Chapter 89 Greatest Weakness

Blue/Ava's POV

I caressed my cheeks, wiping my sweat after drinking water. I dreamed about the past. I was drowning. It was so dark and I could only see myself drowning in the large body of water. I feel so scared. So damn scared and I woke up with my racing heart.

I felt tears in the corner of my eyes. I sucked my breath, calming myself. I thought I'm already strong. I thought nothing could scare me except from my lost memories. It was traumatizing. Seeing myself drowning is very traumatizing.

After drinking, I went back to my room and lay on the bed. My gaze accidentally landed on Edward's photo on the bedside table. I need to talk to him. I know in my heart that I still love Nicholas. I can't marry Edward half-heartedly. He's been so good to me and I'd rather hurt him now than make him suffer later. He became my companion, my best friend for five years. I don't wanna lie to him.

The next day, Mari visited me. I was doing the laundry when she came.