41.

Sam and I were doomed from the start, I know that now.

In the end, it didn't matter who or what came between us.

It just so happened to be him, but it could've been anyone, or anything.

Because that's the thing about Sam and I - we were never meant to be strong enough to survive this together.

I couldn't really focus on anything else after that, not even the fact that I had to get to Sam. I didn't question Lilian on how she knew about Theo's whereabouts, but I'm guessing word spreads fast when you're the captain of the football team.

You have no privacy, and that's what scared me the most.

Because if Theo was back in England, and everyone seemed to know it, who's to say no one was catching on to our secrets already too?

I didn't give Lil a normal response after that. I simply nodded, got up and hugged her one more time, whispering a quick "I'll miss you" in her ear, before letting her get on with packing, and making my way to the apartment.