

"Sleep hearth then?"

Again patted the spot next to her m. Seeing him waver a bit he then made a resolution face and nodded, he stood and began to remove his suit jacket, then he began to uncuff his dress shirt and folded then, revealing his surprisingly toned arms, then unbutton two buttons on the shirt.

Watching the whole procedure in a daze she quickly snapped out of it. When he began to get on the bed she started to feel a bit awkward.

But then began to shake her head, 'why the heck are you acting shy now? You're only 3 years old now, don't worry so much'.

"Your highness, maybe it's best if I don't after all", he says after just sitting on the edge with the covers in his hand.

"No! Pine, I'm fine, sleep. Tired", she ends up cutting her words to pronounce them better and pulls his arm to lay next to her, he complies and lays down. It was silent after that. She doesn't know if he was asleep or not, but next to him, she starts to remember when she was a kid in her past.

My family weren't really well off, so I had to share a bed with my brothers, all of us squeezed in it, yet I felt safe because they were always there when I had nightmares, I even got that horrible habit of asking them if I can sleep next to them when I had nightmares that went on the extreme as a teen.

'But they never rejected me, even if we annoyed each other so much, they never turned their back on me... I wonder how they're gonna take my death, and I just moved 2 months ago to live alone..."

I can only sigh at the luck I have.

"Princess, Let me sleep in the chair, ok? You need to sleep and it seems you won't with me here"

Raphael leaned away to try and get up, but she held his arm tighter.

"Scarth alone. No. Go. Stay,"

‘I'm not gonna lie, I'm actually a bit scared since I can now start to comprehend my situation in life. I'm in a game, one where on all the routes I will always die in a sad or tragic way.'

She held him tighter when thinking of that.

Raphael notices and lays close and pats her back, as if to reassure and lull a child to sleep.

'Man, I'm mentally in my 20s and I'm being treated as a child.... well... it isn't that bad.' thinking that she felt herself relax and let out a yawn. snuggling close to him and starting to doze off.

"Gothnigh.... luv y..ou"

Her mind growing hazy from sleep, she thought she was back in her own home and saying goodnight to her brothers.

".... Goodnight Sakura, love you too.” feeling a gentle warmth pressed on her forehead, a protective warmth, that night she didn't worry about anything and just slept well.

The next day, Raphael woke and had a steward bring him some clothes to change in, he luckily or unluckily changed in the bathroom connection to her room. She held back from going to see since he left the door wide open just in case he had to run back to protect her.

'I had to use all my willpower to stop myself, I will never allow myself to be called a peeping Tom or a perv.'

She still hasn't realized that she is already heading for that in the near future.

While he finished taking a quick shower and a change of clothes, she just lazily laid in the bed and started to roll around it.

Before she knew it he already came out with the new butler suit and his hair combed to perfection.

'I quite liked the messy bed hair, it was a bit sexy, especially when he said good morning, now that almost gave me a nosebleed'.

"Your highness, it's time to change, please come here so I can change you", Raphael hit her with that bomb that just caused her to freeze in mid roll. mechanically she turned to him and asked "ch-changth m-m-mth?"

Sakuras pronunciation is butchered by her moment of panic and embarrassment.

"Well yes your highness, you do not know how to change and you don't have any maids to help you, so I'll do so."

"N--Nu! Ith chinge aluth!"

She started to roll away from him because she was a bit too lazy to crawl away.

"Do not worry your highness, when you were just born till a year old, I was the one who changed you and bathed you".

When she heard that she covered her ears and tried to erase an image of Raphael changing diapers and bathing and dressing her.

'Nnooo!! I can feel my face burning from the shame of being changed by such a beautiful man!!!'

Before she could fully fall down the side of the bed, Raphael scooped her up with his arm and started to walk toward the closet. She wanted to fight him but knew there was nothing that could change this, so she accepted defeat and covered her face in shame.

40 minutes later she finds her mind reaching a new height of low. A shame she never expected to experience in her life, or new life in less than a few days.

'There is nothing in this world that can bring me any more shame than this, I have now reached a new level of apathy.'

"Later tonight I'll bathe your highness, I just remember you haven't really bathed but only had the maids wipe you with a towel."

'I stand corrected, there is something that can actually bury me in shame more than this.'

While just giving up, she rested her head on his shoulder and noticed a table filled with food a child around her age can eat.

They were soft food, like applesauce and croissants with jelly, there was even French toast with syrup and strawberry slices on it. Raphael sits her down and begins to feed her. adapting well and just allowed herself to be fed,

'hey, I'm lazy, nothing can change that.'

While he sliced the French toast in small pieces, she grabbed the fork and reached toward him. He seemed a bit surprised, but knew what she meant.

"Your highness, this is for you, I will have my breakfast when I leave you with Uriel."

He smiled down at her in reassurances and tried to grab the fork to feed her the toast. She humphed and moved the fork away from his hand.

"Eat, me. Full"

She wonders how she can be so bad with words, even when not being a real 3 year old, they normally don't slur this badly is what she thought.

'Now that I think about it, isn't she quite bad even when she's already 3 years old?'

Raphael notices she won't lighten up about him eating, so he just sighs and eats the French toast.

While watching him eat, he didn't open his mouth wide, nor chew loudly and had his mouth closed. As if looking at a piece of art, she quickly shaken her daze away and pushed the plate to him.

'I wasn't kidding when I said I was full, there was so much that only 5 bites filled me.'

She began to just eat the applesauce while Raphael finished the rest for her. After they were done, he wiped her hands and face, then he carried her out of the room.

'Wah~ this is gonna be the first time I'm gonna be anywhere else other that the room as Sakura' feeling a bit excited, my eyes sparkled when I started to look around at the walls and the long corridors, there was so many paintings and portraits on the hallways, as well as expensive looking vases or objects filling the sides.

The most surprising thing was that this wasn't even the main building, but a side castle built for the princess and princes of the empire.

'You gotta be shitting me, how the fuck do they have enough money to build different buildings and even have enough space to build more if needed.'

Remembering how the emperor created a personal castle for the damn heroine since she always fought with Sakura.

'I start to seriously wonder how they have so much money, and they still have so much that they can burn it to warm up the empire if needed, and then still have so much saved up. I still understand that he hasn't abused the empire's people, none of the previous emperors of the Eternity empire has, they all were loyal to their people, and their people were loyal to them.’

While distracted by her thoughts, they already reached the main castle, where guests are welcomed and where the emperor resigns.

It even looks more majestic and grand, there were more maids and stewards, even different butlers filling the halls, but they all bowed down to Raphael when they saw him.

'Wow, so that's the power the head butler has, he can be considered second in command in ordering the workers, and my father being first of course'.

She noticed a few people glancing up at her, and when they noticed that she was staring back, they quickly looked down and bowed even more.

Only when Raphael walked away did they let out a breath of relief and continued working, but with the new gossip of her highness with Raphael. Not surprising for it since they haven't ever seen the princess, but only heard of her from others, who had actually haven't even seen her either.

Truth be told, her personality was twisted in the gossip in such a way that people started to say the reason the emperor hasn't ever been summoned to see her was because he was disappointed to have her, that she was either ugly, or so beautiful, but had a horrible personality.

The only reason Mihkael hasn't beheaded anyone for the rumors was because Seraph restrained him each time.

But after seeing Sakura for the first time, they saw how beautiful she was, so they thought maybe the rumors of her bad personality were true, yet in that moment of meeting, she seemed to be a calm child. She had her arms around Raphael and rested her chin on his shoulders, looking at them she waved goodbye. Causing the few workers to get a mini heart attack at how adorable it was.

Raphael arrives at a grand door that seems to be 20 feet high and 30 feet wide, two knights with red insignia on their armor as well as a scarlet cape, to indicate royal knights are guarding the door.

When they saw Raphael they seemed to have expected him, except their eyes widened when they saw Sakurs in his arms, but that was the only expression shown before they went serious again.

'Hoh~ They have been trained well to control their emotions that well'.

They opened the doors and allowed Raphael to enter. While entering the grand throne room, they close the doors and Raphael begins to walk forward. She looked around the room and noticed the walls were decorated with the portraits of the late emperors, and each one gave a different type of feel, yet were all majestic and proud.

'And all were so handsome, and a feast for the eyes'.

Feeling a bit of drool on the side of her face, she quickly wiped it away.

'How dare you simp over your ancestors! You have no shame, what? getting changed ruins your integrity or something!?'

While hitting herself with that attack she look back at the throne, seeing Mihkael sitting there, his leg crossed over the other and his elbow on the arm rest and his head resting in the back of his hand, his body leaning to that arm, like a lazy lion resting on his throne, yet majestic.

You can see the hidden power in his eyes that look down on you from the top of his throne.

'He is your father, do not get swayed by his devilish lo- I mean his good looking face'.

"Yo Raph, I hear you had a wonderful night with her highness, don't you think it's a little too soon to sleep in the same bed as the princess?"

The wild wolf looking man said with a teasing grin in his face.

"Shut up you buffoon, hearing a dog barking in the very morning isn't how I thought I'll spend my morning"

The guy with the monocle glasses said with a scowl marring his face.

"Haha, it seems that you guys can't rest without a moment to argue."

The magician looking man said.

Then the serious man who looked like a cold statue just stood and watched this play. She looked at each one and remembered that they were in her room while having a moment with her father.

Remembering that she borrowed her face in Raphaels suit and couldn't bring herself to look at them because of the embarrassment of being watched while crying in her father's arms that moment.

'Seriously, I have gotten embarrassed so many times that I don't know how I can still even feel embarrassed'.

"Hello Ariel, Seraph, Gabriel, and Azrael, I see everyone is energetic today", Raphael ignored the guy Ariel teasing and greeted each one in order of who spoke first.

"Hello Mihkael, you seem a bit tired, haven't you slept well again?" Raphael asked Mihkael and did seem a bit worried when he saw him, only for him to glare daggers at him.

".... You shared a bed with Sakura... I haven't even done so..."

Everyone felt a sweat drop when they heard their emperors and old friends' voices laced with envy and displeasure.

"The princess didn't seem to want to sleep alone, and since she went through so much these days, I decided to reassure her by sleeping next to her, right your highness?"

"Mhm" she let out a nod and a noise to agree with him, while looking up at her father. noticed his eyes became a few degrees warmer when he looked at her, but then became hard and serious a second later.

'Must be my imagination playing tricks on me'.

She hasn't noticed their topic discussion, until the serious looking man walks toward Raphael and looks down at her, he seems to be a few feet taller than Raphael. She look up at him

'This man... I think his name is Azrael??'

He goes on his knees and swears to put his best to protect her and etc, etc.

'He really is the serious type'.

While he finished he stood back up and just stood there, leading a moment of awkward silence to fill the throne room. She can understand one thing from this.

'... he's not used to kids...'

A normal child would have already started crying with him standing over them like that and just doing nothing but stare.

'.... Hey, Ariel or something, I noticed your shoulders shaking from you holding your laughter, just you wait when it's your turn to watch over me'.

While thinking so Sakura only sighed and decided to reach out to Azrael, 'might as well initiate first, he seems to be the shy and inexperienced type with kids.'

The man notices Sakura's actions and begins to rigidly, and awkwardly reach out to carry her. He almost dropped her but Raphael helped him with that and taught him how to carry a child.

"Uriel will meet you in the training ground of the royal knights, after this you may go, understand?".

Azrael salutes Mihkael and tells everyone else his goodbyes and walks away with her in his arms.

'I wonder if they even noticed how much of a disaster this would be if I was a normal kid.'

Understanding that normally kids wouldn't allow a stranger to hold them so easily and take them away from their most trusting people, for example Raphael and Mihkael, they haven't noticed the changes or the differences she has to those other 3 years old.

'I'm actually surprised 3 of them didn't say anything, I remember 2 of them have sons older than me, and one who should have been recently born?'.

But she gave up on such thoughts and let life just be.

Before leaving she waved goodbye to them all, especially to Raphael and her father, she then began waving her arm back and forth to them.

"Goothbye Ralphy, and daddy!!".

Before she could notice, the emperor clutched his chest as if someone shot straight at his heart.

After the door shuts behind them he begins to walk away, while she wave a goodbye to the guards to, only to earn a shy wave back, she laughed and looked away.

Seeing as this guy turned out to be a type of general or commander who governs over the Scarlet knights. Knights used to protect the inner palace and their emperor. He heads to the training grounds of theirs to meet Uriel.

'Hooh~ looks like I'm heading to witness their training, I bet I'll witness a very nice scene.'

I hadn't noticed I was laughing a bit menacingly when I thought of seeing the sweaty and maybe even shirtless knights practicing swords, the muscle bulging with each swing or block of a sword.

'.... how long till we get there?'.

Not noticing if anyone else saw her thoughts, they would think she was a middle aged woman who likes to peep on men.