Something I will Regret the whole of my life
Started knowing the end, since day one I knew the final point from initial point. gave me his love, I gave it a chance. gave me his full heart, gave him a quarter of it gave me his trust, this time I don't know what I gave in return. Did everything he could to make me be his, I hard the fancy, but that was in my mind not in my heart. I loved him more than life but I didn't know.
The first man in a girl's life is a father and he fulls her heart with love as her first love and as an example caring, a father is the one who sets an example of how her daughter is going to be loved, and a fate of a mother when not runned from it, it's likely her daughter's. kept all that in my mind and tried to escape my mother's fate and the monster inside my father to never find it in my man.
Am sorry my love, but one day you will know that you are a man, you can't love me your whole life and you can't have me in your bed forever and am not strong like her, I can't bear to hear her moans, in my bed with my husband. am not that strong to kiss me drunk with those lips and tongue I saw linking her.. am not accusing you of being like him but this is my fate not a tale like you will think at first hearing it. from now you won't see my face coming but my shoulders leaving.
I want to leave but my feet are stuck where my eyes can see you, and where my nose can smell your scent, am craving for your lips but I know I can't stay. i wanna spend with you a night in your bed and leave when your bed sheets smells me as a rememberace but am not ready to stub myself. my eyes are watering, my heart is aching but I can't stay, because am saving me a future pain. something I will Regret the whole of my life. forgetting easiesly and fall in love with you.