I am a bastard.

It has always been true. I am a bastard. All I have done is to go to brothels and gamble my money away. I am just a piece of trash that deserves to die. It's not like I have anything to live for, right? Here I am, at the Xupu bridge, having these thoughts.

I jump off the bridge. Well, I guess there is a lot of wind. As I am falling I keep of thinking of him. Was he who ruined my life, or was I the one who ruined it with my own hands?

Ah, fuck. It fucking hurts! It feels like my bones are breaking. My body feels burnt all over. Well, maybe this is payback for everything I've done.

As my conscientiousness slips away, all I see is him...

Zhu Xun.