6_A question

Lucius was drawing a yellow rose, but his mind was not fully focused on it. He was thinking., thinking about a lot of things. His face was normal, serene. If you looked at him, you wouldn't know that his mind was in turmoil.

[Why am I drawing? Where am I?]

He understood that this was reality and not a dream or a lucid dream. He just knew.

[But how? How did I get into this situation?]

He suddenly had a realization: [Lin!]

[So, it's real. Amazing!]

He really was amazed. After all, Lin really didn't lie to him. It was real. He wasn't shocked because he began accepting that this was real after accepting it was not a dream.

[But now I know why I am here. But... How old am I now? And... Do I know them? They look around the age of 16 but I don't remember them.]

Lin told Lucius that a lot of things will be the same. So, won't his classmates be the same? But he couldn't remember them.

[Ah!] He got a sudden realization.

[If they are around 16 that means I'm the same age. And when I was around that age, I was a trainee, so I was practicing after school and slept most of the time at school. I didn't really have a lot of friends in school and didn't really interact with them.]

He suddenly felt that he was really stupid. Because that guy was really handsome. How can you forget someone like that? Even seeing him just once will give you an everlasting impression.

[ *SIGH* I was a loner back then. I didn't even go on school trips because I wanted to practice singing and dancing. Even when my family told me to go, I didn't. I feel really stupid.]

He was so in his thought that he didn't realize that someone was coming closer to him.

Lucius almost screamed because someone suddenly tapped on his shoulders. Even though he was shocked he didn't show it. He was used to suppressing his emotion, but it still scared him. Normally he would notice it if someone got closer, but he was thinking too hard that he really didn't notice it.

[I've become really careless. I should think in other places. Without people.]

He thought this while he was turning around to see who the person was that almost made him scream.

When he turned around, he saw golden-like hair and gray eyes appearing. Even though he was a bit just a little bit angry, but he couldn't help but stare at him. He was really mesmerizing.

They made eye contact. They were both silent for a second. But the silence ended when the boy who mesmerized Lucius opened his mouth: "Sorry, did I scare you?"

[Is that gold?], Lucius thought that he saw the colour gold in that guy's eyes. He isn't sure but it is not like he could get closer to check. But he didn't forget to reply to him: "I was a bit scared but I'm okay. Did you need something?"

He only looked at Lucius and said nothing. Lucius found it a bit awkward, but he didn't let it show. He only began smiling.

But when he began smiling, he finally spoke: "I thought that maybe something was wrong because you weren't drawing anything."

Lucius was a bit embarrassed. He couldn't say that he was thinking about how old he was, right?

He began smiling and laughed a little: "Haha... I was thinking about something. Don't worry nothing is wrong with me. I'll think about it after we are done with this."

"You..."

"Yes?", Lucius was really confused.

[Did I do something wrong?]

He didn't know so he was waiting for him so he could know what he was thinking.

"Why do you always smile like that?"

Lucius was a bit confused, but he didn't mind and just spoke further: "Why are you forcing yourself to smile even though you don't want to. Why?", he sounded really confused. Because he really couldn't understand why he was smiling even when he didn't mean to.

He understands that people smile when they are happy or sometimes you smile to be polite. But he was neither of them. He genuinely didn't understand it.

Lucius was dumbfounded. Nobody. Literally, nobody ever knew he was faking his smile. But here was someone who notices it. He was shocked and didn't know what to answer.

He saw that Lucius seemed shocked. He took a step closer. He was now closer to him.

[What is this feeling?]

Lucius's emotions were going out of control. He made it so they would be hidden so he wouldn't get hurt. So, he would be loved. But when he saw him getting closer, he felt it.

He felt fear.

Fear of getting exposed. He didn't know what he should do. When he took a step to him, Lucius would take a step back. His back was almost against the blackboard.

"Is everything alright?", he asked.

He was genuinely asking. He didn't know that he would react like that. He was really worried. He was pale, paler than he already was. All the colour was draining out his face. Even though his face said nothing, but he knew for sure he wasn't okay. He really didn't know what to do. So, he stopped walking and just stared at him.

Lucius was trembling.

[He knows! He knows I'm faking everything. Will he tell it to everyone? Will everyone now hate me?]

"Snap out of it!", he didn't know what to do. But he knew that he was thinking about something. Something dark. So, he can only scream to him hoping that he can get his attention.

But Lucius was still deep in his dark thought. He began breathing faster.

[Shit! What should I do?] The boy began to ruffle his neat hair. He was really worried. It seemed like he didn't like it when he came close to him, but he didn't really have a choice.

He walked him. He grasped his shoulders: "Snap out of it! Lucius"

He screamed hoping that he wouldn't drown in his thought, but it already was too late.

[What do I do? What do I do? I'm scared. Help me...]