52.

It's hard when your mind and heart are at conflict - one's telling you to be rational, to think things through and avoid being impulsive.

But the other is telling you to do the exact opposite.

And it's confusing.

I stare at my phone screen for a moment, simply blinking, and blinking again, trying to process Sam's words.

His voice sounded sadder than usual, raspier, and simply not like him.

And it was all because of me.

I knew I had to go back to the apartment then - because, like most stories, all good things must come to an end.

And Theo was no longer a regret.

I wouldn't take back that night if it depended on my life - he had made me feel something, anything, after my heart had rejected any feelings for so long.

I was an open book, and gave myself to him completely and wholly.

But fantasies are never meant to last too long.

We both knew this.

"Theo!"