A Conversation (3).... --------------------------------------------------

(Diana POV)

While eating the food that the servant of this house gave me, I started wondering about the family of Miss Doll-san who is just watching me on top of the bed.

what kind of family did she had?... Did she perhaps hate them?... I wonder why doll-san doesn't want to tell me about it...

I asked her if she was the same as me because I thought she was treated like me.... but.... she only said that it was very different compared to mine.....

Either way.... Doll-san is a very kind person... So I really thought that she came from a really gentle family.

Hehehe, remembering how doll-san got angry for me because of my food makes me smile even more....

Doll-san always makes me feel warm.....

Even though its not that long when I first met her.... I started to feel that I will always be happy as long as I'm with her.

Hmmmm??.

There is something that I remembered suddenly from when I first talked with doll-san.

I heard her say that she was wandering soul before... But souls must have a body right??

Wait.... does she even had a body in a first place?.... I'm starting to think that the soul and the body are always together...but where does a soul comes from anyway..... Will the soul come first before the body or is it the other way around??..... But back to the original question, regarding Doll-san body.....just what did happened to her body??

[What are you thinking about??... ]

As I got Interrupted by an Sudden sweet voice in my head, I turned around to look at Doll-san who was just sitting still on my bed.

"..."

[hmmmm?]

As I stared at her, doll-san head slightly tilted while staring back at me.

I don't know why but.... Her tilting her head seems very adorable to me...

Now that I noticed it, I only saw doll-san move by using her head. I still didn't see her use her other parts like the arms and legs.

Will she move them by tomorrow?, she can now move her head so maybe she can move the others by tomorrow or the next day after.

"doll-san, can I ask you a question?"

[you really don't need to ask if you want to ask me something you know... Just ask me whatever and whenever you want....]

"o-okay..."

I'm really curious to know more about doll-san, so lets ask her about the thing I was thinking a short while ago.

"did doll-san had a body before you possessed my doll??....."

[...]

"uhmmm...."

[...]

" doll-san??... "

She didn't gave any answer but she is just looking straight at me.

....

A short silent moment pass and she still didn't said anything.

[m-my body is it?...]

Ohh, she is back. I wonder why she took a while to answer.

[I did had a body before.....]

"hmmmm."

[ohh wait..... Before I continue, always remember that this will only kept between us okay.... It's much more better that way.....]

I nodded while being confused.

[you see..... I was once a human being who was alive...]

"ehhhh??, doll-san was a human!?..."

Hearing this made my eyes widened in surprise.

[that's right.... I was a normal human being who had a human body and also a human life.....]

"ohhhh."

[though in the end.... something happened to me which made me lost that....]

"uhmmm??...."

As I listened to it, my curiosity went much deeper.

[.... I got killed because of some accident.....]

Ehhhh???

doll-san died??.... Wait, what should I say next?, I'm really speechless now ...

[and to lost all of that because of a simple accident.... Thinking back about it... I really am quite suprised that I can find myself agreeing with how easy a normal human can lose his own life so easily.... ]

the way she said that felt so heavy for me....

[even though you worked hard for something.... And lived a good or a decent life..... All of that can become nothing..... Just because of one simple bad accident.....]

"doll-san...."

[it's so unfair..... If you die.... Then it all ends with that.....]

"..."

[oops.... I think this talk is a bit too much for you.... Sorry...]

She apologized even though there is nothing to apologize for since I can seem to understand what she is trying to say

"I-its fine... "

[anyway that's that..... Is there anything else you want to ask?? ....]

It seems we are now going to the next topic.

"uhmmm, how did doll-san got to my doll-then??...."

This is one more thing that I got curious about... Did she possessed my doll by picking it or it's just a coincidence?

[is it just me or the things you asks me are very deep?....]

"deep??."

[no nevermind..... Your doll right?, let's just say someone told me to use your doll....]

Another person or maybe a soul?

"w-who is that?"

I wanna ask, and to be honest.... I feel a bit grateful for that person bringing doll-san to me...

[a goddess....]

"Ehhhh!!???."

[shhhhh! Don't be so loud...]

"s-sorry...."

I took a breath in and calmed myself.... A goddess??, this is my first time hearing one..... So they are real??

I only read about them inside a book, but wether they are true or not are not sure for me.

"d-doll-san talked with a god??"

[y-yes....]

"what does the god looks like??"

I want to know.... Though I do want to see them in person...

What does a god look like?, what do they do?. It must be nice talking with a god....

[a beautiful tall woman, wearing a white robe....she has golden hair and eyes.... I think that's about it....]

"ohhh...."

[by the way..... You remember the garden like place right??]

I nodded to her.... Of course I remember it.... Its a very beautiful place that only exist in a dream, I think.... But either way.... That place is so pretty, there are many flowers and its very clean and relaxing....

And that is also the place I first met doll-san.

[that place belongs to that goddess....]

"ehhhh???."

[Yep....]

No wonder its very pretty..... That goddess seems to be a good person...

"did goddess-sama have a name??"

[yes.....it's Aria-sama..... The goddess of death....]

"huh??...."

Death!!?.... I don't know why I'm suprised but death is just.... Kind of scary....

[not going to lie..... I also didn't expect her to be a god of death when I first met her....]

"..."

[don't worry.... She is not a bad and scary person.... Rather she is the opposite of it....]

Maybe she sensed my mind and now she is trying to comfort me...

But enough of that.... She is the one who made me meet Doll-san, so I should be thankful to her atleast.

[by the way.... You should finish your food first....]

!!?... Ohhh, I forgot that I was still supposed to be eating.

I turned around to my food which is a soup and took the spoon with my right hand.

I took a dip and raised my spoon to my mouth and the food... It tasted like nothing...it's the usual.

I sighed and continued eating.

"are food always tasted like nothing??"

I just said what's in my mind... There is no special meaning to why I said this... I only felt like saying it for no reason.

[no..... A good food will taste delicious if the ingredient are fresh and cooked nicely....]

"is that so??..."

[yes.....]

I looked at the food in front of me and just thought about how nice it is to be able to eat a delicious food.

I want to eat a good food someday..... I already got used to this bread and soup food.

The meat that was sometimes served to me are good..... But even though it was kind of good..... It was still mostly bones so I only put them in my mouth and take them out when there are no meat in it anymore.

"did doll-san always had delicious food before??.

[Most of it yes.... But there are still food that I don't like....so if I don't like it.... I just dont eat them.....]

"Don't like??...."

[humans have their preferred taste you know..... They like something and also kind of don't like something....]

"but it's just wasting right??... if you don't eat the food even if you don't like it??..."

They gave you food right??.... just wasting it and not eating it seems a bit bad....

[you may be correct there.... But the point is..... You must have something you like and dont like in food..... That is normal for a human being....but I do understand that you must not waste your food..... ]

Hmmmm.... I continue eating my food while thinking about what Doll-san said.

If it's me.....any food is fine..... As long as it's tasty.

[I will cook you food next time after we get out of here.....]

"!!!?"

I quickly turned around to doll-san with an expecting feeling.

"r-really!!??...."

[y-yes.... There is no need to look at me like that..... It feels weird for me....]

"o-ohhh sorry...."

[nevermind.....]

I turned around again towards my food.

Doll-san cooking huh..... I want to taste it.

And while thinking about that, I resumed eating my food until the bowl was empty.

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A while passed and I'm just laying down on my bed with Doll-san sitting near my head.

[she isn't coming?....]

"who??..."

[that woman who likes to beat you??...]

"Ohhh..."

The woman that doll-san must've been referring to is the woman of my father or I think the wife..... I only heard the other servants calling that woman the wife of the master of this house.

She is a very cruel woman who only likes to beat me everytime she feels like it.

She is much worse than father..... Father doesn't beat me up that much but only glares at me every time he sees me.

but that woman is different...she always tells me to cry and plead.

"there are days when she doesn't come here...."

[its much better if she doesn't come anymore....]

"I kind of understand that....she only hurts me when she comes here... "

I also don't want to see her and father anymore.

They don't love me anyway.... And they just locked me in here for my whole life..... I Don't even know why I'm still being kept here for so long.... Just what are they planning for me....

hey....]

"yes??...."

moved my gaze towards doll-san who is sitting in front of me....

[what would you do if something bad happened to your so called father and that woman..... Or the people inside this house.....]

I squinted my eyes wondering why doll-san asked me this weird question...

"I don't know....."

[don't you hate them??....]

"I don't hate them.... But I also don't like them...."

[I see..... So if anything happens to them, then so be it??....]

I nodded..... I don't really care about them..... If anything, as long as I'm with Doll-san, thats all that I cared about.

"why did you ask me that??..."

[nothing in particular..... I was just thinking about some important things...]

Again.... Doll-san always make me feel so curious about her..... I begin to notice that Doll-san always seem to think about so many things...

I then took a pillow above me and hugged it while staring at doll-san who is just silently sitting there.

Doll-san seems to know lots of things right?...

What kind of life did doll-san had when she was still alive before??

"uhmmm.... What kind of life did doll-san had when she was alive??...."

[a normal one.....]

What is a normal life??.... I don't understand it....

[I wake up in the morning and get ready to go to school for studying, after that, I will visit some shops and go home....it was like that for most in my life.....when I was still alive that is..... ]

"school....."

[Its a place where they teach people to learn something...by the way do you know how to read and write?.... ]

"I do.... A person came to teach me before..... He said that father told him to teach me....."

It was still way back when I was still 7 years old.....I remember him hitting me with a stick when I don't read a sentence correctly..... I think it was like that for a year.... And when I was able to read properly..... That person stopped coming here.... But because if that..... I got some books that father gave me and just read it when I don't have anything to do....

But some books are quite difficult to understand.... Some book also has this many numbers on a page..... I think it was mathematics, The name of the book....

But because of those books, I kind of got a better understanding about my surrounding.

[so a tutor came huh.....]

"a tutor?..."

[its when a teacher comes to teach in the person's house, something like that....]

"ohhh..."

As we talked about many things after that, I found myself becoming sleepy as I listened more to Doll-san voice....

It was quite relaxing to hear her speak... And I was just laying down on my bed the whole time listening to her... Maybe this is the reason to why I started to get more sleepier....

And before I knew it, my eyes were already closing.... and the last thing that I heard was a "sleep well" from doll-san.... And just like that.... I can't managed myself to stay awake anymore...