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I went to school tomorrow to have lunch during the lunch break. There was a Literature Teacher with me. He was sitting on top of us for a while. While I was eating, he started asking questions. He was asking what the evening was and which school I worked at. I wasn't really listening. I was always busy eating. The pay teacher next to me was constantly warning me and asking you questions. I was giving short and forced answers. I started to find their questions unnecessary. "Is it unnecessary?" Zehra then continued hurriedly. Of course, it may seem unnecessary to you. All people probably want to be together all the time because of the ones they love. But not just for personal reasons such as falling in love, but because of an insoluble feeling. This kind of bonding can only happen when they enter the service of a third Higher authority, as it were, on the basis of a common duty, otherwise all these indissoluble ties have no meaning. What they want here is to go beyond what is related to their personal feelings. In any case, this is a very different thing. It is also different from the love between the sexes. You can really darken the entire concept of marriage in a person's mind. I literally shuddered with horror. Fortunately, you are wrong. It doesn't reflect it fully. So this time, it lacks its share of beauty and ceremony. Maybe that's why I think we can get married much more. Before we get married, we get down on our knees, as if we were doing the exact opposite and giving up our personal rights for life, as if we were completely closed to the divine world. Even though it was coming, it was still pleasant and exciting for me to discuss it with your taste. However, it seemed that his views as well as his appearance had become more feminine than before. Maybe that's why we became close friends during that short week when we saw each other constantly, now he always sits next to each other in the school bus, when you get off the bus, you go to the tension you stay in Instead, I was going to her house, I was eating the delicious food prepared by her mother, then we were going to our room, we started writing together to my graduate aunt, then we were listening to music and reading books together, then she started eating oranges and making love. Zerrin's behavior towards her sister, whom she had viewed with so much suspicion at the time, is now extremely sympathetic to me. And I soon realized that the simplicity and well-intentioned confidence in the girl's demeanor was a characteristic of Tatar girls. Zerrin was not very different from the others. Although she had a long life, the expression of her natural nature was much stronger than the things she learned. Necip Erdoğan was currently talking about what connected her to her country and back. He showed the greatest proof of his trust in the data by thinking about what the caller was. Thus, he learned about the relationship Zeynep had had a year ago. Then he told it in the winter weather, in their small room in the middle of the snow-covered apartment buildings around. Zerrin responded to his confession with lively interest and said, "It is really a secret, my love." I mean, I don't know such a thing as our closest ones to anyone. It must be difficult to continue like this. I have to continue like this. The man said, Because she is married, how did you meet? He asked about Zehra, my friend. You mostly leave the Hawaiian troops on Us Girls. He said, 'You're welcome. I'm always in Eskişehir.' In the beginning, he was a savior who took him away from the somewhat suffocating spiritual environment of his own home. It started like that, we went out to eat a few times. His wife was not bothered by me going out to dinner with her. She sometimes went out to dinner not only with me, but also with other male teachers, and she said that her husband gave her permission to do so, but I didn't expect that we would go further. Maybe he didn't think about it either, and at that time, I was engaged to a mathematics teacher. Moreover, my fiancée Dilek thinks that I am worse than I am, mostly like that, but this does not intimidate her, she loves me like a look, without demanding anything, she loves me like the most stubborn of female pride. "This is nothing but a mask for his excessive modesty," said tastein excitedly. "Oh, such a manly attitude, but he has great specialties for you. Doesn't this upset you?" A shy expression appeared on Necip Erdoğan's face, which was so hidden underneath. "Unfortunately, he said no, we are sorry." There is something about your humility that amazes me, I think it is something that strengthens mutual love. I am very happy with him. However, your family does not approve of us marrying because the math teacher had a marriage that lasted 3 years before me and my family wants me to marry someone who has never been married before. For example, Zerrin, a couple like you. He was silent for a minute, it seemed like there was something occupying his right, and yet, despite all these challenging circumstances, I do not want to marry you yet, but IMy fiancé Dilek, who is a mathematics teacher, wants him to agree to marry me, but unfortunately I am in a dead end. Zerrin was silent for a few minutes, it seemed like there was something occupying his mind, and despite all these challenging conditions, does he not want to marry you yet? In fact, he wants to marry, but he wants to marry your family, not just me. He tells my conversation that he is very beautiful but not very handsome. He explains that he experienced his true love during his university years and that he does not want to have a marriage of convenience anymore. Recep Erdoğan's face showed such a stunned expression that Zerrin started to see the differences of this unexpected comment, not to marry me and How so? So, I am not in a position to come back better than I am. I responded back. Of course, he will be happy to marry me as soon as it is possible. I have reduced the amount of dogs that fall into his share of the family inheritance by spending time on travel and higher education, so much so that I will have to enter the university as a research assistant first. Seher was lost in thought during the last moments of the meal. Then Necip Erdoğan stood up to go to the school where he and his loved one studied. Necip Erdoğan stayed at them too. In good times, most of the time is spent getting to know the neighborhood. He had not been to this part of Eskişehir before. There was a mosque ahead. While there was still a long way to go to the mosque, Bulvar turned into a safe case. and it almost had a spiritual appearance. There were white mosque charity buildings with star-shaped symbols on the main gate. And of course, the alms box was rising among the small modest houses on the low roof, which did not dare to turn into another color. Even higher, the magnificent city was also written under its silhouette. In the pale neighborhood, with its walls and domes, wrapped in the smoke rising from the holy places, it was stretching towards the sky. Bull rosaries and wreaths were being sold in the shops around, and all of this, according to the profits, mixed with the last crash planes of the administration within the Muslims, and the white color of comfort was spreading like an indescribable telephone, and further behind, the arrival of the mosque was very wide. The girl was lying in peace. Recep Erdoğan was about to come to the garden when he carried her. Right at the entrance, her fingers were emitting golden sparkles, she was leaning on him, her back was facing him. Her effort turned around, but she was not afraid, then she answered by walking away from the door, she said, "I followed you." Now I was going to my brother-in-law's, do you have any special plans to have my dinner there? "Come with me, we are in the middle of the family, you are always amazed inside," he said with pleasure. "I come like this to accompany the thief. Along the promenade in that beautiful old city air." Shall we walk? The girl nodded, holding it in front of the night, walking around without talking, coming here. "Where did he come up with jokes?" He said the same thing to me. "Isn't it better if I ask you?" he interrupted the girl. "It's not a suitable walk for a young girl who doesn't have a sense of companionship. I thought you were busy studying, that's why I didn't visit you, anyway. I always imagine you studying like crazy and you I was going to take the university exam again because you are wandering around here. That's why he was making preparations. Actually, he can't write that he was technically nervous on the computer, but he introduced himself as a computer teacher to Necip Erdoğan. He was planning to take the exam again and switch from one wheel to engineering. Therefore, apart from writing a thesis, he also went to university entrance exam preparation courses, asked a lot of questions. He was solving problems but he always helped me a lot in the fake ones. He said yes, let's get married. You're right, you know, the habituation period is over, I'm already experiencing a transitional period, an empty period here, right? Until I start the job that was promised to me, I enjoy it too. I enjoy teaching, but in engineering. My biggest dream is to relax and relax by lazing around after working with my soul, I really feel like a patient in the recovery period, but I also enjoy writing your thesis. I hope one day I can write my own thesis. People live very differently, more openly, more ready to receive their intuitions, more fully alert. "You are not, but you are not asleep either," he said. "You are in power." The man completed the sentence without beating around the bush. Zerrenin took a quick look at him and then grabbed him. "We changed patients. 'So,' the young man continued. 'Because I worked hard this year. So, doesn't it scare you to take on a teaching position after this free period? "So we've changed," said the girl, laughed. "I can't think that far ahead right now, but it won't seem bad. Because it's a job that I've always found attractive. Then, he became silent again with a thoughtful expression on his face, as if he was busy doing something he didn't say. Meanwhile, they reached the more crowded areas of Eskişehir, where the young people were all over the place." The crowd of people constantly passing between them was already making it difficult for them to chat. The sun was slowly setting.