CHAPTER TWO HUNDRED AND NINETEEN

Wincing I adjusted my body once again but nothing is easing the pain against my back.

I kept arranging the cushions but it was no use.

This pain isn't normal!

No one's around and I don't have my phone to call for assistance.

For the first time in months, I use the wall to crawl along until I got into the corridor where there will be a guard posted.

With tears streaming down my cheeks from the intense pain, I found myself doubling over, unable to hold myself upright.

Fear gripped me and all I could think about, is if this is the way it's going to end?

"Mrs. Daniels?" I heard a voice in the distance and footsteps approaching, while I tried to avoid hitting the floor.

"MRS. STANLEY!" The voice shouted as the intensity of the pain took over my senses.

"Put her on the couch," I heard Mrs. Stanley say but this pain is different, I don't need a sofa, I need the hospital.

Shaking my head in protest, "no, no... take.. me.. to.. the.. hospital..," I pleaded helplessly.

"Call Jerome," a voice I couldn't recognize instructs someone.

"Call.. the.. doctor... I need.. the.. hospital..!" I pleaded in between short breaths. "Pl..eas.....eee..!" I sobbed.

"Jamie!" I heard Jerome's voice, then I felt him taking me into his board strong arms.

Lifting me bodily, I cried against his chest, "Jer something... something is... wr..ong," I cried for the first time since the shooting, I was unable to contain the pain. "Th.. the hos..pital... pl.. ease... the hos.. p..ptial." I cried in his arms, while I felt him walking with me in his arms.

I heard a vehicle driving up and then a door opening but my eyes were clenched tightly together, "put her in here and sit in the back with her, I'll drive," a voice that sounds a lot like Cameron instructs.

Jer is with me!

He'll keep me safe!

"Aww..." I cried out when I was being placed in the vehicle.

"Where's hurting?" I heard Jer asked, "is the baby coming?" I sense panic in his voice and my condition right now increases his panic.

Clutching his hand tightly, "my.. baaa.. my back.." I gasped, finding it difficult to breathe.

"Have you called Gray?" Jer asks someone.

"He's in court," Cameron retorts, calm and in control. "Justin is trying to get ahold of him." Cameron explains to Jer but I was in too much pain to think clearly.

Thankfully Doctor Morris was available and met us outside the hospital to escort us through a private entrance and into an examination room without registering.

I clutched unto Jer's hand with tears still running down my face, "st.. stay.." I begged despite the fear in his eyes.

I pleaded silently to him, because just like him, I am so afraid. I am so afraid, despite having mentally prepared myself for this day.

I just never imagine I would be in this much pain.

Doctor Morris eyed me with compassion when he saw how much pain I was in but he couldn't do much until he did an ultrasound.

He's aware that I withstand all the pain since that awful day, refusing pain medications but if he offered me it today, I just might cave.

How did this suddenly happen?

I was normal, preparing for the C-section but this happen.

What did I do to trouble my back.

"My.." I lift tear filled eyes to Doctor Morris whose eyebrows were knitted tightly together, frowning at my ultrasound. "My baby?" I squeaked and turn to Jer who stared at the ultrasound machine but he probably has no idea what he's looking at.

Turning his attention to me, Doctor Morris gives me a small smile that doesn't reach his eyes then turn to Jer, "I'll be right back to do an x-ray." He informs us before leaving us alone.

Deep down in my heart I wondered about Logan but I was too afraid to ask. I can't let him see how helpless I felt.

He can't see me weak! He can't see me like this!

Jer and I turn our attention to the door when it was suddenly pushed open, because this is a private room that has been prepared to keep me protected.

"Jamie, oh Jamie sweetheart," I heard mom's soft cry before she came in my line of vision.

Rushing to my bed, "sweetheart!" Between my tears, I can see mom's before she leaned downwards to hug me as best as she could. "I only stepped out for an hour and I got the call." Mom explained but I couldn't verbally respond so I simply nodded in between tears.

"Logan is on his way," mom says but I couldn't tell her that I didn't want Logan to see me like this because neither she nor I could stop him from taking over when he gets here.

The sound of the door opening once again got my attention but I knew mom and Jer were inside with me and Cameron was on the outside with a few of his guys.

"Jamie," I opened my eyes at the sound of my husband's voice, confirming that he's not in control of his emotions, like he normally is.

"What happened?" Logan leaned down and kissed my forehead and nose, uttering words of endearment.

I tried smiling despite my pain but was too weak to open my eyes.

He loves me!

I love him!

Why was I so afraid to have him see me like this?

"Jamie," Doctor Morris calls, "I'm going to do an x-ray and then we'll proceed with the C=section today." Doctor Morris was saying from a distance but I knew he was beside the bed.

I listen to what he said and I knew he was going to say that and I have been prepared for this surgery for quite a while but suddenly I'm not.

"Do you understand me?" Doctor Morris asked, softly.