Chapter 15: "Komi POV part 2"

I was happy. She was so happy.

Ordinary people wouldn't understand what this meant to me. For the first time in my life someone outside of my family had given me a gift, the usual thing would be that they avoided me or were very nervous around me. But now Tadano-San gave me a gift. A genius and very beautiful gift.

My heart felt warm. With both gifts in my hands I pressed them against my chest.

I wanted this memory deep in my memory.

I wasn't stupid, I really liked cats, but I rarely showed it. The only time anyone other than my family saw it was when I embarrassingly meowed at my keychain while waiting for Tadano to wake up.

And today he appears with this. Did he think of me when he bought it? Do you care about my tastes?

Ah just thinking about it the warm feeling in my heart increases.

For a moment the thought of jumping on him and hugging him like a koala ran through my mind.

It grew stronger as the feeling of warmth increased. I used all my willpower to suppress that intrusive train of thought.

What kind of person would you think I was if I did that. Would you take me as a pervert or a weirdo?

But I can't help it. I have to express my feelings.

When the excitement and wanted also a little overheating. One thought pushed everything else aside and focused all my attention on it.

"We haven't thanked him yet."

RIGHT!

I haven't thanked him properly.

Grabbing my new favorite notebook, I quickly wrote a response.

Komi: "Thank you very much Tadano-San. This is the first gift a friend has given me. "I will cherish and cherish it for the rest of my life."

He held the notebook in front of my face, to hide my embarrassed expression, and in turn used the time he was reading my response to calm my racing heart.

When I was achieving it I heard his melodious voice again.

Tadano: "It is not necessary Komi-San, I made this gift just to make it easier for you to communicate with others. Just like you did with me yesterday, if we practice a little more like yesterday, in no time you will have the 100 friends you want."

He told me to finish with a kind smile.

A fleeting thought burst into my mind when I saw that smile.

"That smile, That damn smile. How I would like to wake up next to you and have you give me that smile every morning."

NO! Stop thinking about stupid things. He would never think about me that way. He is just helping me, I can't ruin what I worked so hard to achieve.

It was then that another thought destroyed the previous one and also my internal conflict.

"He said "if we practice a little more like yesterday, in a short time you will have the 100 friends you want", he said that, he believes that my dream is possible, and maybe he can achieve it soon.

I was very excited and my eyes were as bright as stars. If he were a dog he would surely move my tail like a helicopter propeller. Although I generally prefer cats. I quickly grabbed my kitty notebook and wrote.

Komi: "You really believe it!"

I asked him extremely excited.

Tadano: "It's very possible, and we don't lose anything by trying, right?"

It's true, with enough practice it may be possible.

I responded full of conviction.

Komi: "You're right! I will try very hard to meet Tadano-San's expectations!"

Tadano: "Calm down, let's go little by little, okay? There is no need to rush, we still have a few good years to achieve your goal."

It's true. Maybe wanting everything so soon is not healthy. Or humanly possible. But it is with him. If it's with him maybe it is.

Komi: "True… sorry, I got a little emotional" I responded.

Tadano: "No Problem"

I smiled, God, maybe today is the day I have done it the most, listening to his encouraging words for the future gave me a lot of hope to fulfill my dream, that was when my attention focused on the gifts he gave me again. They were so cute and I unconsciously started playing with them. Admiring the cute kitten prints in the notebook and playing with the kitten cap on the pen, for a moment I almost meowed at him like I did with my keychain the previous time. But my reason threw a bucket of cold water on me, I should not embarrass myself like that in front of him again. I wanted to show. I had to be an exemplary friend and meet the expectations he had of me.

It was at that moment that my reason also brought up something that I had forgotten and which was a very serious mistake.

"He greeted you so warmly and kindly, but you ungrateful person has not given him a proper response until now."

Trembling, I turned to look at him.

Tadano: "Is something wrong Komi-San?"

I wonder, always so kind. Why I'm such a bad friend?.

I tremblingly poured out my guilty feelings into the notebook and showed it to him.

Komi: "I-I'm sorry Tadano-San, I'm a very horrible person… you greeted me so happily. And-and as your friend I didn't greet you back until now. I-I'm so sorry."

I was deeply distressed by this matter, I really didn't want to lose my first friend, just thinking about his angry face with me made tears form at the edges of my eyes.

But when my heart was about to break, a familiar and very gentle hand rested on my head, ruffling my hair, I could hear his sweet voice comforting me.

Tadano: "Oh come on Komi-San. Don't cry over such small things, it's nothing serious and nothing you should worry so much about."

Although I'm glad he wasn't mad at me, I didn't agree with his statement, I had been very rude to him, while he was just nice to me. So I responded.

Komi: "B-but I… I am very rude."

Tadano: "Calm down… everything is fine"

He told me comfortingly as he rubbed my head.

Tadano: "Now stop crying because you ruined your pretty face with your tears," I said while wiping away the few tears that formed on the edges of his eyes due to anguish.

Ah! There it was again! The warm feeling.

It's very pleasant, so we spent a while while he rubbed my head, I liked him doing it, I felt at peace with myself.

After a couple of minutes in this situation he spoke again.

Tadano: "Are you calmer now?"

Komi: "Yes… thank you very much Tadano-San"

I was a little embarrassed that he saw such a side of me.

Tadano: "No problem. Now come on, let's go to class or we'll be late and the teachers will scold us."

Komi: "Yes, let's go then."

*in the hallways*

Tadano: "Well then… why don't we practice a little how you will introduce yourself"

He told me as we were on our way to our class.

I stopped for a moment to reflect on it.

It was a good idea. Plus it was better to practice with a real person than to do it alone.

Maybe this way I can also little by little overcome my social anxiety.

When I thought about it I got excited.

It was then that I realized it.

It would be fine for me but what about him.

And yes it's boring.

And if I fail so much that he decides to stop being my friend.

Or worse if he gets angry with me.

Having those negative thoughts running through my mind made me stop completely and freeze in panic.

Tadano: "Komi-San?"

I speak pushing all negative thoughts away from me.

But I was still a little nervous.

Tadano: "Come on, you don't have to be so afraid, I know an expert on this topic who might be able to help us."

That's true?

As expected of Tadano-San, he always has a solution.

Excited, I quickly took out my notebook and wrote.

Komi: "Really? Do you think she can help us? "Won't we make her uncomfortable?"

Tadano: "Don't worry, leave it to me."

He is always so reliable.

Author's note: well here we are, the real chapter. I'm still writing the other 3, it took me a little longer than I would like editing this chapter. well here it is anyway. By the way, if you think I'm writing something that exaggerates Komi-San, I have to say that you didn't understand her character very well at the beginning. At first she means at the beginning of the manga. Komi-San is very VERY "influenceable", besides the fact that she feels very alone, only because of the author's magic and that her manga did not have the Seinen label, nothing has happened to her while Tadano was not there . This is reinforced by the fact that she is capable of doing things that scare her a lot in order to get a friend, such as when she went to get coffee.

But depressive author, going for coffee is not the same.

In part it is. because she leaves a precedent, from which little by little she can climb until ending in a tragic and regrettable end.

Believe me, Komi-san's ending wouldn't be pretty if she didn't have a lot of people behind her. As later she was shown that a group of her was following her to secretly protect her.

leaving that aside. I'm also experimenting with POV's to give more depth to Komi's feelings and try to express her loneliness. Being alone can be very tragic and depressive.

Well, leaving that aside, I hope you like the chapter, as always, drink plenty of water and remember that I love you very much. Attention to the depressive author.

----------------------- mwm