Chapter 5 pt1; Am I Sorry?

"I'm.... I'm sorry that I can't help that me and all the other 'troublesome' kids just wanted an adventure. I'm so sorry if its such a big deal, we sneak into a basement that holds many secrets about missing children, unknown men, AND A FANTASY LAND IVE TALKED ABOUT FOR YEARS NOW!!! IM NOT SORRY!!!" I realize that I'm making a big deal but it really does mean the world to me. The world everyone thought was fake has proof of it being real. Its like my heart broke, I dont know whether to be happy or angry. Mrs.Beverley just looked at me, she was in silence. "Tell me, tell me is tomorrow land real! TELL ME IF ALL MY EFFORTS WERE WORTH IT! TELL ME!!!" I yelled, wanting an answer. "I....I was trying to keep you children safe..." she said hesitantly. I was confused, what was she trying to keep us away. What bad is there? "So all this time...after all this time you scolded me about how tomorrow land is fake when it was real. There was somedays I felt like there was nothing left for me, I didnt know what to do with my life. It was right infront of me." I tried to go but Meredith grabbed onto my arm, "Wait...you have to understand. We didnt want you to go missing." I looked confused, "What do you mean missing?" Meredith sighed, "Children like you go missing when they try to find tomorrow land. They say they'll come back but they dont." I yanked my arm back, "Well yeah maybe because they're sick of the world they lived in. Maybe they wanted to get away." I realized Theo, Emily, and Houston was listening the whole time. I sighed walking towards them and pulling them to my dorm. We went in and shut the door. "Guys...we have a tomorrow to find."

((Guys I'm sorry for the short part but for this chapter I'm going to have to cut off for a while. I've been having issues with my anxiety and havent been sleeping real well and I have alot on my right now. I try to finish a chapter everyday but I cant right now. I have to focus on myself for awhile but I'll be back in awhile maybe a week or a couple of days. It may seem like not alot of time to recover but I really dont wanna keep people that actually enjoy reading my story. Hope you guys, gals, nonbinary pals understand. See ya later, Iz ya author Maxiboi going for awhile. Have a nice week.