chapter 5- Facing Reality

✛Facing Reality✛

Make it stop,

The voices that speak.

They tell me of the past,

They won't let it go.

Reality is harsh,

I just want to move on.

I'm too far gone for saving.

Fantasy is my reality,

Reality is a fantasy for me.

But now I have to face the truth,

Face reality in a whole new way.

I fight the truth,

I punch with all my might,

I won't fall to the darkness in my heart.

God made me who I am,

Why can't that be seen?

I admit,

I can't be perfect for everyone,

But I'm perfect for someone.

God loves me as who I am, 

not what I am.

So I fight it,

Fight it all my life.

I won't lose this chance,

I'm going to change my life.

Now I'm facing reality,

Showing its ugly tongue through the dreams.

Whispering to me,

You've done nothing,

You should have been long gone.

Nothing matters to you,

Isn't that right?

No.

Reality lies.

Reality is going to ruin me.

Depression,

Ugly thought,

I must fight this!

I won't fall to these thoughts,

I won't give in.

God is with me, 

Every single step of the way.

God guides me to the light,

He brought me Love in this life.

His gift to me was unlike any other,

He found a way to open my heart through a boy.

Some people wonder why,

And what I tell them is,

God brought us together.

And our hearts connected.

Yes, he's different than most.

That's why I admire him.

He gives me bravery when I am scared,

He holds me in his arms when I cry.

Reality is a harsh thing,

We both admit this.

Together,

We prosper.

Our futures are open, 

But we would chose to be with each other,

Even if it wasn't meant to be.

We fight each other's battles,

He and I.

Our love runs deep,

God with us and all our friends.

Reality shakes the core,

And yet I continue to fight it.

Why do I have to face it?

Why do I have to fight it alone?

No, 

I don't fight it alone.

God will always be with me.

He will guide me,

Take me to another journey.

Love will prosper,

God will smile upon us,

And he will laugh with joy.

When the time comes,

After everything has passed,

Another gift will come,

We hope.

Staying together,

We make do with the life we have.

Out with the fear,

In with the love,

He keeps me safe,

Comforts when I am sad,

Loves me for who I am.

As time passes,

And we get older,

Forever is possible.

Hand over hand,

We could say our vows,

The eyes of God twinkling above us in the skies.

This is when I would realize-

Reality is just a past fantasy,

And present fantasy is a future reality.

And as the time passes,

He and I would make our own family.

Some adopted,

Some not so much,

But all would share every drop of our love,

Because this family would be our own.

I dream of a future,

A future with me and him.

A biggish house,

A normal family,

And all the love in the world.

Reality is the past's dreams,

The future is Reality's dream.

Reality is hard to face,

But with God by my side,

And all the love I could give,

I made my way out of the darkness forever.

I am no longer Reality's slave,

Reality is mine.