What Does He Mean - Ella POV

To say I didn't enjoy last night in Eros' arms would be a massive lie. I whined for him to let me go, but begged in my head for him to hold me forever. I hated this constant pull to him. That I obviously couldn't seem to resist.

I don't think I'll ever understand what this boy wants from me. Even when he compliments me he had to throw a jab in there. Two nights ago he had his girlfriend in his bed and now he was here in mine refusing to let me sleep anywhere but next to him. I felt a little bad for Chrissy too. She was his girlfriend yet I was the one in his arms. God, this was so wrong yet somehow felt so right.

"Eros!" I called out annoyed. I woke up so peacefully just laying in his arms trying to memorize this feeling. The guilt was getting to be too much though. Even though we only slept next to each other it was still wrong, especially since he had a girlfriend.

"Eros! Wake up or I'm going to start pinching you." I warned. He was moving slightly behind me and I could feel his breathing get heavier. He was awake for a little while but didn't move off me.

"Ok, you ask for it. Just remember that when you start yelling at me." My hand brushed on his arm then took a small piece of skin between my fingertips lightly squeezing a little harder. I was trying to warn him before I actually hurt him.

"You don't want to do that, Doll." His husky voice came from behind me sending an eruption of pleasure through my body. Jesus, how does his voice set me off like that?

"And why not?"

"Because I'll pinch you back and not in same place."

My eyebrows scrunched together. Was I suppose to know what that meant? I thought a second then smiled. I pinched him hard making him yelp. His arm tightened around my waist and his hand slowly moved under my shirt straight to my breast.

"I warned you." He said with his lips on my shoulder and a very obvious hard on to my back. I bit my lip hard trying not to moan out. Then his hand cupped my breast squeezing my whole mound and he pulled off pinching my nipple between his finger tips.

"Ow!" I jumped from the sudden mixture of pleasure and pain electrocuting me.

"Fuck! Ella!" He grunted as my body rode along his dick. It was his fault for holding me so close to his body. I giggled at his frustration and tried to get up.

"Oh, you think that is funny." He pulled me under him and then began tickling me.

"No!" I squirmed trying to fight his hands off my stomach. "Stop! Please!" I begged through my uncontrollable laughter. I was extremely ticklish.

"Oh, I thought we were having fun."

"Stop! Please stop!" I squirmed more and he just watched me.

"Make me, Ella!" He teased tickling me harder.

Well he was asking for it. "You're just as ticklish." My hands got under his arm and he jumped up with a huge smile trying to hold back laughing out loud.

"How do you know that?" He moved his hands under his arms to protect his very sensitive spot on his body.

"I know everything Eros." I looked up to him straddling my body. I liked being under him like this. Looking up to a strong man who looked down to me with pure amusement in his eyes. Something felt so perfect about this moment between us.

"I need to shower. We leave in an hour." Eros quickly moved off me looking around my room. He grabbed his shirt and threw it on then jumped out my window without another word.

I guess he didn't feel the same connection I did. It was stupid to even think of him that way. First off, he had a girlfriend. Second, he was mean to me and didn't respect me. Third, the Eros I wanted, didn't actually exist. This was one of those times I blurred the lines of who I fantasized him as being and who he actually was.

I moped to my closet hating how I felt. I woke up feeling so good and now I was left feeling rejected, yet again. Why can't I push that boy away when he acts like that to me?

I grabbed my fluffy black sweater with hearts already knowing how much he disliked it. I matched it with my red leggings and black sneakers. I think I look good and Eros can kiss my little butt.

"I said I hate that shirt." He was leaning against his jeep with arms crossed in a black t-shirt and jeans, if only it was that easy for the rest of the world to look so good.

I huffed at his eyes looking at me like a weirdo. "I know!" Then gave him a big smile.

He didn't move so I could get in so I pushed him off the car. I wish I could say I just felt anger towards him, but god his hard taunt chest felt good under my finger tips as I shoved him away.

He chuckled when I barely moved him an inch then walked to the other side of the car. I jumped in annoyed that this was going to be another day of him messing with me and me having no idea what he means.

"Where are we going?" I asked as we drove outside our city.

"To the bad side." He wiggled his eyebrows keeping his eyes on the road.

"Which means?"

"Your brother apparently had an apartment with this chick named Star in the less desirable parts of the city. We are going to see if she is home."

"He had an apartment? I really knew nothing about his life." I sighed leaning my head to the window. Even my own brother was a stranger to me.

"Hey! Damien was an asshole and you should be happy you didn't get along. Trust me, he would had just tortured you more than he already did." Eros' voice was soft again, but I didn't look his way. He always seemed to know when I was sad or needed help. I didn't question how or why because the second I felt better he either teased my body or said something rude.

"I guess."

We pulled up to what appeared to be a building but half of it was missing. Literally half of the building looked to be burnt down at some point and the other half wasn't in much better shape.

"You want to go in there?"

"Yup! That is exactly where we are going. Let's go!" He jumped out the car. This time he waited by my door. It would had been sweet except his face was nothing but annoyed I took my time climbing out. If I wasn't so short and the jeep wasn't lifted so high maybe I could get down more easily.

"Shit!" I cursed and my cheeks immediately blushed when I lost my footing and fell out the truck. Eros of course caught me right before my face smashed into the pavement.

"Did you just just say a bad word?" He chuckled.

"Shut up! I hate your stupid jeep." I fixed my clothes and started walking towards the dilapidated building. I was so embarrassed I momentarily forgot to be scared.

Just as I reached the few steps to get in the main door I froze. I can't go in there.

"Scared princess?" Eros had that stupid smirk on his face as he watched my body shrink into nothing.

"Yes. Can I stay in the jeep?" I looked around the neighborhood. It was probably safer to stay by Eros.

"Nope. Come on, Doll." He grabbed my hand and tugged me along. He was finding this amusing and I hated it.

The elevator was broken so we had to walk up three flights of stairs. I wanted to whine to take a break but Eros seemed to be unfazed walking up three hundred flights of stairs.

"Bit out of shape?" He teased.

I smacked his shoulder then nearly jumped on him screaming when I saw a rat.

"Calm down, princess." He placed me back on my feet.

"I never seen a place so... miserable before. I don't like it here." I looked into his eyes with tears.

"Don't cry. You're safe with me." He spoke softly unlike his usual harsh reprimands I got for crying.

"I'll try not to." I grabbed his arm tight into mine and walked slightly behind him. He smirked shaking his head and continued on. I think he is enjoying me being afraid. There was something wrong with him to find pleasure in someone else's misery.