School and College. The End

After I passed my 11th one of my uncles suggested I should go to a better college, but in the end, it didn't happen. That "better college" now made a home in my mind. All this was happening because of that weed boy. But sometimes it comes to my mind that maybe my family just didn't want to 'waste' their hard-earned money.

I failed my English exam in 12th grade. I had to reappear and I passed it with great difficulty this time. Everyone was shocked by this result of mine. For them, I was still that intelligent, smart girl, but the truth is that my studies already crashed when I was still in my 10th class. After that, all I did was waste the years of my life.

My younger brother Harneek was married this year. Shamsher Singh was already married when I was still in 9th class. And of course, these were arranged marriages. After his marriage, I was sent to a women's college. After coming here all I did was choke my carrier and life with my own hands. I choose some meaningless subjects for my college.

I somehow went through my 1st year but again I failed in English in the 2nd and 3rd years. Again it was English sabotaging my results. But instead of preparing for my reappear exams, I was now preparing for my marriage. It was my father who told me this. My engagement was done as if buying a new thing. It's not like it was so simple or not good but thing is that it was so sudden. Maybe that's because my father thought that they won't ever be able to find such a good family again.

I just agreed to it with a heavy heart. My sister Harwinder Kaur was married off when I was in my 2nd year. Now it was my turn. The boy they found for me was a 10th fail boy. Every girl has some expectations for her husband in my case I wanted a boy with a good build and almost about my age. But that boy was a fat man who looked old because of his beard.

I was so sad about it, but I just married him because I didn't want to see my father sad. And what happened to my life after marriage was something most of you people can't even imagine. My married life showed me those things that I can't even explain.

I'll write about it if you wanna know. It's something totally different from what happened till now.

I hope you understood what type of environment our generation grew in and what things we had to go through.